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I have been reading a bit again. About Platina & palladium and I dont even know what platina symptom I fit, that it somehow worked for me partially. Well there is one about distancing myself that I can only identify with. Or being averse to certain people. Like a few days ago I remember I saw the typical native people in this country I live in and I felt like I could never be with such people in company. But the strange thing is if I were approached by those people I would be nice and even feel good in their presence if they were nice to me too I guess.
I am still puzzled over why I had the reaction I had while taking palladium. Why? I have taken many remedies and never did I get such intensity and need to fight from any remedy, not even from platina except some contempt for people on one night got aggravated.
Why would that be so? I took the scorpio who is supposed to have a superhuman ego but I only felt bad feelings about myself on that remedy. Or from lachesis or lycopodium nothing either
I found this on the internet
sorry I feel I have to throw in a negative here. This is a problem within homeopathy these days in that we have put so much emphasis on mentals, 'constitution' and charactersitics of the person that we have lost sight of what we are supposed to be considering - the vital force. For me Platina is syphylitic through and through. It is as syphilitic as aurum and mercury which it sits beside on the peiodic table. This is what I was taught and I go along with that teaching.
The problem is when we talk about suggested Rubrics:
* Ailments - mortification/wounded honour/being offended/egotism.
* Delusions - abused/criticized/insulted/neglected/tall/enlarged.
* MIND - HAUGHTY - wounded self-esteem; wishes to be flattered
* MIND - CONFIDENCE - want of self-confidence
* MIND - DICTATORIAL
Of course these are in platina, as you can also find in psoric or other remedies. But these rubrics are MENTAL CHARACTERISTICS which tell us nothing of the vital energy. The thing that tells us what miasm they are in is not 'what they are' but 'depth and pace of reaction'. So for instance * Delusions - haughty - in here we find SULPH big time, LACH and many others but what would indicate why this rubric applies to such different remedies? It is the meaning of the rubric in terms of the wider picture. So yes sulph is haughty but in sulph the vital reaction is about getting opne up on somone else, they have to dominate a discussion to show they have a superior theory because their survival depends on bolstering their weak ego. Their reaction is to try to show better intelligence. Lach is haughty because they are in a constant anamalistic competition with their perceived rivals, their reaction is to keep on top of the scene, dominate by taking over the scene ( loquacity) and watch your back. Platina is haughty because their world of priviledge is a sham and they are losing it so they have to put on this show while all around them in decaying and dangerous. Their reaction is to be the one that would stab lachesis or sulphur in the back before comitting suicide. The reaction is syphilitic.
And just to make a final point. I am only talking mentals because that is what was mentioned. You will get the misam of any remedy by looking at what process underlies all the symptoms. So what process mainly underlies physicals, mentals and emotionals in Platina? These are breakdown, decay, necrosis. This is seen in physicals (skin - eruptions, syphylitic), mentals (delusion - body, torn into rags) and emotional (mind - anxiety, salvation about - hell). Platina is a deeply syphilitic remedy.
Palladium is only listed as sycotic so it should represent the sycotic miasm well. In my understanding, a syphilitic remedy is short on positive pathways and quickly hits the negative pathway. They can't compensate because they are already so ill. This is the differentiating mental aspect. All remedies have psoric, sycotic and syphilitic stages. In the provings platina wants to kiss everyone just like pulsatilla. This affection could be psoric but how long will a remedy like Platina stay in that emotional state? Not for long. You can see the syphilitic behavior in Platina because platina has very few positive compensations She has that large ego and is so highly sexed yet with the need to have a spiritual relationship she is almost doomed to fail. She can barely be positive. Platina feels so great she is soon isolated. She then gets restess and changeable and quickly heads to the negative side with depression, forgetfulness, morose. Platina is psoric/syphilitic whereas Palladium is psoric/sycotic. Palladium wants to be viewed as great but Platina is already there. That's why the delusion she is separate from her family.
If they dont get sufficient attention they can hide away to lick their wounds in private.
This is the depressive side of the remedy when their search for admiration runs dry. This can happen if parents laugh at or tease these children when they were very young. You are a failure, a good for nothing. This is one of the worst things you could say to a young palladium.
I didnt know platinas key characteristics are Pride & SUSCEPTABILITY... susceptability to offence
Well anyway I got issues with intimacy beside approval seeking and attention seeking. Issue with deep emotional topics. Discussing them. So I am thinking natrum muriaticum still. But it is probably wrong.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 23 Nov 2011 13:40:53 GMT]
I am still puzzled over why I had the reaction I had while taking palladium. Why? I have taken many remedies and never did I get such intensity and need to fight from any remedy, not even from platina except some contempt for people on one night got aggravated.
Why would that be so? I took the scorpio who is supposed to have a superhuman ego but I only felt bad feelings about myself on that remedy. Or from lachesis or lycopodium nothing either
I found this on the internet
sorry I feel I have to throw in a negative here. This is a problem within homeopathy these days in that we have put so much emphasis on mentals, 'constitution' and charactersitics of the person that we have lost sight of what we are supposed to be considering - the vital force. For me Platina is syphylitic through and through. It is as syphilitic as aurum and mercury which it sits beside on the peiodic table. This is what I was taught and I go along with that teaching.
The problem is when we talk about suggested Rubrics:
* Ailments - mortification/wounded honour/being offended/egotism.
* Delusions - abused/criticized/insulted/neglected/tall/enlarged.
* MIND - HAUGHTY - wounded self-esteem; wishes to be flattered
* MIND - CONFIDENCE - want of self-confidence
* MIND - DICTATORIAL
Of course these are in platina, as you can also find in psoric or other remedies. But these rubrics are MENTAL CHARACTERISTICS which tell us nothing of the vital energy. The thing that tells us what miasm they are in is not 'what they are' but 'depth and pace of reaction'. So for instance * Delusions - haughty - in here we find SULPH big time, LACH and many others but what would indicate why this rubric applies to such different remedies? It is the meaning of the rubric in terms of the wider picture. So yes sulph is haughty but in sulph the vital reaction is about getting opne up on somone else, they have to dominate a discussion to show they have a superior theory because their survival depends on bolstering their weak ego. Their reaction is to try to show better intelligence. Lach is haughty because they are in a constant anamalistic competition with their perceived rivals, their reaction is to keep on top of the scene, dominate by taking over the scene ( loquacity) and watch your back. Platina is haughty because their world of priviledge is a sham and they are losing it so they have to put on this show while all around them in decaying and dangerous. Their reaction is to be the one that would stab lachesis or sulphur in the back before comitting suicide. The reaction is syphilitic.
And just to make a final point. I am only talking mentals because that is what was mentioned. You will get the misam of any remedy by looking at what process underlies all the symptoms. So what process mainly underlies physicals, mentals and emotionals in Platina? These are breakdown, decay, necrosis. This is seen in physicals (skin - eruptions, syphylitic), mentals (delusion - body, torn into rags) and emotional (mind - anxiety, salvation about - hell). Platina is a deeply syphilitic remedy.
Palladium is only listed as sycotic so it should represent the sycotic miasm well. In my understanding, a syphilitic remedy is short on positive pathways and quickly hits the negative pathway. They can't compensate because they are already so ill. This is the differentiating mental aspect. All remedies have psoric, sycotic and syphilitic stages. In the provings platina wants to kiss everyone just like pulsatilla. This affection could be psoric but how long will a remedy like Platina stay in that emotional state? Not for long. You can see the syphilitic behavior in Platina because platina has very few positive compensations She has that large ego and is so highly sexed yet with the need to have a spiritual relationship she is almost doomed to fail. She can barely be positive. Platina feels so great she is soon isolated. She then gets restess and changeable and quickly heads to the negative side with depression, forgetfulness, morose. Platina is psoric/syphilitic whereas Palladium is psoric/sycotic. Palladium wants to be viewed as great but Platina is already there. That's why the delusion she is separate from her family.
If they dont get sufficient attention they can hide away to lick their wounds in private.
This is the depressive side of the remedy when their search for admiration runs dry. This can happen if parents laugh at or tease these children when they were very young. You are a failure, a good for nothing. This is one of the worst things you could say to a young palladium.
