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Being hurt or hurting other people is on my mind always so I highly doubt I could be Platina. Reading replies is often difficult for me and I have to force myself. As I mentioned often I just have this tough exterior.
vitamin.X last decade
I was a bit of suicidal yesterday night. Although I do not have it in me to ever do such thing and I could not do it to my parents. Was at peace with the idea of death again and see it as a way out of all this. Than I visioned how it would be like if my mother saw me with a knife in the kitchen and that she would probably hold me than and like me. So that I would feel once again that someone likes me and I had to cry a lot following this. Self-pity? Noone likes me, I am alone. I took lycopodium yesterday in the evening. I know how bad this is myself so please dont say anything that is just going to hurt more, but I am so lost and need to do something fast. THe day where I will have to go back to society is coming closer and closer and with that will come a lot of pain and hurt. I felt better after crieing for a while yesterday night.
vitamin.X last decade
Life is so difficult. THere is no stable connection. People can like you one moment but leave you the next moment if you do something wrong or something they didnt like. And feeling loved is impossible it seems.
vitamin.X last decade
Phew this panic when I see someone post in my threat. BUt all good, nothing bad happened. Thanks for the suggestion. Yes I think it is time to start doing some other self help again beside homeopathy.
vitamin.X last decade
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
No homeopathy will continue. I tried those things for years with real determination and did not get anywhere.
With self help alone I will never get emotional maturity. For some reason on Platina I saw signs of maybe getting it. And today in the morning a bit again. But I dont know.
I am feeling fine. I believe platina is still working from the 3 remedies in my system. BDD is not here suprisingly. Have a feeling in my teeth today since waking up. But a reluctance to open personal emails, read posts addressed to me. Great uncomfortablness but than when I open up the messages there is no sstrong reaction at all. I would like to find an explanation why Platina seems to work partially since it does not fit me at all I believe.
With self help alone I will never get emotional maturity. For some reason on Platina I saw signs of maybe getting it. And today in the morning a bit again. But I dont know.
I am feeling fine. I believe platina is still working from the 3 remedies in my system. BDD is not here suprisingly. Have a feeling in my teeth today since waking up. But a reluctance to open personal emails, read posts addressed to me. Great uncomfortablness but than when I open up the messages there is no sstrong reaction at all. I would like to find an explanation why Platina seems to work partially since it does not fit me at all I believe.
vitamin.X last decade
There are always going to be lots of partial similars. Partial similars don't cure you, they palliate some of the symptoms for awhile, then because the cause has not been addressed, they will come back, or new symptoms get produced by the deranged vital energy.
This was why Hahnemann wrote Chronic Diseases, because of this observation over years of using partial similars. If the miasmatic cause is not cured, then you will go around and around in the same pattern of symptoms, chasing bits of it with remedies and never really changing anything, until pathology appears which will be incurable.
This is what your miasm does, it undermines all other efforts to cure the patient permanently.
You are aiming Platina at one basic problem, rather than the whole problem. So while you keep using it, that problem may remain somewhat better. Over time it will begin to fail, as your disease finds ways around the remedy. This is always the case with partial similars.
This was why Hahnemann wrote Chronic Diseases, because of this observation over years of using partial similars. If the miasmatic cause is not cured, then you will go around and around in the same pattern of symptoms, chasing bits of it with remedies and never really changing anything, until pathology appears which will be incurable.
This is what your miasm does, it undermines all other efforts to cure the patient permanently.
You are aiming Platina at one basic problem, rather than the whole problem. So while you keep using it, that problem may remain somewhat better. Over time it will begin to fail, as your disease finds ways around the remedy. This is always the case with partial similars.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
Oh and the continuous use of partial similars can make you incurable eventually. Once the physical pathologies begin to appear you are in serious trouble, it becomes so much more difficult to find a remedy to help you. Of course by that time patients will usually end up in the hands of allopaths, since homoeopathy has failed them (in the way that is is being used).
While the use of partial similars in the hands of a skilled homoeopath can actually be used as a method to reach the simillimum, in the hands of most others it simply allows the patient to cope long enough, for the miasm to twist their health into an incurable state.
