Worry, anxiety, fear, duodenal ulcers, right sided headaches, port. hyp. tension, varic. - Dr. Sameer help requested _{Page 3 of 18}

I think you would like to know how I am feeling overall mentally.
The answer is that head feels lighter and irritation has been a bit less. In that sense I am better. But procrastination, always doing other jobs rather than doing main work, great tiredness with lack of feeling to do the requisite work, is still continuing.
Since I did not succeed in interview last year, there has been great lack of confidence and motivation because this cam at a very wrong point of time.
I feel desperate to change my department within my company.
In the last 2 years I have been thinking on how I fit more in an academic job. But with variety of thoughts around career and my abilities and my life, I also have vision of how there are difficulties in different jobs. While that would be a good thing to be aware of the problems one might face, it is not good if one keeps on seeing difficulties in all types of work - even that work which was one's beloved work - just for the sake of being practical and to justify one's present work.
In this way I keep saying that there are problems in all types of works and my present one is also ok and that I should try to manage better, etc.
In doing so, actually I am neither liking my present work (due to its heavy responsibility, different nature of the senior and my health) and at the same time I feel that there are problems in all other things too - so - no use of doing anything else.

Physically I am slightly better with left sided abdominal pain but it continues. Real thing will be revealed when I stop Pantodac. In fact I have stopped it in last 2 days. But there is lot of sleepiness. Also tiredness from 9 am to 12 noon or so.

Well, I shall write more systematically about the things later. I should also have energy for that.

Sameer ji,
I did not see your post. There is some difference in update times I guess.
Today morning I did not see any post so I just added mine. Later also I did not see it.
This is night 11 pm and I just see your post already there above mine.

I shall put my symptoms. I can only try to be precise, I cannot guarantee. Due to my tiredness to keep writing accurately about myself I may automatically become precise!

This is 11:15 pm and maybe I can just try to start to put my symptoms. I am forming another list in a document file that I may present some day.

Mental symptoms:
1. After my surgery I am always anxious about how I shall manage in different situations. Either I have food problem or weather problem or problem of energy to interact with others. Yes I also get easily tired by talking. My head starts vibrating. Ears do something.
2. I am highly influenced by what is my mother's wish. Many times she wants me to do something else while I want another thing. But at the same time I do not want to either hurt her or give her chance to complain (or lately I am concerned about her health).
3. I like to teach, to express. Long back it was in balance, this tendency to express but later I picked up this habit of thinking about everything in terms of how I will express this to others. Due to this I am not able to work on a topic (be it study or physical execution) well.
4. When I am able to express my feelings to my friends, acquiantances I feel very relaxed and good. Soon my confidence builds up.
5. I am craving for respect from others for what I did in spte of adverse circumstances.
6. I am a perfectionist. Due to this and otherwise too, I procrastinate. I keep looking for best ways and since all these years I have not had the energy to do the things in my desired way, I finally leave the task incomplete.
7. I feel very guilty about excessive sexual desire. This is since I started masturbation. After marriage this was settled somewhat. But in the last 3 years I again feel very disturbed because we have external sex only and it is of no use and still its frequency of 2-3 times a week really exhausts me. Even when I observed how I was looking old and worn out and how my bones are losing flesh and I see so many negative effects, I am still unable to control. It has become a useless habit like drinking (alcohol) uselessly.
8. The above is aggravated by a fact. My partner wanted another child. But 2-3 years ago my parents and I were so concerned with my health that we opposed her very heavily and made her drop this and drop the idea fully. At that time it was all very taxing on my health. Today the topic is not active but it is in my subconscious. How deep or how troublesome I do not know. But I have a feeling that esp. with the thing not so active, I am more troubled by other things.
9. I have great disappointment for all the failures that I have faced inspite of a very good academic career in the early years of school. At alomst all key points I missed the targets or top position. It would comfort me greatly if somebody can listen to my story but here it would be too much and Sameerji you have already told to be precise. Of course in conversation it would be much much faster, just 1-2 hours.
10. I am always wanting to and very keen to express about how I fell ill and how I used to feel when I bled. How there were so many endoscopies and so many things. Others want me not to tell and to forget all that (un-homeopathic!). I know that whenever I have been able to do that partially I have felt good, relaxed and that did not cause me keep thinking on it and be negative (as people consider).