I didnt know platinas key characteristics are Pride & SUSCEPTABILITY... susceptability to offence
Well anyway I got issues with intimacy beside approval seeking and attention seeking. Issue with deep emotional topics. Discussing them. So I am thinking natrum muriaticum still. But it is probably wrong.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 23 Nov 2011 13:40:53 GMT]
starface last decade
The stapysgaria changed something for the worse on my genital. Tip got bigger and the skin is hanging more down + arteries are bigger. Just like I read on here on one thread where someone posted that over masturbation did this to him. Well for me it was staphysgaria. I have at the end of the tip a pink bright skin (as if new tissue) which looks bigger than before.
I assume this will not correct itself on its own but stay that way. It looks rather ugly now. Before that it looked very good I was always told lol now I fear it doesnt look good at all anymore. And that is a problem for me.
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I had a dream of a murder trial again. I was with a guy in a house. And the guy killed an old man. I remember I took the gun to hide it all with the guy and realized my fingerprints will be now on it so I cleaned the gun quick. I hid it under the bed. And than a woman found it who just made the beds. So the police came. Me and a guy were the prime suspects and I felt like I have to defend myself hard against all those people who think I did it. THe prime prosecutor called me a snake once when he was at the house investigating with people. Anyway I tried to make it clear that why would I kill an old man. I am so sensitive to hurting someone that I never even was in a real fight ever. Or when I go punched once lightly by a smaller than me guy I could not punch him back... I tried to make clear that one of his family members who was in the house the same time as me must have done it to get his money when he is dead.
The theme of those murder trials and prisons is a strange one. It is what I fear most, to be taken away put into a small place for many years and my life passing by. And in the dreams it is like I know this will happen. That I will do something stupid. As if I cannot avoid it. That I am destined to be put away in prison. What I mean is that if I get put into prison it would feel like I knew this would happen, that I could not avoid it. Prison is like death to me. No life
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I assume this will not correct itself on its own but stay that way. It looks rather ugly now. Before that it looked very good I was always told lol now I fear it doesnt look good at all anymore. And that is a problem for me.
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I had a dream of a murder trial again. I was with a guy in a house. And the guy killed an old man. I remember I took the gun to hide it all with the guy and realized my fingerprints will be now on it so I cleaned the gun quick. I hid it under the bed. And than a woman found it who just made the beds. So the police came. Me and a guy were the prime suspects and I felt like I have to defend myself hard against all those people who think I did it. THe prime prosecutor called me a snake once when he was at the house investigating with people. Anyway I tried to make it clear that why would I kill an old man. I am so sensitive to hurting someone that I never even was in a real fight ever. Or when I go punched once lightly by a smaller than me guy I could not punch him back... I tried to make clear that one of his family members who was in the house the same time as me must have done it to get his money when he is dead.
The theme of those murder trials and prisons is a strange one. It is what I fear most, to be taken away put into a small place for many years and my life passing by. And in the dreams it is like I know this will happen. That I will do something stupid. As if I cannot avoid it. That I am destined to be put away in prison. What I mean is that if I get put into prison it would feel like I knew this would happen, that I could not avoid it. Prison is like death to me. No life
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starface last decade
Today it feels back to like I am glued to this forum again like in the past. And unstable because I want something. THere is something I am not getting, missing I would say. But no matter how much I get of this what I want it is not enough and not going to change anything. I am in this overactiv state it feels like.
There seems to be no way to stop me from being like this except for one thing. And that is to bring up the emotional hurt. That is what platina did to some extent and why for 2 weeks I wasnt glued on here.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 23 Nov 2011 23:37:05 GMT]
There seems to be no way to stop me from being like this except for one thing. And that is to bring up the emotional hurt. That is what platina did to some extent and why for 2 weeks I wasnt glued on here.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 23 Nov 2011 23:37:05 GMT]
starface last decade
David would you help on what next to do? Give me another chance? I know the things I did wrong. I will not act on those bad things anymore but this time rather describe and post why I would feel the need to self prescribe when it comes up etc? I know it was rather disaster and chaos. I must not do things on my own but rather describe everything. I have been alone long enough. And am tired of it. As I am clueless on my remedy. I only know palladium & platina did some noticeable changes from all the remedies I took so far. Palladium with the intensity although not curative and platina was a partial similimum, only one I would say. Even though palladium was just a proving it must be useful? No? since no remedy created such intense state, not lycopodium, not lachesis, not scorpio. It must mean I have such intensity in me. Which is true as I know I can be like that in intensity when everything is right. When I got motivation.
When I played soccer and had a supportive coach for a few years I was very good and he even took me to play for his team where the guys were for about 2 to 4 years older than me. And I played good even though the guys were so much taller than me and I was a defender, it should have been really hard to defend against players who are physichally bigger. I Always liked defending haha It was my speciality. This seems to be a prime thing of me. Defending, not letting anyone past me is just much better than attacking to me.
Now I dont know if the above sounds like palladium or not. But I will say this and I dont know whether this is palladium or not. But I remember when I played against older guys my mind was not on the game... I can describe this exactly... My mind was on the coach, on the people who watched like my brothers friends etc. It is like when I took the ball from someone, whenever I did something my mind was always on those people who watched and what good things they must be thinking of me now.
That is what I mean this days now when I say I feel empty. Back than I wasnt depressed or even cared about the ego or anything like that. I was just ok. But now this type of behavior would make me feel bad... it would make me realzie what empty person I am. And this is just bad. That I am lacking etc.
I dont know if that describes palladium above or not. It seems like many remedies have things in common.
*** I feel better generally. My depression seems to be lifted I feel better about myself, but it doesnt feel enough that I could have a social life. Although the change is nice. I feel much lighter
I could not describe the sensation of stress I had before taking platina, but I can say now it is weight, heaviness from feeling a bit lighter now
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 00:22:29 GMT]
When I played soccer and had a supportive coach for a few years I was very good and he even took me to play for his team where the guys were for about 2 to 4 years older than me. And I played good even though the guys were so much taller than me and I was a defender, it should have been really hard to defend against players who are physichally bigger. I Always liked defending haha It was my speciality. This seems to be a prime thing of me. Defending, not letting anyone past me is just much better than attacking to me.
Now I dont know if the above sounds like palladium or not. But I will say this and I dont know whether this is palladium or not. But I remember when I played against older guys my mind was not on the game... I can describe this exactly... My mind was on the coach, on the people who watched like my brothers friends etc. It is like when I took the ball from someone, whenever I did something my mind was always on those people who watched and what good things they must be thinking of me now.
That is what I mean this days now when I say I feel empty. Back than I wasnt depressed or even cared about the ego or anything like that. I was just ok. But now this type of behavior would make me feel bad... it would make me realzie what empty person I am. And this is just bad. That I am lacking etc.
I dont know if that describes palladium above or not. It seems like many remedies have things in common.
*** I feel better generally. My depression seems to be lifted I feel better about myself, but it doesnt feel enough that I could have a social life. Although the change is nice. I feel much lighter
I could not describe the sensation of stress I had before taking platina, but I can say now it is weight, heaviness from feeling a bit lighter now
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 00:22:29 GMT]
starface last decade
Stop taking homoeopathy. That is what you should do. Stop playing around with our medicines like this. Just stop.
I have already given you my advice, you just wont take it. So you have not shown me that you have changed - you will clearly just continue doing the same things that make you impossible to treat. You have definitely shown that here.
The real issue, one that I cannot ever see being addressed over a forum like this, is that you are completely untrustworthy. Even if you said you were not taking remedies on your own, I certainly could never trust that to be true. I really have no idea how any homoeopath will ever treat you.
As with any person with this particular problem, I cannot treat you. It is something you will have to sort out before ever hoping to be cured. It is a serious problem for you. I really don't know how you are going to fix it.
I have already given you my advice, you just wont take it. So you have not shown me that you have changed - you will clearly just continue doing the same things that make you impossible to treat. You have definitely shown that here.
The real issue, one that I cannot ever see being addressed over a forum like this, is that you are completely untrustworthy. Even if you said you were not taking remedies on your own, I certainly could never trust that to be true. I really have no idea how any homoeopath will ever treat you.
As with any person with this particular problem, I cannot treat you. It is something you will have to sort out before ever hoping to be cured. It is a serious problem for you. I really don't know how you are going to fix it.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
hmm. I can only change so far as to realize what I did was wrong and bad which I did like I said. I know it was a disaster and I can put myself in your shoes that it wasnt nice dealing with me. But I cannot promise something I am not sure I could keep. Because I know how I am when I am unstable. Although at this moment I still doubt I would ever want to take any remedy on my own. I even have no desire to take one right now. The experinece was bad not fun last time. And I dont know what me taking a remedy would do anyway. I dont know what remedy to even take and it wont cure me magically instantly anyway.