Another thing you need to be aware of as well. You are not under the effect of 3 remedies. You are only under the effect of the last one you took. So by taking Lycopodium, anything good Platina might have been doing, is likely to be hidden at least, or possibly undone. Anything you feel now, will be influenced by the latest remedy. When you take another remedy, as you undoubtedly will in the next few hours or days, that remedy will change how you see and feel. So by doing this, you become more and more blind to whatever your real feelings are. The remedies change things at such a deep level, you will believe it is you feeling it.
[message edited by brisbanehomoeopath on Thu, 06 Oct 2011 02:15:30 BST]
While the use of partial similars in the hands of a skilled homoeopath can actually be used as a method to reach the simillimum, in the hands of most others it simply allows the patient to cope long enough, for the miasm to twist their health into an incurable state.
Another thing you need to be aware of as well. You are not under the effect of 3 remedies. You are only under the effect of the last one you took. So by taking Lycopodium, anything good Platina might have been doing, is likely to be hidden at least, or possibly undone. Anything you feel now, will be influenced by the latest remedy. When you take another remedy, as you undoubtedly will in the next few hours or days, that remedy will change how you see and feel. So by doing this, you become more and more blind to whatever your real feelings are. The remedies change things at such a deep level, you will believe it is you feeling it.
[message edited by brisbanehomoeopath on Thu, 06 Oct 2011 02:15:30 BST]
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
I appreciate the answers. I am in a state where I dont care much about risking harming myself as something needs to be done but of course on the other hand I dont want to do this and am afraid of it. And it is bad and feel guilt for saying I dont care about harming myself. I should get punished.
I feel so lost on my own. I cannot really have any hope in lycopodium, anacardium, staphysgaria, sulphur... any remedies that could potentialy be me. Zero hope and just another week will be wasted. The moment I take them there is despair that it surely wasnt the right one.
Please help after a week or so. So I can have some faith in the remedy that has been taken by me. When november will arrive I will feel so horrible and in such panic. I will get older, another year will pass, parents will nag me to do something and I will be forced and feel on my own with all this again and noone on my side.
Of the remedies I took I just took 1 drop and 1 teaspoon this time at least
I feel so lost on my own. I cannot really have any hope in lycopodium, anacardium, staphysgaria, sulphur... any remedies that could potentialy be me. Zero hope and just another week will be wasted. The moment I take them there is despair that it surely wasnt the right one.
Please help after a week or so. So I can have some faith in the remedy that has been taken by me. When november will arrive I will feel so horrible and in such panic. I will get older, another year will pass, parents will nag me to do something and I will be forced and feel on my own with all this again and noone on my side.
Of the remedies I took I just took 1 drop and 1 teaspoon this time at least
vitamin.X last decade
Family members will soon come home and I am going to go out, dont want to face them when I feel sad as I cannot show myself to them this way. Need to make a happyy face and show that nothing is wrong which doesnt leave me feeling good at all.
vitamin.X last decade
I am confused again about something.
I walked out of my house and a girl walked across the street and the freezing, tension, movement problem came up. I moved my head to the right away from her immediately and kept it their all the time until she got into her car. Looking anywhere near her would just make me freeze, it is impossible. I hope to never get approached when I feel so restricted as it is very uncomfortable. The move I would have to make with my head to look at her face would be really unpleasant.
-By the way I never walk outside without my dog. I could not go for a walk to the beach without my dog. I would have tremendous anxiety if I saw someone I have to pass without my dog on a leash beside me. I could not walk past people.
Some new people moved into our neighbourhood and I felt like hiding. Not wanting to be the first SAD person they see in the neighbourhood and make them feel in what a bad neighbourhood they just moved in.
The thing I am confused about is:
I saw news on a website that someone famous passed away and I felt the shock of not being able to believe this happened and how is this possible that he is not here anymore, death is a strange thing. And this sensation that I get when death is the topic is as if something is pushing me out of my body. Which feels like torture trying to hold on. Maybe a claustrophobic reaction of something pressing against me.