Better to stop. I am not sure I have expressed the imp things or I have just kept on writing.

OK two more.
11. Over the past few years I have lost confidence. I have always patched it up with special thinking. But I am losing confidence, not doing things and losing interest in all things because I only see problems.
12. This is important. Last year at a crucial point I failed in an office promo interview. There are many reasons why it has hurt me and insulted me. I will avoid writing here because many words shall be needed. The event has really shook my confidence further.
Still I shall add that many people's eyes were on me. Of which one or two were friends but it seems they did not want me to succeed. One quarrelled during my prep time. Another blessed a fellow in front of me and encouraged him clearly indicating that I was not favoured or liked. (It doesn't mean only one of us could succeed. Then at least there was some logic. Actually all appearing may succeed depending on performance).
Lastly I had taken blessings of a saintly person. So I was having faith that situation would be managed. But my faith was shattered. This really hurt me.

Yes I will take the dose in evening.

This is 12 noon here.
Yesterday I had to eat pizza due to daughter's wish. I had to eat more and it had lot of cheeze. This caused a little upset. At night I felt that 'warm' feeling in stomach/abdomen so I took Pantodac.
Today I missed the bus. So I had to travel several km on 2 wheeler. I was exposed to draft of air and some sun. See here is where I get tense. Whether I will be tired, or sun will cause headache or indigestion or air will cause ENT trouble?

Today I got information that my interview will be in ten days. I am suddenly very frightened. I feel that my limbs are losing strength. I feel I am not interested in remembering the topics. Oh! let me depend on luck...let things go on by default...if it is in my destiny I shall pass...or else....let it be...

I feel feverish, a little ill... also due to stomach upset...

My wife is going to go out of station weekend and shall come next week. Then my mother is going out. How I shall be able to handle ticket booking and packing and other mangaement....it all terrifies me....plus to take care of my health....I start to have loose motions 2 days before interview.

Last year I had taken many medicines. First Picric Acid 6, Anacardium 200, then Argentum Nitr. 200 and Aloe 200 2 days ago. It helped a bit but obviously I still had to go frequently and used to get exhausted.

Yesterday morning (since Pantodac was stopped for 2 days), I had slightly loose stool in morning by 10:30 am. After that I was so exhausted. This is the usual scene with me. I slept of 15-20 minutes and did not want to do anything. Saturday's little advantage was lost soon.

I took Lachesis LM1 second dose in the evening.
I felt sleepy, vision blurred, lack of appetite, etc.

This is 11:30 pm (and I shall try to sleep soon). Half an hour ago, there was such a great pain on the left side that I just lay down in bed for 5-7 mins. In the middle left of abdomen there was pulling....as if a 'knot' is there which is being pulled. In the chest too there was great aching. Earlier I was becoming sure that my left pain was not related to heart but the present pain made me lose my confidence almost.

There is a constant pulling even now.
(I had also lifted heavy PCs of 7-8 kg today since the proper staff was not there. But it cannot have too much effect on left sided pain.)

I am typing quickly before pain returns. It is a gnawing and pulling pain.

The discomforting thing is that it is not an old symptom. I never had this type of pain earlier, not even after my major surgery whereas I was not allowed pain killers. The only slight similarity is with the pain inside when they used to put 'bands' by endoscopy. But still that was very different.

I have started to have this pain only in the past 4 months.

I do not feel like taking another dose of Lachesis for long due to this abdominal pain.

Next Thursday I have interview. Sameerji kindly give me a remedy so that I shall be very confident for the next 10 days for travel, for other management and to perform well. I was very afraid today as expressed in the previous post.

Dear Sameer ji
My intuitive (?) feeling is saying that if I keep feeling the way I am, I should take Nux Vomica 200. That would remove effect of allopathic medicines (perhaps homeopathic also) and make me a bit fresh and active hopefully as per past experience.
Just in case I do take any homeopathic remedy on my own please forgive me for few days. I request you to help me again after transition period.