Ok so I am really in trouble right now than? No life, no job, no education, no social life, time continues to tick and before i even get there, to have any of those things mentioned I have this huge mountain to climb. (impossible task) to get over my social anxiety. My problem with interacting with people
Ha it couldnt be any worse. But thankfully I am a bit less depressed and feel more hopefull.
I dont understand why it has to be so hard for me always though.
I miss the times when I could interact with you on this forum.
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I still feel anxiety when I see your reply so this hasnt changed from platina either.
I have issues with the past. I can not enjoy my computer I got back, I cannot watch any movies I did in the past. It all reminds me of the past before the BDD, the failed attempts of trying to get over my social anxiety, the isolation, the depression.
I think I am going to sell the computer because I dont feel good having it. But I hate to do such things. I hate to try to avoid the problems. I want to get them sorted. Otherwise they will keep on nagging me forever. I like the idea of fixing something and it never coming back.
Ok so I am really in trouble right now than? No life, no job, no education, no social life, time continues to tick and before i even get there, to have any of those things mentioned I have this huge mountain to climb. (impossible task) to get over my social anxiety. My problem with interacting with people
Ha it couldnt be any worse. But thankfully I am a bit less depressed and feel more hopefull.
I dont understand why it has to be so hard for me always though.
I miss the times when I could interact with you on this forum.
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I still feel anxiety when I see your reply so this hasnt changed from platina either.
I have issues with the past. I can not enjoy my computer I got back, I cannot watch any movies I did in the past. It all reminds me of the past before the BDD, the failed attempts of trying to get over my social anxiety, the isolation, the depression.
I think I am going to sell the computer because I dont feel good having it. But I hate to do such things. I hate to try to avoid the problems. I want to get them sorted. Otherwise they will keep on nagging me forever. I like the idea of fixing something and it never coming back.
starface last decade
I hate being dishonest. Because dishonest people do not count and I cannot feel good about myself if I am like that. So there are 2 remedies I took you did not know about. I took nat mur before I took palladium. If you remember I asked you in an email whether it is ok for me to take it and you said no it isnt. But I took it already a day before I asked you that because I expected you to be ok with of course. An than 2 days later I took palladium because I thought nat mur cannot be right and I told you about that one.
And back when I took ignatia after silicea I also took phosphorus than which you did not know
lol now I am clean completely. Everything is known. I had my issues with dishonesty earlier in treatment but since taking palladium, platina from than on I doubt I would ever hide anything again. I simply cannot feel good about myself if I do. And I felt the need right now to mention about those 2 remedies you didnt know yet about for the reason that I cannot rest until it is out of me. If I would not mention those 2 remedies I took it would feel to me like I am trying to hide it and it is making me feel bad so I only came clean for that reason. Not to make you want to help me. That would of be cheap from me lol
And back when I took ignatia after silicea I also took phosphorus than which you did not know
lol now I am clean completely. Everything is known. I had my issues with dishonesty earlier in treatment but since taking palladium, platina from than on I doubt I would ever hide anything again. I simply cannot feel good about myself if I do. And I felt the need right now to mention about those 2 remedies you didnt know yet about for the reason that I cannot rest until it is out of me. If I would not mention those 2 remedies I took it would feel to me like I am trying to hide it and it is making me feel bad so I only came clean for that reason. Not to make you want to help me. That would of be cheap from me lol
starface last decade
Can I get an answer why palladium made me so intense? And no other remedy, lachesis, scorpio, platina, lycopodium who are egoistic did not? Or not aurum either
Does this mean something? Is this useful information?
Palladium has a subdued or supressed ego I read? They arent known to have an intensity or?
What would happen to someone who needs palladium after taking it? I dont know much about homeopathy... does it mean for example if someone who needs platina his high ego will dissapear instantly after taking remedy platina or will it aggravate and only after a week dissapear?
Thanks
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 07:00:53 GMT]
Does this mean something? Is this useful information?
Palladium has a subdued or supressed ego I read? They arent known to have an intensity or?
What would happen to someone who needs palladium after taking it? I dont know much about homeopathy... does it mean for example if someone who needs platina his high ego will dissapear instantly after taking remedy platina or will it aggravate and only after a week dissapear?
Thanks
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 07:00:53 GMT]
starface last decade
Update:
Well I went out for a walk and noticed something positive. How a twitch or tense move with my arm did not do anything bad I am feeling better and more confident as I said before definitely. I could dismiss the tense move or twitches. It feels like there is some substance again. I am hopeful again. Actually platina has been a really good remedy for me. Some positive changes with my BDD (no picking on face for some months now), and I am seeing some good indications with my social anxiety now also. This obviously brought my ego up again a bit (the thought I could be really platina) and I felt like on palladium for a moment outside although not as intense I was on a small hill walking my dog looking at other people down their and bolstering my ego lol. I dont know, to me it turning out that I am really platina or palladium means everything to me. It is a win for me in the end after all this difficulty I had. And I could live again and stand myself. If I am Platina you can write down in the material medica that no one suffers like platina lol in terms of social anxiety. That is why I think gkumar should take platina aswell. He mentioned weight on his head, a dead like sensation of his head. That he cannot socialize because of it All those things were true for me too. I talked often about the problem with my eyes aswell but it doesnt matter. I am not a homeopath and not sure of it. It is just an idea so I am going to drop it, although I am for some reason fairly certain it would help. But I could be wrong of course. I am probably wrong, it is only a small chance it would work.
Seems like I will be staying with platina for a while longer than. I dont have a reference to know how a similimum or partial similimum feels like. I think I was really sick so it might take a while to get cured for me, but there are some encouraging signs from platina which were not present on any other remedy for me. So I will keep on waiting. As I said I do not feel the need for a remedy right now. I am just confused about my dreams, they do not seem platina like. Only sometimes they do so but thats a maybe. I am not too sure.
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 08:35:52 GMT]
Well I went out for a walk and noticed something positive. How a twitch or tense move with my arm did not do anything bad I am feeling better and more confident as I said before definitely. I could dismiss the tense move or twitches. It feels like there is some substance again. I am hopeful again. Actually platina has been a really good remedy for me. Some positive changes with my BDD (no picking on face for some months now), and I am seeing some good indications with my social anxiety now also. This obviously brought my ego up again a bit (the thought I could be really platina) and I felt like on palladium for a moment outside although not as intense I was on a small hill walking my dog looking at other people down their and bolstering my ego lol. I dont know, to me it turning out that I am really platina or palladium means everything to me. It is a win for me in the end after all this difficulty I had. And I could live again and stand myself. If I am Platina you can write down in the material medica that no one suffers like platina lol in terms of social anxiety. That is why I think gkumar should take platina aswell. He mentioned weight on his head, a dead like sensation of his head. That he cannot socialize because of it All those things were true for me too. I talked often about the problem with my eyes aswell but it doesnt matter. I am not a homeopath and not sure of it. It is just an idea so I am going to drop it, although I am for some reason fairly certain it would help. But I could be wrong of course. I am probably wrong, it is only a small chance it would work.
Seems like I will be staying with platina for a while longer than. I dont have a reference to know how a similimum or partial similimum feels like. I think I was really sick so it might take a while to get cured for me, but there are some encouraging signs from platina which were not present on any other remedy for me. So I will keep on waiting. As I said I do not feel the need for a remedy right now. I am just confused about my dreams, they do not seem platina like. Only sometimes they do so but thats a maybe. I am not too sure.
[message edited by starface on Thu, 24 Nov 2011 08:35:52 GMT]
starface last decade
hmm I read some posts of paki1 on here and no I am not like that at all. I do not care about being superior or the knowledgable guy who is expert in a field. These are not things that go on in my mind. I dont have such type of ego at all. That would be to isolating I guess. But even if I were like that I could not admit to such things. Never talk about such things. It would be to low and I would tremble and feel embarassed if I said such things. I could not discuss wanting to be superior or knowledgable because this in itself shows egoisem and shows smallness to me. It means you want to be knowledgable, which therefore means you arent knowledgable yet. Only someone who isnt knowledgable wants to become knowledgable... Aint that true? I could never give out such statement that I want to be expert or knowledgable. Maybe I do have a gigantic ego. I dont know. I have never looked at it that way. But this ego is not helping me. I tremble and feel embarassed + humilated very quick usually.