And later I had images of needing to be someone great and above the common people again??... this is what I am confused about
When I think of his death now. I dont feel anything. Once the shock passes I cannot get the feelings anymore and I try but I cant. It is like I am brain dead. Protected from it. It happens when I get told I will have an appointment in a week. First reaction panic but than I cannot feel anything about it anymore until the day of the appointment arrives. Protective defense mechanism?
[message edited by vitamin.X on Thu, 06 Oct 2011 05:16:34 BST]
I walked out of my house and a girl walked across the street and the freezing, tension, movement problem came up. I moved my head to the right away from her immediately and kept it their all the time until she got into her car. Looking anywhere near her would just make me freeze, it is impossible. I hope to never get approached when I feel so restricted as it is very uncomfortable. The move I would have to make with my head to look at her face would be really unpleasant.
-By the way I never walk outside without my dog. I could not go for a walk to the beach without my dog. I would have tremendous anxiety if I saw someone I have to pass without my dog on a leash beside me. I could not walk past people.
Some new people moved into our neighbourhood and I felt like hiding. Not wanting to be the first SAD person they see in the neighbourhood and make them feel in what a bad neighbourhood they just moved in.
The thing I am confused about is:
I saw news on a website that someone famous passed away and I felt the shock of not being able to believe this happened and how is this possible that he is not here anymore, death is a strange thing. And this sensation that I get when death is the topic is as if something is pushing me out of my body. Which feels like torture trying to hold on. Maybe a claustrophobic reaction of something pressing against me.
And later I had images of needing to be someone great and above the common people again??... this is what I am confused about
When I think of his death now. I dont feel anything. Once the shock passes I cannot get the feelings anymore and I try but I cant. It is like I am brain dead. Protected from it. It happens when I get told I will have an appointment in a week. First reaction panic but than I cannot feel anything about it anymore until the day of the appointment arrives. Protective defense mechanism?
[message edited by vitamin.X on Thu, 06 Oct 2011 05:16:34 BST]
vitamin.X last decade
I cannot accept death. I had the same reaction once when a dog I had died while I was in school after a car hit it. No saddness or anything. It just isnt possible that my dog died and isnt here anymore. So I could not be sad. I was 16 at the time.
vitamin.X last decade
Maybe a bit of hope.
When I went out of the house I heard my neighbour is outside so I felt the strong anxiety/fear but I looked at him and greeted him anyway. I could do it despite the anxiety I thought and who cares. Although this feeling when I am anxious and look at someones face is quite something. It Is like I am caught or something. I looked at his face but had to look away immediately as I froze. This restriction all around me.
Later on a narrow pathway beside a lake a small girl around age 5 walked towards me with her dog and I didnt like it. I hoped she would just turn around or walk right past me. I feel bad when a small child comes up to me. I worry in case someone sees me they might think I am a paedophile or something. So I just want to avoid them. So the little girl stopped and talked to me. Greeted me first and I felt bad as I am older and should be the one who would do it first. Then she talked to me but I didnt understand a word she said. So I wanted to say something back but it seemed she did not understand me either and I felt humiliated. It was funny she was fine with me not understanding her but I felt humiliated as always. It is hard to admit for me but I have a great LACK of confidence when it comes to speaking. In the past I got humiliated often or so I think from speaking unclearly when anxious.
When I went out of the house I heard my neighbour is outside so I felt the strong anxiety/fear but I looked at him and greeted him anyway. I could do it despite the anxiety I thought and who cares. Although this feeling when I am anxious and look at someones face is quite something. It Is like I am caught or something. I looked at his face but had to look away immediately as I froze. This restriction all around me.
Later on a narrow pathway beside a lake a small girl around age 5 walked towards me with her dog and I didnt like it. I hoped she would just turn around or walk right past me. I feel bad when a small child comes up to me. I worry in case someone sees me they might think I am a paedophile or something. So I just want to avoid them. So the little girl stopped and talked to me. Greeted me first and I felt bad as I am older and should be the one who would do it first. Then she talked to me but I didnt understand a word she said. So I wanted to say something back but it seemed she did not understand me either and I felt humiliated. It was funny she was fine with me not understanding her but I felt humiliated as always. It is hard to admit for me but I have a great LACK of confidence when it comes to speaking. In the past I got humiliated often or so I think from speaking unclearly when anxious.
vitamin.X last decade
Based on the death of this person today... for some reason my issue of needing to be something great is coming up again. Having a normal job or life is not an option. I do not know where those thoughts are coming from since I am incapable, a failure and all is sort of hopeless.
vitamin.X last decade
This is hard. I could make a case for Platina, lycopodium, natrum muriaticum
And when I take those remedies it doesnt feel right. As I change, go into a different state.