Today I had to move from normal temperatures to AC. I discussed tech things with others which put some load on mind. My convenient tea time was missed.
So my head was heavy by evening and that sleepiness was there. So I took Crocin Pain Relief at 7 pm.

I was feeling earlier that Lachesis is helping in some imp symptoms like acidity. Also I had benefit in palpitation prob when I sleep in morning.
But these seem supressive sometimes.
Rather it feels that Lach. brings symptoms that were not present like pain of left side and feeling of 'congestion' and slight heaviness in head with left-sided headache (which I never had except once in 2005). When some time passes after the dose, symptoms die out. So one feels better.
This is not like aggr. followed by amel. Because I feel that that is true when our usual symptoms aggr. and then when they die out we feel lot better, permanently, perhaps.

Here the physical symptoms are uncharacteristic, sort of new, and mental things are not changing much. Also I know a typical mental state when I feel well, do well, as per my liking and then I fall ill because I overdo and, if I may say so, after my surgery, my over doing is not tolerated well by my body. In fact earlier too I used to fall ill after over doing things but I used to fall ill with less intensity, for the good, and would recover well. After surgery it has not been like that. Rather I have deteriorated further and further with time.

I felt I must inform these things.

Dr Sameer, Lachesis has done the following -
1. Left sided headache with slightly blurred vision.
2. A bit relief from (left) headache followed by loose stools in morning. (I again stopped Pantodac for 2 days since I wish to take it for a week from now.)
3. After stools I felt weak and tired. Then I was very sleepy in afternoon in office. This is due to loss of nutrients (not only water).
4. There has been no improvement in mood and confidence and energy. As such there has not been any change.
5. By afternoon I felt hot and some right-sided headache.
6. Then slight burning/pain of left sided abdomen started which had subsided for 2 days.
7. The above are all typical symptoms of 'ulcer'. And anyway ulcer has been on the verge of building up since past 2-3 years. Pantodac stops it.
8. And yes there has been a lack of appetite whereas I normally have more hunger (which causes acidity). I mean the absence of acidity with lack of appetite is no good.

I haven't done self prescription till now but I feel that rather than Nux I will be helped more by China 30. I am inclined to take 2-3 doses of China 30 for the time being if things do not improve. For one week I must try to prevent loose stools in morning (and otherwise). I am going to take Pantodac regularly now. But China too is on agenda unless you suggest something quite helpful.

Please read my earlier posts and one more post that follows.

Dr Sameer,
Please make sure to read my previous post.

After Lach dose what I may expect is probably this - Lot of freshness (though following some sleepiness) and I am bubbling with energy. Suddenly I want to do things. I move about and do lot of activities and all....Anxiousness though present is kept aside again and again.
The whole scene can be in lower intensity but similar.

But what is happening is this-
1. I have left sided headache only after taking Lachesis. Whereas I am a right-sided headache person.
2. After 2 days I feel better as if the effect of remedy died out. If Lachesis did good work, I won't feel 'relieved' but I should feel really better and good. But as such I am in same place mentally.
3. I have morning diarrhea now when I again stopped Pantodac. The left sided pain has returned a bit after 2 days gap in Pantodac.
4. After diarrhea I felt very weak and very sleepy today afternoon (10th June). Of course, I started Pantodac again.
5. Then right-sided headache starts.
6. Also I felt very hot today. Though weather was hot with slight humidity, I was abnormally uneasy with heat. I feel this is not good because I am a chilly patient basically.

I think that I would be in direction of health if-
1. I do not feel feverish and have immediate relief with respect to warmth in my body BUT I will be slightly chilly. Environment will always make me slightly chilly perhaps BUT it will be in control.
2. I will be quite active, helping others as usual, slightly irritable, angry, annoyed sometimes, normally overdoing things a bit BUT still it will all be in limit. I mean if I do not feel angry at all, maybe I am not going to do much in society.
3. I will have lot of appetite as usual and missing meals or overeating will cause indigestion or acidity BUT 'sometimes and in limit....tolerable'. Of course there won't be ulcers, esp. bleeding ulcers unless I overdo things for 2-3 years.
4. I may have tolerable rare headaches to indicate that something was wrong with digestion and I should just relax.