Hope I didnt offend anyone with this post. It is just my view of things.
I read somewhere platina likes to make everyone know that they are the best... this isnt true for me. I could never do such thing. This also means 'smallness' to me. What type of person needs to brag and tell everyone how good and great they are constantly? Again only a small person. Platina isnt anything great therefore. I could not take someone who constantly needs to let everyone know how they are the best seriously. I would dismiss them in a second and see through them for who they really are.
That is why I am so tough on myself also and have trouble getting anywhere. My standard is to damn high.
But I like being around fun people. Hate being alone
Hope I didnt offend anyone with this post. It is just my view of things.
I read somewhere platina likes to make everyone know that they are the best... this isnt true for me. I could never do such thing. This also means 'smallness' to me. What type of person needs to brag and tell everyone how good and great they are constantly? Again only a small person. Platina isnt anything great therefore. I could not take someone who constantly needs to let everyone know how they are the best seriously. I would dismiss them in a second and see through them for who they really are.
That is why I am so tough on myself also and have trouble getting anywhere. My standard is to damn high.
But I like being around fun people. Hate being alone
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I had some dreams that were not platina like I think.
..I walked past a hurdle to get onto the other side which had big holes in it so I could fall down and my dog was with me. So I got past some of those big holes and than realized my dog wont be able to so I had to get back for her but I knew it wont be possible with her to get past those holes. I cannot hold her and do it. So I was looking at her and tried to see how she will manage and the holes seemed smaller when she walked past them and she could do it.
** a bit strange, I often dream about being with my dog. Once I dreamed being somewhere in nature with lots of snakes around and I had to get away from this place. SO I had my dog in my arms but she was so restless jumping that I had to put her down on the ground which I didnt like. Or once I was somewhere really up high on a platform with my dog and around me where snakes and water. My dog constantly tried to jump down from the platform so I had to keep her here on the platform and the snakes back. By the way I was preparing food on the platform so I tried to heat up the food but this was danger because it meant snakes will come. SO I had to manage/balance it, to not use to much heat, only what was necessary otherwise more snakes will evolve from the heat. Get born from the heat. And than in the dream the water went away, some insect or bird flew past me and my dog jumped down from the platform to fetch the bird and a big python went after my dog instantly. More like a dinosaur from the big size. So I went down the platform. Such long ladder and time it would take to get down to the ground so that I slide down it and went after the python. THen I found some rakes on the ground and hit the long pythons tale/neck. But a guy came and told me it is to late that the python has eaten my dog.
I dont know, my reaction to such dream is that of ego. I was chasing a big snake for my dog and attacked it. And I was on a super high platform. THose are things that make me feel good. I would never go after a big snake in real life out of fear. But at the same time I could not live with myself if I did not. Or if someone is in need of help which could put me in danger it is a mix. I cannot leave them behind. Impossible but I cannot help them out of fear either. But in the end I think I would help. If I dont help I loose guranteed. If I help I might turn out something great and only maybe loose if something bad happens to me while trying to help and I die.
*** So to continue with above dream of tonight. After I got past the holes I was walking somewhere under a street and a dog owner with his own dog saw me. His dog sniffed out my dog which lead him to look below the street. Which I didnt like because I was walking underground. I was ashamed or something for that. Didnt like him seeing me. Than I got into a bar. And there was a guy from the neighbourhood who is a movie director and made a local tv-series that everyone was watching in the bar. He looked like my old basketball coach. The thought of being alone in a place with people I dont know came up. But I knew my mother and brother were in some other rooms so I was fine with it. I hate being alone and not knowing anyone in a place of people. It makes me feel bad about myself. I dont know why I dreamed of the acting. All I can say is that this would be my prefered thing I would do in life. Because it goes with my reality. How people rave about actors (celebrities). Like how you show yourself in public and wherever you go people are interested in you. That is just how I feel from the reactions I have gotten from people always. And from girls. On one hand it is understandable I went downhill, depression, BDD when I isolated myself in my room for a year with rarely going out. This was really bad for me and made me feel horrible and like I lost everything etc. I wasnt around people, not getting attention etc. This dramatically changed me and I am still not over this bad time of my life. I still cannot clean my room, get any desire up.. It changed me. Anyway back to acting. I have no confidence whatsoever I could be good at acting. Total lack of confidence. It is just the life and admiration of actors (celebrities) by people that makes me think this is where I should be... I think I could be a good actor if I had no mental blocks but in front of people I know I would do horribly and not good at all. I would ideally like to be in showbiz or something in the media. Any other job than this will make me feel horrible, but at the same time I have great lack of confidence and would not want to do it. But in the end I hate to be limited and would wish to overcome those problems. I dont like compromising. Saying to myself that I cannot do this because of this problem. I think everyone would do better than me in acting if I had to be in front of people doing it. So I would never even try because I already know the outcome and it would make me feel horrible.
** I had more dreams tonight . In one I was in a car with my mother and she smoked inside it that I could not bear it so I had to get out of the car.
** I was in my old highschool the year 2005 and there was issue with my past coming up. As if grief
** I was in highschool again and after school I was on my own outside, than I saw 3 guys from my class and walked away from the place I was at immediately. But in my mind I thought I must not do it. Otherwise the people will think bad of me, that I am afraid or something, or that I am going away because of them. So I turned around and asked one guy what time it is. and whil turning around it seemed like the guy was laughing, which must have been at me. Not really laughing to make fun, but just this bad smile at me. As if he wants to say that I am shy with that. Or that I cannot be taken seriously. Just bad. I wished there were no such smile. Or it could mean that I made them uncomfortable or that they know what is going on in my mind.
..I walked past a hurdle to get onto the other side which had big holes in it so I could fall down and my dog was with me. So I got past some of those big holes and than realized my dog wont be able to so I had to get back for her but I knew it wont be possible with her to get past those holes. I cannot hold her and do it. So I was looking at her and tried to see how she will manage and the holes seemed smaller when she walked past them and she could do it.
** a bit strange, I often dream about being with my dog. Once I dreamed being somewhere in nature with lots of snakes around and I had to get away from this place. SO I had my dog in my arms but she was so restless jumping that I had to put her down on the ground which I didnt like. Or once I was somewhere really up high on a platform with my dog and around me where snakes and water. My dog constantly tried to jump down from the platform so I had to keep her here on the platform and the snakes back. By the way I was preparing food on the platform so I tried to heat up the food but this was danger because it meant snakes will come. SO I had to manage/balance it, to not use to much heat, only what was necessary otherwise more snakes will evolve from the heat. Get born from the heat. And than in the dream the water went away, some insect or bird flew past me and my dog jumped down from the platform to fetch the bird and a big python went after my dog instantly. More like a dinosaur from the big size. So I went down the platform. Such long ladder and time it would take to get down to the ground so that I slide down it and went after the python. THen I found some rakes on the ground and hit the long pythons tale/neck. But a guy came and told me it is to late that the python has eaten my dog.
I dont know, my reaction to such dream is that of ego. I was chasing a big snake for my dog and attacked it. And I was on a super high platform. THose are things that make me feel good. I would never go after a big snake in real life out of fear. But at the same time I could not live with myself if I did not. Or if someone is in need of help which could put me in danger it is a mix. I cannot leave them behind. Impossible but I cannot help them out of fear either. But in the end I think I would help. If I dont help I loose guranteed. If I help I might turn out something great and only maybe loose if something bad happens to me while trying to help and I die.