Platina haughtiness (although just internal); distance from people; special, big, appreciation
Lycopodium lack of confidence; am smaller than everyone else(?); need to protect myself; feel uncertain, doubt inside of me and fear when criticised but project myself to the outside as someone confident or assured, feel uncertain until the person agrees with me, fear of getting exposed as a small unknowledgeable person (?); fear failure, not wanting to undertake anything as it is all for nothing anyway, too late, to small. Egoisem-need to prove myself, argumentative
Natrum muriaticum desire for a friend in my life, Strong emotional vulnerability around love, guilt, fear of getting hurt, rejected, humiliated, ridiculed, feeling unworthy, unlovable, feel no genuine love that will last ever, closed, alone with my problems, dont want to talk about them in person with anyone, block off when my mother attempts to talk to me about them and feel the need to avoid the situation quick before tears and everything comes up, a pleaser to my father most of the time for emotional reasons. Attached to my father but no one really knows it or could believe it. do not ask for anything from my father, feel very uncomfortable when he wants to give me something and do not want to accept, I do whatever a stranger asks of me, I could not do otherwise, feel good when I was of use/help to someone outside of my home or my father but cannot stand his boasting, egoisem. As I am not allowed to feel good about myself. I cannot be egoistic. It feels so bad to think high of yourself around my father
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I am very confused and have no direction. Today I feel in touch with my serious more mature side again and thinking that I am lycopodium does not seem right. But to early to abandon it. It is the remedy I have the greatest aversion too so technically it must be the right one.
I also got in touch with this side when on Platina, although much more while on platina. Where I felt like praying for forgiveness and deleting all illegal things I acquired over the internet on my computer. And just wished to do right, help. But sadly this left me after a few days on
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 02:41:56 BST]
Platina haughtiness (although just internal); distance from people; special, big, appreciation
Lycopodium lack of confidence; am smaller than everyone else(?); need to protect myself; feel uncertain, doubt inside of me and fear when criticised but project myself to the outside as someone confident or assured, feel uncertain until the person agrees with me, fear of getting exposed as a small unknowledgeable person (?); fear failure, not wanting to undertake anything as it is all for nothing anyway, too late, to small. Egoisem-need to prove myself, argumentative
Natrum muriaticum desire for a friend in my life, Strong emotional vulnerability around love, guilt, fear of getting hurt, rejected, humiliated, ridiculed, feeling unworthy, unlovable, feel no genuine love that will last ever, closed, alone with my problems, dont want to talk about them in person with anyone, block off when my mother attempts to talk to me about them and feel the need to avoid the situation quick before tears and everything comes up, a pleaser to my father most of the time for emotional reasons. Attached to my father but no one really knows it or could believe it. do not ask for anything from my father, feel very uncomfortable when he wants to give me something and do not want to accept, I do whatever a stranger asks of me, I could not do otherwise, feel good when I was of use/help to someone outside of my home or my father but cannot stand his boasting, egoisem. As I am not allowed to feel good about myself. I cannot be egoistic. It feels so bad to think high of yourself around my father
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I am very confused and have no direction. Today I feel in touch with my serious more mature side again and thinking that I am lycopodium does not seem right. But to early to abandon it. It is the remedy I have the greatest aversion too so technically it must be the right one.
I also got in touch with this side when on Platina, although much more while on platina. Where I felt like praying for forgiveness and deleting all illegal things I acquired over the internet on my computer. And just wished to do right, help. But sadly this left me after a few days on
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 02:41:56 BST]
vitamin.X last decade
That is not how remedies are chosen. You have an aversion to it and you must be it? There is no logic in that at all.
What if you need a remedy you don't know? You won't have an aversion to something you have never heard of. You only know of a tiny number of our remedies, perhaps if you read about all 5000+ of them and see which ones you can't stand the sound of, perhaps then that would have some relevence.