Over several years I have noted down 2-3 guaranteed indications of my good health, or at least mental state -
1. Good appetite with craving for sweets.
2. Good craving for tea through the day (even though I would actually drink only small 2 to 3 cups only).
3. Third one I forgot....

All these indications of my good health are totally missing as of now.

Dear Sameerji,
I hope you have read my posts and shall reply soon.
This is 11:10 am and today evening it will be 4 days from dose.

There is one more effect of Lachesis. There is a lot of wax in my ears, esp. the right ear.

I have purchased Sulphur 200c. I shall take it by 8:40 pm (It is 8:35 pm).
Normally 200 potencies are very suited to me.
Sameer ji,
Thanks for prescribing remedy. You can understand my state and psychology. Just by your reply with another remedy I already felt better by 5-8% through the afternoon. (I guess placebo would not have worked if you gave it personally to me!)

Three more symptoms as I shall be taking Sulphur later -
1. Stickiness on penis skin touching scrotum. It has foul smell. Same stickiness on part of scrotum. I am having this since past 7-8 years but it comes mostly in rains and after taking homeopathic remedies. (Rains not yet come.) Lachesis is not exclusive to bring this out. Most of the remedies (suggested) being partial similimums would do that. I have seen this.
2. Vertigo, rather loss of balance. This increases on loss of nutrients, esp. after loose stools (not immediately I mean).
3. Again I forgot.

I am adding that in default mode I have lack of thirst. If I am not in very good health but things are going moving along, if I start to feel hot and want air (to which I have otherwise aversion to), if at the same time I feel thirsty (which I am normally not), if I am able to drink 2 glasses of water and feel very comfortable in abdomen and still keep on wanting water (again abnormal because in normal condition even a little extra water makes me feel heavy and it even aches a little) AND if I am not taking medications, esp. Pantodac or any homeopathic remedy then, - I have developed or about to develop an ulcer (duodenal or pyloric). In absence of further medication it is most likely to bleed in 2-3 days.
My my Hb were good I will tolerate initial bleeding and reach hospital without fainting. If Hb has already gone to 10, I will normally faint on the first bleed and other will hospitalize me! (normally it has been others...)

I remembered that other symptom -
When I write I swap letters often. You do not see that in my post becasue I re-read and correct it....In the previous sentence I haven't corrected it...!

Oh! it is 8:54 and I must take Sulphur or take meal and then take it after gap.

Dear Dr. Sameer,
Finally I have got chance to write about me.
After Sulphur I felt better as I said in my parents' posts. Due to arguments there was some trouble but by that time I had to go to another city.
Though I got highly stressed in 2-3 days by 17th June, I did not have loose motions or morning diarrhea! Actually I did have but it was the usual thing due to hostel / guest house food. Not much.
Other colleagues too were highly stressed but I had been putting lots of efforts on how not to get frightened.
Finally I managed to keep my fear low in last 2 days.
And..., finally I succeeded!
So that was very very good. At this stage I need to improve a lot on heath and this was good.

Sameerji you have mentioned in a post that too much load during treatment is not good.

It was good here.
Now further effects after Sulphur:
1. My sleep, etc. is ok. I still feel sleepy in morning but less.
2. Because mother is not there, and the imp event is nicely over, I went to hospital for check up. It has turned out that most things are normal.
3. My homocysteine hormone level is slightly higher. (This relates to heart.)
4. Hb is surprisingly high, 13.5 again giving me a doubt if this high level in last 2-3 years has been troubling me?
When I was 25 years to 32 years (till 2004) my Hb used to be low (surgery) from 10 to 12. But I was better.
5. Now it feels as if I am going towards my father's way. He is heart patient but has high Hb. I once read on internet that heart patients may have high Hb. Also my homocysteine hormone level is higher.
6. Sonography too was ok. Actually I do not have any reports in hand. Somebody else has collected and will send to me later.
7. Some expensive test reports have yet to come. But doctor has said that I should not worry and there is nothing to be done.