*** So to continue with above dream of tonight. After I got past the holes I was walking somewhere under a street and a dog owner with his own dog saw me. His dog sniffed out my dog which lead him to look below the street. Which I didnt like because I was walking underground. I was ashamed or something for that. Didnt like him seeing me. Than I got into a bar. And there was a guy from the neighbourhood who is a movie director and made a local tv-series that everyone was watching in the bar. He looked like my old basketball coach. The thought of being alone in a place with people I dont know came up. But I knew my mother and brother were in some other rooms so I was fine with it. I hate being alone and not knowing anyone in a place of people. It makes me feel bad about myself. I dont know why I dreamed of the acting. All I can say is that this would be my prefered thing I would do in life. Because it goes with my reality. How people rave about actors (celebrities). Like how you show yourself in public and wherever you go people are interested in you. That is just how I feel from the reactions I have gotten from people always. And from girls. On one hand it is understandable I went downhill, depression, BDD when I isolated myself in my room for a year with rarely going out. This was really bad for me and made me feel horrible and like I lost everything etc. I wasnt around people, not getting attention etc. This dramatically changed me and I am still not over this bad time of my life. I still cannot clean my room, get any desire up.. It changed me. Anyway back to acting. I have no confidence whatsoever I could be good at acting. Total lack of confidence. It is just the life and admiration of actors (celebrities) by people that makes me think this is where I should be... I think I could be a good actor if I had no mental blocks but in front of people I know I would do horribly and not good at all. I would ideally like to be in showbiz or something in the media. Any other job than this will make me feel horrible, but at the same time I have great lack of confidence and would not want to do it. But in the end I hate to be limited and would wish to overcome those problems. I dont like compromising. Saying to myself that I cannot do this because of this problem. I think everyone would do better than me in acting if I had to be in front of people doing it. So I would never even try because I already know the outcome and it would make me feel horrible.
** I had more dreams tonight . In one I was in a car with my mother and she smoked inside it that I could not bear it so I had to get out of the car.
** I was in my old highschool the year 2005 and there was issue with my past coming up. As if grief
** I was in highschool again and after school I was on my own outside, than I saw 3 guys from my class and walked away from the place I was at immediately. But in my mind I thought I must not do it. Otherwise the people will think bad of me, that I am afraid or something, or that I am going away because of them. So I turned around and asked one guy what time it is. and whil turning around it seemed like the guy was laughing, which must have been at me. Not really laughing to make fun, but just this bad smile at me. As if he wants to say that I am shy with that. Or that I cannot be taken seriously. Just bad. I wished there were no such smile. Or it could mean that I made them uncomfortable or that they know what is going on in my mind.
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Lets search for my remedy together? Sensation method is cool. I like describing the themes and words I always got. I simply love doing that lol.
So much more is known about me since the last time we worked together.
Like my problem with the ego. The approval seeking. The isolation. The issue with intimacy and deep emotional topics. Issue with fainting, panic.
I dont think platina fits me entirely. I have ailments from egoisem. If that means what I am about to describe than I have this symptom... Yesterday night when I commented on a post made by paki1 (2 posts up from this one)... I showed egoisem and I dont like this at all. I got maybe a big ego, but I do not like it at all. It is bad and wrong. The reason would be that people dont like this, means they wont like me and this sort of distances myself from people. That is why I hate it. I mostly just have an ego to protect myself when offended etc. It only comes up than. I am not like Platina who has ego all the time. It comes when I get lowered or offended etc. Otherwise it is not here.
Well if things like... not wanting to take my phone out in public because I think it isnt one of the bests but rather cheap counts as egoisem... than I have ego all the time. in last paragraph I meant with ego isnt here that I am not egoistic when it comes to dealing with people. I never try to make myself better than someone else or boast etc.
I hate it when my mother just talks to loud in front of the house. I fear it makes me (us) look bad in front of people. So I always tell her to behave and be more quiet.
Or when there are fights about possesions or money at home I feel bad. It makes my family look so low. Like they are some animals. So I tell them to stop and make them see how they look like right now. But at the same time I feel bad about myself for doing this. Because I think it is bad of me to do that since I am kind of the same. Not to the same degree. Just a little about posessions. But still it is leaving me feeling as if humiliated or afraid I could be attacked for being the same like them anyway. I dont know. There are some bad feelings when I do such things. Maybe this is the susceptability to offence or humiliation?
When I tell my mother to behave outside I dont feel the bad feelings I mentioned above. Because I do behave outside always I guess.
Just thought of mentioning this. In case it is important. That is how I am. I am very self observant and I think it could be exactly out of the fear of getting humiliated for something embarassing. Calling someone childish when you are childish yourself is just so bad. So therefore it is important I am self observant. Not deceiving myself and open the truth. Denial like for some people doesnt work for me. Denieing something bad I am told about myself from people doesnt work for me. It is a low thing but this is not the entire reason for why it doesnt work for me.
The reason is imagine there are 5 people and they tell me I am childish and so I deny this, what does this achieve? The people than might stay quiet and not comment on it anymore but in their mind keep thinking that I am childish.
My task would be to convince them that this isnt true. I would feel horrible for as long as they think I am childish and no ego protection would help. Only once I see they changed their mind would I be ok again.
Another thing why denial is bad is... I might be told I am childish and deny it but the 5 guys might completely ignore it and just give me a smile. Which gives me this horrible feeling. Like I am in the darkness. That they know something that I dont know. It is like so humiliating. And I feel so small than. That I would just want the groun to swallow me. It is the worst when I alone dont know what is going on but other people do. So some defense mechanism dont work for me at all. Because I am dependent on the opinion of other people, on my self worth from other people. Pretty much everthing
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 02:30:54 GMT]
So much more is known about me since the last time we worked together.
Like my problem with the ego. The approval seeking. The isolation. The issue with intimacy and deep emotional topics. Issue with fainting, panic.
I dont think platina fits me entirely. I have ailments from egoisem. If that means what I am about to describe than I have this symptom... Yesterday night when I commented on a post made by paki1 (2 posts up from this one)... I showed egoisem and I dont like this at all. I got maybe a big ego, but I do not like it at all. It is bad and wrong. The reason would be that people dont like this, means they wont like me and this sort of distances myself from people. That is why I hate it. I mostly just have an ego to protect myself when offended etc. It only comes up than. I am not like Platina who has ego all the time. It comes when I get lowered or offended etc. Otherwise it is not here.
Well if things like... not wanting to take my phone out in public because I think it isnt one of the bests but rather cheap counts as egoisem... than I have ego all the time. in last paragraph I meant with ego isnt here that I am not egoistic when it comes to dealing with people. I never try to make myself better than someone else or boast etc.
I hate it when my mother just talks to loud in front of the house. I fear it makes me (us) look bad in front of people. So I always tell her to behave and be more quiet.
Or when there are fights about possesions or money at home I feel bad. It makes my family look so low. Like they are some animals. So I tell them to stop and make them see how they look like right now. But at the same time I feel bad about myself for doing this. Because I think it is bad of me to do that since I am kind of the same. Not to the same degree. Just a little about posessions. But still it is leaving me feeling as if humiliated or afraid I could be attacked for being the same like them anyway. I dont know. There are some bad feelings when I do such things. Maybe this is the susceptability to offence or humiliation?
When I tell my mother to behave outside I dont feel the bad feelings I mentioned above. Because I do behave outside always I guess.
Just thought of mentioning this. In case it is important. That is how I am. I am very self observant and I think it could be exactly out of the fear of getting humiliated for something embarassing. Calling someone childish when you are childish yourself is just so bad. So therefore it is important I am self observant. Not deceiving myself and open the truth. Denial like for some people doesnt work for me. Denieing something bad I am told about myself from people doesnt work for me. It is a low thing but this is not the entire reason for why it doesnt work for me.
The reason is imagine there are 5 people and they tell me I am childish and so I deny this, what does this achieve? The people than might stay quiet and not comment on it anymore but in their mind keep thinking that I am childish.
My task would be to convince them that this isnt true. I would feel horrible for as long as they think I am childish and no ego protection would help. Only once I see they changed their mind would I be ok again.
Another thing why denial is bad is... I might be told I am childish and deny it but the 5 guys might completely ignore it and just give me a smile. Which gives me this horrible feeling. Like I am in the darkness. That they know something that I dont know. It is like so humiliating. And I feel so small than. That I would just want the groun to swallow me. It is the worst when I alone dont know what is going on but other people do. So some defense mechanism dont work for me at all. Because I am dependent on the opinion of other people, on my self worth from other people. Pretty much everthing
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 02:30:54 GMT]
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what can be done about my genital? Will this be permanent now? my foreskin is like it receded. And at the end of the tip It is enlarged, as if inflated the end of tip close to the skin . Kind of to big and why the foresking receded.
I dont like this change? Why did this happen after taking staphysgaria and what does one do after this happens?
Does this mean anytime I take something there can be tissue change? I hate change on my body.
Please some advice whether this will autocorrect itself or not?
The inflatation at the end of the tip close to where skin starts is the problem. If it would go back to normal size. The surrounding skin would be again like it was
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 03:07:45 GMT]
I dont like this change? Why did this happen after taking staphysgaria and what does one do after this happens?