What you hate about Lycopodium is the issue of High and Low, the lack of confidence. That is your issue, and it is common to hundreds of other remedies. You love the remedies that are high, you hate the ones that are low, you love the ones that are powerful, you hate the ones that are weak. It is your issue you hate, not the remedy. As I pointed out to you several times before you don't really get Lycopodium anyway - you are only ever hearing your own stuff, reacting to your internal state. It has nothing to do with these external things (with reality).
What are your feelings about Herman's Tortoise, what about Beryl-fluoride, or Rosa St. Francis? What about row 7 on the periodic table, what about the Fungi group of plants, what about the Monkey sub-group? You don't know any of these - what if you have an aversion to one of them?
You have almost no knowledge of homoeopathy or materia medica, and you are continue to talk as if you know what you are doing.
What if you need a remedy you don't know? You won't have an aversion to something you have never heard of. You only know of a tiny number of our remedies, perhaps if you read about all 5000+ of them and see which ones you can't stand the sound of, perhaps then that would have some relevence.
What you hate about Lycopodium is the issue of High and Low, the lack of confidence. That is your issue, and it is common to hundreds of other remedies. You love the remedies that are high, you hate the ones that are low, you love the ones that are powerful, you hate the ones that are weak. It is your issue you hate, not the remedy. As I pointed out to you several times before you don't really get Lycopodium anyway - you are only ever hearing your own stuff, reacting to your internal state. It has nothing to do with these external things (with reality).
What are your feelings about Herman's Tortoise, what about Beryl-fluoride, or Rosa St. Francis? What about row 7 on the periodic table, what about the Fungi group of plants, what about the Monkey sub-group? You don't know any of these - what if you have an aversion to one of them?
You have almost no knowledge of homoeopathy or materia medica, and you are continue to talk as if you know what you are doing.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
I am often saying things out of 'getting approval' reasons. Like if I sound ok with staying on lycopodium since I have the greatest aversion to it, it makes me feel good. Since I sound reasonable that way, and my chances of you staying wit me are hightened is my way of thinking lol.
My issue with lycopodium is a specific one. I am not sure whether the picture I have about lycopodium is correct or not. But this issue of needing to project onto the outside to be something else than what you feel on the inside is the strong aversion for me. I believe there are issues of abandonment/ being forsaken around it? Like this means I am unlikeable, noone will want me and I will forever need to chase other people and project myself as something I do not believe I am myself. This is horrible. How can you have real contact if you hide something about yourself, or how can you feel safe that the relationship will last if you have something to hide. There would be constant danger. And no real good feeling. I like to be open, real, have nothing to hide because in those moments I can feel a connection
Lycopodium to me seems the remedy that has faults within and knows it. So he feels in danger that noone will want him. Well he knows it and now he has to appear capable, good to other people so they would want him. But this creates danger and violates my views. Being open, honest, is what creates stable connections for me.
I am sure I dont have the lycopodium picture correct. But that is how I see it and it is one of danger of difficulty making contact and being accepted by people.
I should have know and followed my intuition. This emotional neediness it just doesnt fit. I am often over emotional, theatrical etc and I highly doubt lycopodium is like that.
My issue with lycopodium is a specific one. I am not sure whether the picture I have about lycopodium is correct or not. But this issue of needing to project onto the outside to be something else than what you feel on the inside is the strong aversion for me. I believe there are issues of abandonment/ being forsaken around it? Like this means I am unlikeable, noone will want me and I will forever need to chase other people and project myself as something I do not believe I am myself. This is horrible. How can you have real contact if you hide something about yourself, or how can you feel safe that the relationship will last if you have something to hide. There would be constant danger. And no real good feeling. I like to be open, real, have nothing to hide because in those moments I can feel a connection
Lycopodium to me seems the remedy that has faults within and knows it. So he feels in danger that noone will want him. Well he knows it and now he has to appear capable, good to other people so they would want him. But this creates danger and violates my views. Being open, honest, is what creates stable connections for me.
I am sure I dont have the lycopodium picture correct. But that is how I see it and it is one of danger of difficulty making contact and being accepted by people.