So this is good.

Sir,
It is 12 days since I took Sulphur 200c. Things have been better (compared to Lachesis). You asked me to report in 2 weeks. If I had got time, I would still have written lot of text as per my habit without waiting.

Some important things from the point of view of homeopathy.
1. I stopped Pantodac for 2-3 days after coming here on 18th. It was good but had trouble later.
2. Dr. asked me to come empty stomach on day of investigation. I did so, but he declined endoscopy saying that he would prefer to wait for other reports. I did not eat or drink up to 12:30 noon. But things were ok. That warm acidity did not come.
Later at night, that strong oozing of warm liquid came up at 12 night. I just had to take Pantodac.
3. Being somewhat free and hearing of increased homocysteine, I again started Nat. B of Amway today and also too Bifilac (better version of Lactobacillus). Due to that I felt hungry today.

4. Most important thing. I was already feeling slight tightness in throat and wax in both ears. Today I felt that there was small particle in throat. So that may be due to lunch. I tried to cough it out lightly. It came out to be a whitish flake like you get when you wet a small piece (3 mm by 5mm) of oat.
I immediately knew what it was! A dried 'pus point' of throat. I pressed and smelt it. It was that typical foul smell of mouth...!*#$

I think coming out of pus point is a good sign. I feel that this has lot of relation to ulcers in intestine.

Sameer ji,
This is a very crucial and suitable time to attack on my health problems. Kindly provide your valuable advise on what to do next.
I know that though I need lot of mental rest and relaxation but I am having a lot of work load in office. This is likely to put me again in same type of thinking and stress and anxiety and all that. That is my tendency, till now.
But there is some time for us before things start again. On one hand I have forgotten how to enjoy success and I am not sure what is going on in the last one week. But it is true that atmosphere is positive and I am trying to learn to enjoy as I used to do way back. We can and must prevent the repetition of problems. I also hope to start exercises to support homeopathic treatment.

Sorry I could not determine what and how to write. I will be more precise next time. But please advise next step.

I am feeling tired.
In last 3-4 days I started Pantodac again because biliousness and if I may say, 'acidity' disturbs my health a lot. I quickly reach to morning diarrhea with brownish or slightly reddish stools. This is followed by exhaustion after which my only thought is to start Pantodac again. If I were not to take, what follows further is a sort of mild burning in stomach. Then improper sleep. I may also feel feverish. I become irritable then. In this process I also become anxious if I am going to have ulcer and if it is going to bleed. Or will there be bloody dysentery that I may not be able recognize till I have suffered a lot.

Things were ok relatively. Yesterday I got little wet in rain in evening. At home my head was slightly hot and there was worry/anxiety if I may fall ill. I could sense that biliousness must have increased a little in blood but I had already taken Pantodac the previous day so it won't develop much. It was about 20 hours and we had to go out so I already took Pantodac a little earlier. Nothing happened much but these thoughts came to my mind:

Worry, apprehension, anxiety, fear are the first to appear in me and my father. This causes biliousness (and acidity too) and biliousness is indicative of fear in us. I do not feel that fear is due to some comparison or jealousy with anybody. That may happen at times but many other times fear or anxiety seems to be without comparison, at least in a direct sense.

I have taken Ars. Alb. a lot earlier in 200c. It helped me most times. But recently I am afraid to take any homeopathic medicines on my own. They don't seem to work. Ars. 30c doesn't help and 200c may help or may cause lots of troubles that do not go off quickly.
Obviously after consulting you and starting your suggested remedies I have never taken anything on my own.

My remaining medical reports have shown that there is some protein problem that highly links to port.-hyperten. and bleeding. Doctors are going to consult more specialists and suggest something later. I had complained of excessive sleepiness, tiredness, that abdominal ache and right-sided headache.

When I get full reports I shall let you know.

Kindly offer comments.

I hope Dr. Sameer you are there.