Does this mean anytime I take something there can be tissue change? I hate change on my body.
Please some advice whether this will autocorrect itself or not?
The inflatation at the end of the tip close to where skin starts is the problem. If it would go back to normal size. The surrounding skin would be again like it was
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 03:07:45 GMT]
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I read the thread from member 'tahbi'. And it seems like she has problems with animal remedy. I can identify with it. Animal remedies where the worst for me too. Particularly the scorpio. It felt like leprosy miasm. Just terrible. Such bad feelings about myself. I havent felt this way from plants or minerals like I do with the animals.
Animals are quite horrible remedies for me. I dont know whether this means my remedy is from that kingdom since it feels the worst to me or does this not mean anything necessarily?
I think it is just generally that animals are the worst. Because a family member who took an animal also had great trouble.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 03:15:08 GMT]
Animals are quite horrible remedies for me. I dont know whether this means my remedy is from that kingdom since it feels the worst to me or does this not mean anything necessarily?
I think it is just generally that animals are the worst. Because a family member who took an animal also had great trouble.
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Please help me David. Homeopathy is too complex. I want to have a life. There was valuable information when I took Platina, the aggravation, the childlike fear of the darkness, the fear when being alone, and the emotional hurt was up. The fear of fainting also. Paranoia. semi dream like state. Fear of dark corners. Fear of lookin even at familiar things at night. Looking at furniture even scared me for a moment until I realized it just furniture at night. Looking at my mother, dog scared me for a few seconds
Does this sound stramonium?
When I closed my eyes there were things moving. Some movies playing. Doors opening and me just seeing darkness etc which I watched. And sitting at table with people who had no face. It was hidden. Or a picture of being like on a chess board with those chess figures coming out of the darkness. It is like I am alone and things around me are scary? and I dont know what they are where anyone is etc.
I couldnt even go for a ride at midnight because some religious faceless woman cam up in my mind. And than I feared I might see it on the street or everywhere that I returned home quick. This fear that those monster or people might appear never felt so real. Never to the same degree that I would have to return home.
I havent read about stramonium. I just know from the past it has delusion being in a wilderness or something. And fear of water. I have fear of dark water where I dont see in it. Clear water is fine. But still a bit of fear though from not knowing what is in it. Like swimming in the sea.
Experience of platina aggravation was ugly yet beautiful at the same time. It was deep, something new, my mind was still, it brought me in the moment. Ugly because it was scary at times and unpleasant.
I am sort of repulsed and attracted to it. Strange
You know I cannot stop doing homeopathy, because I am getting older every day and things must change. So why not help me rather than let me be alone and mess up things David? I will try my best again. And I did not react to the statement of being untrustful because I dont think this to be true or an issue with me. I would never deliberately be untrustful. I might be out of fear of rejection or critizism in the beginning but once I am comfortable I like to be open and admit to everything and keep nothing hidden for 2 reasons primarily. My ego (I would feel small, low) and communication, relationship cannot be stable or feel close if things are hidde. It gives me the feeling of being distanced from the person if I keep things hidden. But the ego is the primary reason why I dont like hiding things. I still hide things in real life of course. I havent progressed there yet. But over the internet I am enjoying how I can be open and face the music to the wrong things I did.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 04:08:21 GMT]
Does this sound stramonium?
When I closed my eyes there were things moving. Some movies playing. Doors opening and me just seeing darkness etc which I watched. And sitting at table with people who had no face. It was hidden. Or a picture of being like on a chess board with those chess figures coming out of the darkness. It is like I am alone and things around me are scary? and I dont know what they are where anyone is etc.
I couldnt even go for a ride at midnight because some religious faceless woman cam up in my mind. And than I feared I might see it on the street or everywhere that I returned home quick. This fear that those monster or people might appear never felt so real. Never to the same degree that I would have to return home.
I havent read about stramonium. I just know from the past it has delusion being in a wilderness or something. And fear of water. I have fear of dark water where I dont see in it. Clear water is fine. But still a bit of fear though from not knowing what is in it. Like swimming in the sea.
Experience of platina aggravation was ugly yet beautiful at the same time. It was deep, something new, my mind was still, it brought me in the moment. Ugly because it was scary at times and unpleasant.
I am sort of repulsed and attracted to it. Strange
You know I cannot stop doing homeopathy, because I am getting older every day and things must change. So why not help me rather than let me be alone and mess up things David? I will try my best again. And I did not react to the statement of being untrustful because I dont think this to be true or an issue with me. I would never deliberately be untrustful. I might be out of fear of rejection or critizism in the beginning but once I am comfortable I like to be open and admit to everything and keep nothing hidden for 2 reasons primarily. My ego (I would feel small, low) and communication, relationship cannot be stable or feel close if things are hidde. It gives me the feeling of being distanced from the person if I keep things hidden. But the ego is the primary reason why I dont like hiding things. I still hide things in real life of course. I havent progressed there yet. But over the internet I am enjoying how I can be open and face the music to the wrong things I did.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 04:08:21 GMT]
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I will try again. The reason Platina aggravation felt beautiful to me in a way is because it was a change from the usual, I was open, perceiving the things around me, I felt like a child, innocent and in the moment perceiving the things around me, I was feeling again, my mind was still, THe BDD and that type of crap compulsions were not present either.
- Seeing a homeopath in person seems slightly better from the interaction aspect. It still isnt good because of the change, my family nagging me, me doing something alone etc. But from the interaction point of view it looks more possible. I feel more open and able to interact. I also walked past some dog owners just right now and the interaction felt better. It seemed like the dog owner laughed amusingly at some funny things my dog did. It all felt better. What I also notice is that when I am alone. I am all in my head and egoistic, but with people there is none of that present. No ego. Interacting with people changes my mindset.
Edit: I might have made the interaction sound better than it was. There was nothing good about it or different except that I felt more close with the peopl, more open. Like when I walked past them my dog kept jumping and they laughed. Which felt good. Good because it felt like their was an interaction and I did not have bad feelings about myself really.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 05:51:48 GMT]
- Seeing a homeopath in person seems slightly better from the interaction aspect. It still isnt good because of the change, my family nagging me, me doing something alone etc. But from the interaction point of view it looks more possible. I feel more open and able to interact. I also walked past some dog owners just right now and the interaction felt better. It seemed like the dog owner laughed amusingly at some funny things my dog did. It all felt better. What I also notice is that when I am alone. I am all in my head and egoistic, but with people there is none of that present. No ego. Interacting with people changes my mindset.
Edit: I might have made the interaction sound better than it was. There was nothing good about it or different except that I felt more close with the peopl, more open. Like when I walked past them my dog kept jumping and they laughed. Which felt good. Good because it felt like their was an interaction and I did not have bad feelings about myself really.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 05:51:48 GMT]
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I also cleaned a bit in the house, placed things in order without anyone needing to tell me. I was alone at home. Would never do it if someone was at home. But I didnt clean my room. Still aversion to it because of the past
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I felt a bit of the sharp pain in my head close to vertex. Which happens when I step on my foot strongly. Or shake my head. It is a sudden sharp pain that last only for a few seconds. It is ameliorated by pressure. But no need for it since it lasts only for a few seconds.
I am assuming this is curative. Always happens after platina aggravation... the sharp pain.
I think I posted enough for today lol. How will my approval seeking get cured? I dont think it will happen from platina.
I am assuming this is curative. Always happens after platina aggravation... the sharp pain.
I think I posted enough for today lol. How will my approval seeking get cured? I dont think it will happen from platina.
starface last decade
Something good happened again now in the evening. A mental change for the better.
I felt better, I had lots of energy, I was a bit cursing and yelling at home, a bit of egoisem maybe also, but I always laugh in the end. It is a childish kind of egoisem where I alaways have to laugh and make a joke out of it when I notice I was to egoisitic.
Something about this remedy is really good it seems.
I thought a bit about sulphur today but I dont think they feel weight, opression and such things. Platina I think is more accurate from those 2 for me. My issues seem deeper. Although I have the childish egoisem maybe. So I dont know for sure. But the feeling I get is that sulphur is to ordinary, to simple that I could need it. I am not one of those simple remedies that most people take is my feeling. Anyway if platina would really be my remedy it would be funny in a way because I dont think any homeopath would ever prescribe it for me.