I should have know and followed my intuition. This emotional neediness it just doesnt fit. I am often over emotional, theatrical etc and I highly doubt lycopodium is like that.
vitamin.X last decade
Lycopodium is a plant, their issue is with sensitivity to a particular external situation, which they internalise as a sensation.
All the minerals sense a fault within. All the sycotic remedies sense a fault within. All the animals sense the fault of being the victim. Some plants will express their sensation as a fault.
Every single remedy can project something on the outside that does not fit what is on the inside. In fact this is a very normal human situation. It is what is inside and outside that determines the remedy, what the difference is, how the patient perceives that difference.
Lycopodium is all about new situations - that is their problem. Will I be able to cope in a new situation, will my skills be enough, am I strong enough, competent enough? How will I handle myself when I am not familiar with the situation? When the situation is new, will I fail or will I succeed? It is not the problem of failure, like with so many mineral remedies, the problem is 'I am too sensitive to new, unfamiliar situations, this activates my lack of confidence. When the situation is old and familar I have no lack of confidence' and this shows its Plant-centred problem. When the situation changes, the patient stops reacting. With a mineral they never stop feeling it because it is within them. With an animal it is similar to plant, stimulated by external situations. But they do not internalise the sensation, they engage in competition and survival.
Every remedy/every human being feels some kind of forsaken/abandoned feeling. Every remedy/human being hides something. Every remedy/human being wants to be connected to other human beings. None of these things leads you to a remedy, they are common issues like Anger or Fear and every remedy covers them in one way or another.
All the minerals sense a fault within. All the sycotic remedies sense a fault within. All the animals sense the fault of being the victim. Some plants will express their sensation as a fault.
Every single remedy can project something on the outside that does not fit what is on the inside. In fact this is a very normal human situation. It is what is inside and outside that determines the remedy, what the difference is, how the patient perceives that difference.
Lycopodium is all about new situations - that is their problem. Will I be able to cope in a new situation, will my skills be enough, am I strong enough, competent enough? How will I handle myself when I am not familiar with the situation? When the situation is new, will I fail or will I succeed? It is not the problem of failure, like with so many mineral remedies, the problem is 'I am too sensitive to new, unfamiliar situations, this activates my lack of confidence. When the situation is old and familar I have no lack of confidence' and this shows its Plant-centred problem. When the situation changes, the patient stops reacting. With a mineral they never stop feeling it because it is within them. With an animal it is similar to plant, stimulated by external situations. But they do not internalise the sensation, they engage in competition and survival.
Every remedy/every human being feels some kind of forsaken/abandoned feeling. Every remedy/human being hides something. Every remedy/human being wants to be connected to other human beings. None of these things leads you to a remedy, they are common issues like Anger or Fear and every remedy covers them in one way or another.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
But when I was told by you I described lycopodium a week ago, I felt horrible, like now I am exposed, everyone knows I am a failure, an idiot who cannot be taken serious, noone significant or worthwile. Someone laughable, In one word worthless, nothing special about me. All has been taken away from me. Someone stripped of his clothes. If I had a magnet that attracts people it has gone away. People found out I am nothing special.
EDIT:Not all of the above thoughts are mine, most thoughts are thoughts people have associated with lycopodium and will have now with me also if I take lycopodium... the thoughts that I am utterly insignificant, worthless, as if nonexistant, stripped of my clothes are my thoughts if I were really lycopodium. Although at this point I just want to get cured quick and do not care.
And I felt horrible, noone will ever want me or look at me again. I will be the laughing stock every time I say something. I am so insignificant, no worth, non existant
People with histrionic 'theatrical' personality disorder often have a way of impressionable speech that lacks detail. So this must mean they try to project something they are not to the outside world too. So I am sure I identify for that reason to the lycopodium fear of being exposed issue.
I want to be fun, entertaining all those things that attract people to you I guess but I am not really like that inside of me. Just want to project it that way I believe but not sure
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 04:00:16 BST]
EDIT:Not all of the above thoughts are mine, most thoughts are thoughts people have associated with lycopodium and will have now with me also if I take lycopodium... the thoughts that I am utterly insignificant, worthless, as if nonexistant, stripped of my clothes are my thoughts if I were really lycopodium. Although at this point I just want to get cured quick and do not care.