1. I am now catching sore throat. When it rained 2 days ago in evening, my throat started to have loss of voice and hoarseness. This is common with me. But sore throat hasn't picked up. It is there but not developed fully.
2. Old problems of sore throat may be a good sign but I am having trouble. Today afternoon I felt like fever and was about to take Crocin. Finally I managed without the medicine till now - 11:50 pm!
2. I have stopped Pantodac again. I hope to mange for 2-3 days.
3. From one ear to other there is inflammation/burning, excited head with slight inflammation everywhere. Soreness in throat. Irritation. The head 'vibrates' ('sir bhannaana' in Hindi) on talking.
4. Vertigo on specific sitting and neck positions. On getting up from seat. Loss of balance.

Kindly advise early.

I stopped Pantodac since 2 days. Now on 3rd day the typical and usual symptoms have started:
1. Dysentery in morning. Call it morning diarrhea if you want. To avoid stools followed by weakness I took Bifilac (lactobacillus type). There was mucus in stool the day before. This is along with sore throat and like catching cold. Since weather is changing. Bit of rains, hot humid and then the city is dry as usual.
2. If dysenteric, intestine lining is probably protected initially. Ulcer is delayed till it becomes loose reddish brown stools.
3. Light to troublesome headache today evening, right-sided of course, my beloved (?), recognized one calling of Sanguinaria type of remedy. Headache still continues at 11 pm.
4. Crocin Pain Relief will help but then Pantodac is required to protect.
5. Now I am quite anxious what to do. Stomach is left without help. It is taking it course towards an ulcer finally. During transition, my efficiency will be quite poor and finally I will fall sick (if not helped).
6. At this moment 11:10 pm, I feel a bit of foul smell. Occasionally appetite goes down.
7. I must go for stools now. There foul smell of gas even though I eat very simple non-spicy food. The smell is like that when I bleed internally. But actually I do not bleed many times (or may be very very less). This may be due to secretion of different enzymes, juices which must be secreting heavily when I used to bleed. I have guessed that at other times also they may be secreting thus giving a false impression of bleeding (which becomes clear after passing stools). But the foul smell is an indication that an actual bleed is forthcoming and will occur sometime later if things go wrong further.
So stopping...

I hope Sameer ji, you have read my 3 previous posts.
Today on 4th day things were still good through the day but finally at 8:45 pm in the evening I started to feel warm enough in stomach. I had not taken Pantodac in 4 days but finally looking at weekend jobs, I took it.
After that one has to pass stools if we eat soon or take it after food. I too had to go.
Then, there was biliousness due to restart of Pantodac. I hope to skip it again in 2 days.

The main problem through the 2 days has been -
Vertigo. There is either inflammation of eustachian tubes from this ear to the other and/or dryness with ot of wax or whatever but now I get terrible vertigo by movements of neck. I bent on my right hand while sitting and 'zooook', there was this 'shot' of vertigo. And it had been going on.

My corner of left eye (near nose) has become red which often happens.

Kindly advise.

So, 10 days have passed since.

Sameer ji, please tell what to do?

I wish to add certain information.
1. I was quite healthy (as told by mother to me) till I was about 1 yr. Then I suddenly had loose motions and my health went down. Then this reduced health continued and I never got as healthy. I guess I was Chamomilla or Merc Sol. Sameerji I am mentioning certain similar remedies by thoughtfulness otherwise there can be several remedies. I had had dysentery (+diarrhea) that time.
I have been told by many (including saintly persons that I have dysenteric tendency.)
2. Later I guess I was Phosphorus. Again Merc sol up to say 7-8 yrs. A doctor told me, Merc Sol may get annoyed and hit you if you hit him. I was somewhat like that. Though I actually hit friends in fight only once or twice.
3. I had Typhoid+Malaria at about 8 yrs. That time I might have been China, Ars., Baptisia, Malaria Off. or some such thing as emergency. But I was 'something' specific constitutionally that I cannot guess.
5. Later I got healthier. Around age 12 to 15 I was nothing. I mean quite healthy.
6. After habit of mastrb. I must have been any of Staphy. (due to excess guilt and suppression of feelings), Phos., Selenium, Bufo and then with hair fall and dandruff, etc. I was perhaps Silica at 16-17.
7. Troubles started at this age. I might have been Staphysagria most likely. But again what actual similimum was I cannot guess.
8. Then I had boils at 18 for which I was given Penicillin. Excessive sinus blockage trouble at 19-20.
9. Same time I started to catch viral fevers which was not so common that time. Similimum?
10. I had malaria and spleen was quite enlarged at 20. Similimum?
11. Finally at 21 I bled heavily and it was protal HT. Spleen out and devasc. done. Again we have Staphy., Bellis, Arnica and other things after surgery but things like Phos., Bell., Crotalus, may be Lach. or Naja when I bled.
12. In between at certain times I must have been Lachesis but my intuitive feeling says, layer only as deep as 30 or 200.
After surgery I was more of Lachesis since I used to have a typical left sided throat trouble + talkitiveness was there. But again it used to cure by 30 and I feel I was similar to Lachesis only up to 30 or 200.
Lach. has been a layer most probably but intermediate.