I felt better, I had lots of energy, I was a bit cursing and yelling at home, a bit of egoisem maybe also, but I always laugh in the end. It is a childish kind of egoisem where I alaways have to laugh and make a joke out of it when I notice I was to egoisitic.
Something about this remedy is really good it seems.
I thought a bit about sulphur today but I dont think they feel weight, opression and such things. Platina I think is more accurate from those 2 for me. My issues seem deeper. Although I have the childish egoisem maybe. So I dont know for sure. But the feeling I get is that sulphur is to ordinary, to simple that I could need it. I am not one of those simple remedies that most people take is my feeling. Anyway if platina would really be my remedy it would be funny in a way because I dont think any homeopath would ever prescribe it for me.
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I couldnt sleep till 6am tonight and woke up fairly early too.
It feels like I had an aggravation yesterday again. I was overactive. I felt Oppression on my chest and head for a while in the morning. I am not nice to anyone, but not to unfriendly either. In my mind I feel though I should be nicer whenever I am not.
I felt really good pysichally in my head, it felt light and close to normal.
Seems like 10M remedies work differently. I havent felt aggravation, improvement, aggravation, improvement from single dose before
I can see a way of getting better with this remedy. But right now I am ugly, to overactiv as if I am out of my mind. I am like a pistol. Very quick and sharp and not nice which messes with my conscience. And I worry how I am appearing ugly probably on one hand like 25% of me, but 75% doesnt care
I am like an unabalance ugly egoistical animal. Or that is how I fear I am appearing.
But my chest and head feel really good... light.
If I had to guess what happened I would say that some part of disease has lifted. Quite a change on how I interact with my brother and mother. Like I said quick and sharp replies compared to depressed and slow as to before. It is like some life got back into me, weight lifted. But right now it feels unbalanced. Like I said as if I am out of my mind or that is what I fear I am appearing like at least. But it is not a big worry. Just a thought wich does not have much power. As if a wild horse got loose lol or something like that.
My old american homeopath used to say when healing happens than one swings between 2 extreme sides before it balances itself out in the middle.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:34:40 GMT]
It feels like I had an aggravation yesterday again. I was overactive. I felt Oppression on my chest and head for a while in the morning. I am not nice to anyone, but not to unfriendly either. In my mind I feel though I should be nicer whenever I am not.
I felt really good pysichally in my head, it felt light and close to normal.
Seems like 10M remedies work differently. I havent felt aggravation, improvement, aggravation, improvement from single dose before
I can see a way of getting better with this remedy. But right now I am ugly, to overactiv as if I am out of my mind. I am like a pistol. Very quick and sharp and not nice which messes with my conscience. And I worry how I am appearing ugly probably on one hand like 25% of me, but 75% doesnt care
I am like an unabalance ugly egoistical animal. Or that is how I fear I am appearing.
But my chest and head feel really good... light.
If I had to guess what happened I would say that some part of disease has lifted. Quite a change on how I interact with my brother and mother. Like I said quick and sharp replies compared to depressed and slow as to before. It is like some life got back into me, weight lifted. But right now it feels unbalanced. Like I said as if I am out of my mind or that is what I fear I am appearing like at least. But it is not a big worry. Just a thought wich does not have much power. As if a wild horse got loose lol or something like that.
My old american homeopath used to say when healing happens than one swings between 2 extreme sides before it balances itself out in the middle.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:34:40 GMT]
starface last decade
No 10Ms do not work differently. All the rules are the same. Aggravation must come first, then followed by amelioration. In the very first stages after amelioration starts, you can see some 'yo-yoing' back and forth as the vital force attempts to reestablish order. However this settles quite quickly and either some symptoms will be uncured or they will be all gone. Those uncured ones may be better or worse, depending on the direction of cure and other factors in the case.
There are rules and guidelines in homoeopathy. Your problem is that you don't know them, so you are just making them up as you go along, and then devising treatment plans out of that. It is completely crazy.
You need to go through all your posts, list every symptom and feeling and problem you have. Next to each one write better, worse, same or gone. When better or worse you need to assign a score or percentage to represent how much.
You are not assessing yourself, you are just acting on impulse and impression, and then planning your treatment based on that. This would like me rushing past a patient and looking at them to decide if I had given them the right remedy.
If you want to act like a homoeopath, then read the Organon of Medicine. That contains everything you need to know. Whether you can actually put it into practice is a huge question mark - but why are you not bothering to educate yourself. You can already see what a mess you are making. Yet you continue to nurture your own ignorance as if it is something to be proud of.
There are rules and guidelines in homoeopathy. Your problem is that you don't know them, so you are just making them up as you go along, and then devising treatment plans out of that. It is completely crazy.
You need to go through all your posts, list every symptom and feeling and problem you have. Next to each one write better, worse, same or gone. When better or worse you need to assign a score or percentage to represent how much.
You are not assessing yourself, you are just acting on impulse and impression, and then planning your treatment based on that. This would like me rushing past a patient and looking at them to decide if I had given them the right remedy.
If you want to act like a homoeopath, then read the Organon of Medicine. That contains everything you need to know. Whether you can actually put it into practice is a huge question mark - but why are you not bothering to educate yourself. You can already see what a mess you are making. Yet you continue to nurture your own ignorance as if it is something to be proud of.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
I took the remedy on the 10 of november and cannot believe I stayed so long with a remedy. Must be indication of something working. Indication that it affected me deeply.
Talking is easier since yesterday. Pysichally easier and requires no extra effort, energy
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:37:29 GMT]
Talking is easier since yesterday. Pysichally easier and requires no extra effort, energy
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:37:29 GMT]
starface last decade
Ok thanks. I can see the change in me. My mother commented the same when we were at the beach that she thinks I am better and like I used to be in the past because I played on the beach which I usually dont do.
I am not trying to be a homeopath or right, I just theorize and wait if someone aggrees or disagrees. I am throwin out ideas and waiting for replies. lol. nothing else. That is also what I mean.
I also noticed how my haughtiness, or aversion to some people or contempt is not getting cured. But something else is. Which is I can relate to people better. Feel more like I am amongst them. I feel more feelings. Interaction seems better. Being outside feels ok. And I can look at nature without this tension everywhere. My orgasm is stronger. I still hate the word orgasm, sounds animalistic. The inapropriate sexual feelings are not here anymore as happened with staphysgaria but they returned.
I will make a complete list of what is better and what isnt. Yesterday night my forehead didnt seem big at all which was strange. But I noticed my receding hairline is worse. Worried me a bit, but I could let it go. And than I begun thinking what if my forehead might seem not big anymore because of my receding hairline. Because when the hairline was not receded to the top it might give the impression that my forehead is bigger. A bit paradoxical but it is true. Anyway I think it was just disease lifting that my head didnt seem that big but I cannot say for sure, could be the change of my hairline.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:50:07 GMT]
I am not trying to be a homeopath or right, I just theorize and wait if someone aggrees or disagrees. I am throwin out ideas and waiting for replies. lol. nothing else. That is also what I mean.
I also noticed how my haughtiness, or aversion to some people or contempt is not getting cured. But something else is. Which is I can relate to people better. Feel more like I am amongst them. I feel more feelings. Interaction seems better. Being outside feels ok. And I can look at nature without this tension everywhere. My orgasm is stronger. I still hate the word orgasm, sounds animalistic. The inapropriate sexual feelings are not here anymore as happened with staphysgaria but they returned.
I will make a complete list of what is better and what isnt. Yesterday night my forehead didnt seem big at all which was strange. But I noticed my receding hairline is worse. Worried me a bit, but I could let it go. And than I begun thinking what if my forehead might seem not big anymore because of my receding hairline. Because when the hairline was not receded to the top it might give the impression that my forehead is bigger. A bit paradoxical but it is true. Anyway I think it was just disease lifting that my head didnt seem that big but I cannot say for sure, could be the change of my hairline.
[message edited by starface on Fri, 25 Nov 2011 23:50:07 GMT]
starface last decade
How many remedies have you taken in the last few weeks? Considering each one can take weeks to show its full effect, how do you know which one just helped you? You have an emotional attachment to Platina - you are not able to assess your reaction logically and methodically because you mixed too many remedies together in too short a space of time. But because you want to be Platina, you are just assuming it is the one.
How are you going to sort that out? This is one part of the mess you have to clean up. How are you going to tell which remedy did what? How can you proceed, having no idea how you got to where you are?