And I felt horrible, noone will ever want me or look at me again. I will be the laughing stock every time I say something. I am so insignificant, no worth, non existant
People with histrionic 'theatrical' personality disorder often have a way of impressionable speech that lacks detail. So this must mean they try to project something they are not to the outside world too. So I am sure I identify for that reason to the lycopodium fear of being exposed issue.
I want to be fun, entertaining all those things that attract people to you I guess but I am not really like that inside of me. Just want to project it that way I believe but not sure
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 04:00:16 BST]
vitamin.X last decade
Ok thanks. Hmm my issue is when I am in unfamiliar company, new company. THose were the uncomfortable things for me. Like when changing schools, but once accepted or had a friend, made contact all was always well from than on. Cannot really say if something new is a problem for me. This is all hard.
My issue with my father is that when I am at conflict with him it is totally different when I am with my mother for example. With my father there comes the additional issue up of abandonment or forsaken feeling. It is very uncomfortable and I do not want to be on bad terms with him ever as this feeling stays with me than for as long as we have the conflict. I dont feel safe in my home, hard to describe it.
My issue with my father is that when I am at conflict with him it is totally different when I am with my mother for example. With my father there comes the additional issue up of abandonment or forsaken feeling. It is very uncomfortable and I do not want to be on bad terms with him ever as this feeling stays with me than for as long as we have the conflict. I dont feel safe in my home, hard to describe it.
vitamin.X last decade
Your reaction to Lycopodium is important, not the fact that it was Lycopodium. That is just a concept - it is not even a real thing. You are just reacting to something inside you - Lycopodium didn't magically appear before you in that instant to provoke a reaction.
Lycopodium has none of those feelings you just expressed. You are just prone to fixate on things as a distraction from your real problems, and because you are addicted to homoeopathy. Like any addict, you will justify your behaviour so you can keep doing whatever it is you are addicted to.
Since you want to just take remedy after remedy, you keep creating reasons why you must be those remedies. This addiction, like any addiction, will eventually cause great damage to your life, if it isn't already.
If I had said you had described some bug that lives on a cactus would you have rushed off to take that? If I had said you described the venus flytrap would you have taken that? No - you decided in one of your previous bizarre fits that Lycopodium had some relationship to you and was looking for any excuse to take it.
And just like any addict, once you have engaged in the behaviour, you feel bad about yourself, guilty, and start expressing remorse. Then in a short while, you begin looking for reasons to start the behaviour all over again. Caught forever in a cycle you refuse to change, believing that there is a magical spell in homoeopathy that will save you. The truth is, as with any addict, until you take responsibility, take control yourself and reach out to people who can help you (and actually take that help) then you wil be trapped forever like this.
Lycopodium has none of those feelings you just expressed. You are just prone to fixate on things as a distraction from your real problems, and because you are addicted to homoeopathy. Like any addict, you will justify your behaviour so you can keep doing whatever it is you are addicted to.
Since you want to just take remedy after remedy, you keep creating reasons why you must be those remedies. This addiction, like any addiction, will eventually cause great damage to your life, if it isn't already.
If I had said you had described some bug that lives on a cactus would you have rushed off to take that? If I had said you described the venus flytrap would you have taken that? No - you decided in one of your previous bizarre fits that Lycopodium had some relationship to you and was looking for any excuse to take it.
And just like any addict, once you have engaged in the behaviour, you feel bad about yourself, guilty, and start expressing remorse. Then in a short while, you begin looking for reasons to start the behaviour all over again. Caught forever in a cycle you refuse to change, believing that there is a magical spell in homoeopathy that will save you. The truth is, as with any addict, until you take responsibility, take control yourself and reach out to people who can help you (and actually take that help) then you wil be trapped forever like this.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
True, true. The personality disorder I described above often before, without a doubt believe I am. And those people crave excitment, novelty... so I guess I am addicted to that. And trying out new remedies is like I take on the whole profile of the remedy, like an actor taking on a role of a different character.