I think I have told earlier that my previous doctor from whom I took most treatment said, 'You do not have as much problem of mind. You main problem is of indigestion and liver.'
Now this should not be taken as principally incorrect. He knew well what he was saying and would always take care on the mentals.

So may I say that I am a person (even now after surgery) with a 'dysenteric' constitution. Without suppression I have throat troubles (not always cured by Lach.). Without suppression I should be a chilly patient. Mentally I am afraid of school, scolding, job, etc. Very recently I have fear of disease or more correctly that something will happen to health. Earlier this thing was not at all there. This is nearly the most dominating factor. As the day goes by I am always worried about my energy and how I will manage if greater responsibility comes.
I am concerned of my future, of my daughter's future, want my parents to live long to support me. I am also somewhat concerned with my life after death and next birth.

Your response awaited Sameer ji.

Yes in between at age 12 to 18 I was very much Lyco and Nux also at times I guess. My previous doctor always gave me these as my constitutional remedies.
Add Pulsatilla during dysentery and changing mind and weather. Yes at times Puls. must have been my remedy.

Arg. Nitr. looks to be my thing from many angles at many times all these years but from what I know Arg. patient is not a chilly patient. She (he) wants air. There 2-3 blood relatives in my family who are very close to Arg. Nitr.

Sameer ji, kindly read my previous posts.

Rains have started here and now I am having stiffness+bodyache. In 2007 there was Chkikungunia wave here and myself (and my wife) had such symptoms. She could go to doctor but I could not and just managed with Crocin, Rhus Tox 30, etc. Now Rhus Tox type of symptoms appear every rains.
Even as it was weekend, I was lethargic again with stiffness and some burning in throat and in between ears. Finally I took Crocin Pain Relief 2 hours ago.

I am becoming desparate to come out of this tiredness, lethargy, stiffness and other things like anxiety of how to accomplish future tasks in office and at home.

Kindly advise. Presently I am depending on your vauable advise only. But just in case you are busy and I also get impatient, I might try some medicine on my own, Nux perhaps.
Kindly do not get angry and do continue to help me. Of course, I am not taking anything immediately. Still waiting for your post.

Thanks. Just the reply, be it any, relaxes me.
Today I again observed that even without busy day I started to have an 'ache' in left side of head. All sinus and ENT points. The ear, over left eyebrow and left throat (as if gland were aching externally).

In evening when I went to buy Sulphur 1000, the left region near ears must be highly affected. So, when driving, my vertigo increased terribly. Nearby vehicles were making me dizzy/giddy and I was wanting air.
As I type the left ear is really aching now.
I had already mentioned of lot of wax in both ears in past 2-3 weeks.

I also recall an incident in 2005. I was sent to a tour even when I did not want to go since my Hb was 10. My first train got late so I missed the other. Then I had to catch two different buses due to excess traffic and had official luggage. My destination was 5 hours from big city. I reached several hours late without proper food and very hectic travel. I was already very disappointed and annoyed at poor planning of boss.
After reaching there I got very ill on the next day. I had high fever, the most terrible headache of my life and vomiting. The local doctor diagnosed viral fever and gave Erythromycin.
I had to come back by a flight in emergency with my own money. This was rainy season. Moist hot humid there and cool here.