How are you going to sort that out? This is one part of the mess you have to clean up. How are you going to tell which remedy did what? How can you proceed, having no idea how you got to where you are?
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
I just went out for a walk and it was a beautifull one. Once on a field (the field I always take my dog too) I was throwing my dogs leash up in the air as far as I could because I got much more energy and feel so much lighter. I was ready to declare remedy platina is mine. Everything outside felt so light and normal... but than I have gotten into a town amongst houses and people and the tension and heaviness returned to some extend.
It doesnt matter, great improvement when I am outside somewhere alone. Usually just outside even when alone I felt horrible and so tense, restricted and the restriction was weight!
It is probably to early for my social anxiety to dissapear. But I had such confidence and felt I am the best the moment I noticed Platina must be my remedy from all the improvements I have noticed so far... I am going to hold back for now because around people it still isnt that great. But I am 90% certain it is my remedy. I am getting tastes of confidence, of feeling light, feeling normal, of socializing can be fun
Right now I dont feel like writing a list on what is better and what isnt because it doesnt seem important. But in case someone wants to help me I would do it of course. I just cant make myself do it for myself.
I have taken only patina on the 10th of novemeber and it was REALLY DEEP. I dont think it is possible to get deeper.
Before that I have taken nat mur on the 9th of november which never caused any reaction anyway, and a day before that I have taken Platina 1M. And before that it was aurum 1M. I waited on this one for a week I think. It was ok, same sense of peace ,rest but my ego was unadressed and that is what made me take platina 1M again after the aurum.
I dont think I have an attachment to platina. Namely because I was open to taking lycopodium, staphysgaria. I took them because I want to find out the truth. And back when I was outside on the field with my dog, I thought about all this, how it was like, how I took lycopodium, all those remedies an here I am like the winner in the end. I was reflecting on things
There is no mess. All is clear. Platina is the only remedy that ever worked anyway.
I dont think I get attached to remedies that do not work. Palladium is one I feel somewhat stronger than Platina about but no attachment to it. It didnt work. Aurum I let it go quickly also because it didnt work for my ego problem at all. I wanted to be aurum just as much as Platina. And that confirms it for me that I still can see things clearly. Unattached. But this isnt hard for me. Because if something doesnt address my issues, does not cause a change I get tired of it really quick and need something else
Sorry
I feel like I can get cured. I have gotten so many tastes of it now. And I knew something was up yesterday when I had so much energy and was so quick and sharp. In the morning at 6 am when I went to bed I also felt aggravation oppression on my chest and head and today going out for a walk was beautifull, outside on the field.
Sorry David but I would never want to be a remedy I am not. I could not feel good that way about myself. Not at all. That is why it is important that I must see for myself that the remedy is working. And that is why I often get some life back in me when I see indications of this remedy working and some surges of ego bolstering. But it quickly went away the moment I felt weight around people again, and back to a bit of depression. Although it is fine. I am feeling good again.
Old symptoms have been returning as well. One is that I am compulsive about putting things in order into place,
I dont think the aggravation has passed yet. Or I mean the effect of the remedy. I still feel a bit of paranoia slightly when walking past rooms, and I dont like the dark still.
I am holding back for now. not 100% convinced yet. But if the weight and tension lifts around people which I think it will than it must be confirmed that it is my remedy. I still think I have palladium symptoms, especially the approval seeking. And I reacted very strong to that remedy. It must have been some sort of indication, no? To me it meant with absolute certainty that I need platina. I once even posted on here with the signature of George vithoulukas junior lol. It was just out of fun but it felt good and I wanted to be known as that. Although I feared I will be critizised and not taken seriously anymore and maybe even appear childish so I dropped it.
The day I took platina for the first time I knew this remedy is something different from the previous ones I have taken.
I am not feeling unstable like I felt yesterday or 2 days ago when I posted a lot again. Where I really felt like I am not getting something I need.
Since taking Platina I am not going out for walks that much anymore. Only once a day. It was a compulsive need I assume. On bad days I worry about this and doubtful over whether this is good or bad that I am not wanting to go out that much anymore. But on good days it doesnt cross my mind. Its something I thought about yesterday morning.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 26 Nov 2011 01:59:11 GMT]
It doesnt matter, great improvement when I am outside somewhere alone. Usually just outside even when alone I felt horrible and so tense, restricted and the restriction was weight!
It is probably to early for my social anxiety to dissapear. But I had such confidence and felt I am the best the moment I noticed Platina must be my remedy from all the improvements I have noticed so far... I am going to hold back for now because around people it still isnt that great. But I am 90% certain it is my remedy. I am getting tastes of confidence, of feeling light, feeling normal, of socializing can be fun
Right now I dont feel like writing a list on what is better and what isnt because it doesnt seem important. But in case someone wants to help me I would do it of course. I just cant make myself do it for myself.
I have taken only patina on the 10th of novemeber and it was REALLY DEEP. I dont think it is possible to get deeper.
Before that I have taken nat mur on the 9th of november which never caused any reaction anyway, and a day before that I have taken Platina 1M. And before that it was aurum 1M. I waited on this one for a week I think. It was ok, same sense of peace ,rest but my ego was unadressed and that is what made me take platina 1M again after the aurum.
I dont think I have an attachment to platina. Namely because I was open to taking lycopodium, staphysgaria. I took them because I want to find out the truth. And back when I was outside on the field with my dog, I thought about all this, how it was like, how I took lycopodium, all those remedies an here I am like the winner in the end. I was reflecting on things
There is no mess. All is clear. Platina is the only remedy that ever worked anyway.
I dont think I get attached to remedies that do not work. Palladium is one I feel somewhat stronger than Platina about but no attachment to it. It didnt work. Aurum I let it go quickly also because it didnt work for my ego problem at all. I wanted to be aurum just as much as Platina. And that confirms it for me that I still can see things clearly. Unattached. But this isnt hard for me. Because if something doesnt address my issues, does not cause a change I get tired of it really quick and need something else
Sorry
I feel like I can get cured. I have gotten so many tastes of it now. And I knew something was up yesterday when I had so much energy and was so quick and sharp. In the morning at 6 am when I went to bed I also felt aggravation oppression on my chest and head and today going out for a walk was beautifull, outside on the field.
Sorry David but I would never want to be a remedy I am not. I could not feel good that way about myself. Not at all. That is why it is important that I must see for myself that the remedy is working. And that is why I often get some life back in me when I see indications of this remedy working and some surges of ego bolstering. But it quickly went away the moment I felt weight around people again, and back to a bit of depression. Although it is fine. I am feeling good again.
Old symptoms have been returning as well. One is that I am compulsive about putting things in order into place,
I dont think the aggravation has passed yet. Or I mean the effect of the remedy. I still feel a bit of paranoia slightly when walking past rooms, and I dont like the dark still.
I am holding back for now. not 100% convinced yet. But if the weight and tension lifts around people which I think it will than it must be confirmed that it is my remedy. I still think I have palladium symptoms, especially the approval seeking. And I reacted very strong to that remedy. It must have been some sort of indication, no? To me it meant with absolute certainty that I need platina. I once even posted on here with the signature of George vithoulukas junior lol. It was just out of fun but it felt good and I wanted to be known as that. Although I feared I will be critizised and not taken seriously anymore and maybe even appear childish so I dropped it.
The day I took platina for the first time I knew this remedy is something different from the previous ones I have taken.
I am not feeling unstable like I felt yesterday or 2 days ago when I posted a lot again. Where I really felt like I am not getting something I need.
Since taking Platina I am not going out for walks that much anymore. Only once a day. It was a compulsive need I assume. On bad days I worry about this and doubtful over whether this is good or bad that I am not wanting to go out that much anymore. But on good days it doesnt cross my mind. Its something I thought about yesterday morning.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 26 Nov 2011 01:59:11 GMT]
starface last decade
I would add lachesis which is syphilitic did not make my picking on my face stop. But platina did.
I never act out while outside, even when alone. Never would I throw something in the air out of happiness.
But I am going to hold back. And not think I am platina . There is doubt because of my dreams. They dont match it I would say.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 26 Nov 2011 02:08:27 GMT]
I never act out while outside, even when alone. Never would I throw something in the air out of happiness.
But I am going to hold back. And not think I am platina . There is doubt because of my dreams. They dont match it I would say.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 26 Nov 2011 02:08:27 GMT]
starface last decade
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