The same reaction I have to lycopodium I also used to have to my appearance. If it goes I am like a diamond or some gold that lost its glow. Noone will look at it, noone will value it as something high or precious anymore or still want it. I got to stay this thing with the glow, shine, glitter that catches peoples eye and wants them to have it, look at it or I am nonexistant.
hmm I guess that is why Platina had some great effect on my BDD and so on. But I wasnt patient with it as the restlessness came in of every day starting to be the same again with nothing new happening.
The same reaction I have to lycopodium I also used to have to my appearance. If it goes I am like a diamond or some gold that lost its glow. Noone will look at it, noone will value it as something high or precious anymore or still want it. I got to stay this thing with the glow, shine, glitter that catches peoples eye and wants them to have it, look at it or I am nonexistant.
hmm I guess that is why Platina had some great effect on my BDD and so on. But I wasnt patient with it as the restlessness came in of every day starting to be the same again with nothing new happening.
vitamin.X last decade
If I were lycopodium it wouldnt be just a worry of what other people think about me now. It would be an issue with me also. I would be depressed for eternity and never get out of it.
But for some reason I am ok with lycopodium again, and took it without a care, it must be because I took again platina a few days before taking lycopodium. hmm
But for some reason I am ok with lycopodium again, and took it without a care, it must be because I took again platina a few days before taking lycopodium. hmm
vitamin.X last decade
I do not like taking remedy after remedy especially when I am alone. No joy in it. Noone to share the experience with. I function best when I am with people. And most of all if I can be back to the old me, but it will not happen. I got hurt, ridiculed, people left me etc. I am most prone to people leaving me because I was boring or annoying. A horrible feeling.
I mean if your task is to make people come to you by your personality and you get told or the signs that you are annoying. THere is nothing worse. It cripples you. It is like for lycopodium being told you failed.
And here I have a problem as I always feel like I am bothersome to people. And this feeling does not make me want to open up. And how will I ever feel good about myself if I stay closed, since being boring is almost as bad? It will never happen. On the other hand like over the internet I get to the other extreme and am sure I am annoying often and post way to much. I feel sometimes really unstable
I mean if your task is to make people come to you by your personality and you get told or the signs that you are annoying. THere is nothing worse. It cripples you. It is like for lycopodium being told you failed.
And here I have a problem as I always feel like I am bothersome to people. And this feeling does not make me want to open up. And how will I ever feel good about myself if I stay closed, since being boring is almost as bad? It will never happen. On the other hand like over the internet I get to the other extreme and am sure I am annoying often and post way to much. I feel sometimes really unstable
vitamin.X last decade
But I want to feel the joy of presenting myself to people without any fear of something bad happening. There is nothing better in this world. And I do feel really really good about myself than and special. I want this to happen again. Am optimistic today.
vitamin.X last decade
The greatest problem is of me being myself around people and not closed. To show myself and not be afraid. I simply cannot take it if I get the feeling that I wasnt good enough or annoying, boring.
The greatest assets one can have to me are a really good appearance, a really good personality and than most of all be expressive, to convey emotions, like an actor able to captivate an audience. When I am in such state where I can do this I feel wonderful, there is nothing better. But it almost never happens anymore sadly. A few days ago when I took aurum metallicum I got into this state, its a bit over the top though, excessive not balanced.
All my problems would go if I could get this back. Be like that always.
But there seems to be some natrum muriaticum-like sadness beneath this driving all this. Well those are my thoughts but not sure of course, probably am wrong, but just saying to make it aware
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 05:19:32 BST]
The greatest assets one can have to me are a really good appearance, a really good personality and than most of all be expressive, to convey emotions, like an actor able to captivate an audience. When I am in such state where I can do this I feel wonderful, there is nothing better. But it almost never happens anymore sadly. A few days ago when I took aurum metallicum I got into this state, its a bit over the top though, excessive not balanced.
All my problems would go if I could get this back. Be like that always.
But there seems to be some natrum muriaticum-like sadness beneath this driving all this. Well those are my thoughts but not sure of course, probably am wrong, but just saying to make it aware
[message edited by vitamin.X on Fri, 07 Oct 2011 05:19:32 BST]
vitamin.X last decade
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