(I had tried some homeopathic medicines like Ars. 200 or Ipecac 200 but nothing worked. Cocculus was also highly indicated but I attributed things to exertion, delay in food, acidity+biliousness, etc. but these things not due to travel...)

Though the trouble subsided soon the interesting thing comes now. Later after 2-3 months around Nov I started to have left sided headache almost every afternoon by 1 or 2 pm. It was a headache at a single point over left eyebrow. I had never experienced such trouble. My doctor asked me to take Thuja and I myself tried many medicines but nothing used to work.
Finally I said to myself, 'Why do I not consider that my trouble few months ago was due to traveling? I am so prone to trouble due to travel. I must try Cocculus Indica.'
Soon after 2-3 doses of Cocculus Indica 200, my headache was totally gone. Of course in winter I faced other problems like sinus trouble without much expectoration and feeling of 'head inhibited' but it cannot be due to Cocculus I feel.

We have the same rainy season again. My head aches on left particularly in region near (left) eye and ear. Ear was aching appreciably while I have been typing this.

Sameer ji,
I plan to take Sulphur 1000 after 25 mins at around 11 pm. But with this seemingly severe infection I may have to go for antibiotics. Becasue of this constant ache, I am not able to do any work.

I also want to add that yesterday I had more old symptoms. After eating at relatives, my abdomen felt very full. This is my problem after surgery that when I eat full, the muscles of face experience a 'pull'. I feel like wanting to stretch all muscles of head and face. Also I become like a 'python' who has eaten its food. I just find difficult to move. Feel paralysed. The legs also feel a 'pull'. I have cramps in hands and legs. Yesterday too I had had cramps.
All this is due to lack of proper blood circulation in abdominal region due to portal HT, due to consequent surgery and loss of several blood vessels as varices that bled and collapsed.

Kindly offer comments if any. If I do not get any comment in 40-45 minutes I am going to take Sulphur anyway.

I am having severe sore throat since yesterday.
There is cold cloudy weather in morning. Somewhat hot with humid in evening/night.
Also I was exposed to cold dry air from AC for few minutes yesterday. Due to guests I had to eat Pizza with Cheese. I couldn't help.

I already started Pantodac 2 days ago.I took Crocin Pain Relief yesterday evening and about to take it in office now. I have managed to reach office with great difficulty. I have already told I can't stay at home as far as possible. It creates great tension.

Sameer ji,
1. Have sore thraot with burning in throat and ears, esp. left ear.
2. I have mild fever. I feel chilly. Morning in the bus, I was greatly affected by air from windows. This has been a matter of very great concern since the very beginning- draft of (cool) air from bus window.
3. Feel sleepy, tired.
4. Feel like doing nothing.
5. Feel like I will have to pass loose stools.
6. Voice chagned.
7. Wax in ears.
8. Yesterday night I found it very difficult to sleep. Suffocation sort of due to heat, great anxiety due to building up to sore thraot, having eaten cheese, bread, fear of what will happen tomorrow, burning, tiredness, fever, etc.

If things don't improve in a day, I will have to take antibiotics perhaps.
Sameer ji, kindly advise at the earliest.

I wish to add:
Greenish yellow but scanty expectoration from throat.
The soreness had gone further down the thraot since yesterday afternoon to today morning.
Doctors will call it a severe throat infection.

1. I took Crocin Pain Relief yesterday evening, today morning and then normal Crocin today evening.
2. Somewhat high temp but I feel a lot of fever due to 'cough, cold, catarrh'. Head inhibited. Faster pulse.
3. Sneezing with a lot of burning in ENT area.
4. Loss and hoarseness of voice.

I can't write much.
Sameer ji I shall check for your response. If I do not feel well, I may go for one of these - Aconite or something like that, bio-chemic salt FP/KM/CP/NS/KS, etc. or antibiotic and/or anti-allergic Cetzine, etc.