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I also tremble a lot in social gatherings like parties where there are a lot of peoole.
And i feel hurried inside. Hurried to answer , hurried to talk. I feel fear in abdomen. Like sudden nerve pulling around the middle abdomen.

Please help sir. This condtion is making me very anxious. My heart is beating very fast.

One more thing sir slightest error in social situations makes me very anxious.

Ok. Thank you

Three days after arsenic album 200.
Headache in the morning. Eye pain in morning right side.( Some mornings it is on the left eye and left side of head) . It depends on which side of the nose is slightly blocked.
Tongue coated dirty.
Itching around the anus after stools from two days. Stomach feels heavy.
Ears still ringing constantly.
Tickling in the throat on swallowing saliva.
Talking to myself in sleep in morning hours.
Talking to myself a lot throughout the day.
Mind reacting to everything around unnecessarily. ( Talking to myself scolding people in my head.)
Social phobia is still there.
Saying anything that is coming in the mind.
Internal trembling in social situations.
Irritability is still there.
I told you about a verbal fight i had with a girl earlier. I am not able to go to that place again because of fear of her.
That she will repeat that kind of behaviour .
When i was in 12th someone snatched a phone from me. And i didnt got it back. He was like a gunda.
I went to a place nearby his house.
I was fearing that he will be there. He will come there and is going to harm me .
Thats a fright felt in abdomen.
Whenever i feel any fear i get very irritable. Sometimes it comes out at the family members.
On the contrary i tease people a lot. And when they tease me back or get irritated at me i get hurt by that. I hold grudges with them. I get anxious that why did i tease them. What is wrong with me. These kind of thoughts.
My skin and eyes get very dry and red very quickly from the sun. Just in 15 minutes. And the dryness stays for days.
The eye pain is aggravated in sunlight.
I get very affected by peoples opinions. If someone says anything good or bad about me i believe that to be true. I feel like I have no sense of self.
I feel foresaken in friends. ( Thoughts like have i stayed for too long here, does he wants me to go intrude)
Im sensitive to people being laughed at or ridiculed. On the other hand i am very angry myself sometimes.
Slight pain in right testicle .
Right testicle is little upward than the left. And it feels little hard and forced out along with the pain and pains when touched.
If someone is talking bad about somebody my mind starts connecting that to myself and i remember all my mistakes. And i get anxious.
I am very much troubled but still going somehow.
Please help sir.

I am very lazy too these days. Feel like resting most of the time.

Sorry i forgot i am having yellow urine from past two days.

The throat pain is good. Only pains for like 5 minutes sometimes and the pain subsides bby itself.

One thing about my physique is that my upper body is strong built but legs are thin and weak.

Why no reply sir ?

Throat pain is very much gone.
A week before i felt that something has grown in my throat that is completely gone now. There is bad taste in throat in morning.
There is pain sometimes in right eye and below the right ear ( lymph nodes) for an hour or two .
And sometimes the exact pain is felt on the left eye and left lymph node.( Aggravated by smoke and strong smells)
A little pain is there when i speak continuosly like during prayer sometimes on right side and sometimes on left side.. No pain in both sides at once. Either it is right sided or it is left sided.

I noticed one thing more that i cant speak words clearly.
When i am fearing in social situations when people are looking at me i tremble, i dont know what to do when someone looks me in the eye. I get very uncomfortable.
During speaking to someone i forget correct words, my throat chokes up. Face becomes red and body trembles. Mind just freezes.
If anyone jokes a little in front of me i have thoughts like he is joking because i have some flaws. Like i am not good looking or i am acting weird or they are joking because of my behaviour is bad. Maybe i am sounding bad. Maybe i am not behaving properly.
Every little joke does that to me.
If someone is giving me a smile i think that they are laughing at me. There is something strange in me regarding the way i speak , act or behave so they are making fun of that.
This leads to anger later on, not at that time. Later on when i rethink that.
My best friend used to say that you think a lot.
My other friend says that i am vahami.
Both are right in their place.
But i cannot stop doing that..
The local homeopath i used to go to says that i am brilliant minded. I dont know about that .
Now the second problem i am having is that i am using a lot of swear words these days . These words are coming out of mouth sometimes without me realising it. At inapropriate times. I never used to do that. Sometimes i would think these kind of words( swear words) at night in my thoughts and would be very happy and joyous about it.I would replace words in songs with swear words and be very joyous about it. Im accidentaly speaking swear words in front of people.
Today in front of my mother i used a mild swear word without realising. After a minute i realised that i have said it.I was unsure if i said it or not. And i confirmed with mom she said yes you said that. Then i knew that i really said that. I dont know something is wrong with my brain these days. When that is happening there is also a strange pressure i feel in my forehead and the temporal region. This has happened after rainy season. After october to be exact.
Sometimes i am saying things that should only be in the mind. I just have no control over it. It automatically pops out from my mouth.
Sometimes in my house i act very childish also. Dancing singing .
Using abusive words without any anger.
My both are ringing constantly. Right one a little more.
Im having palpitations from fear in heart region or sometimes in stomach region.
Stomach region is less palpitation more pain from fear.
I feel like there are no feelings, no love or respect for anyone in my heart.
Please review sir.

No lascivious thouggts since ten days. And if they come they are very much controllable.

Thank you for tvat

Also getting hurt and angered very easily these days

From smoke and strong smells my nose , eyes and throat immediately becomes raw and sore

Thank you sur. Im sorry for the late reply. I have started the medicines. Will report back in three days.

Three days after lycopodium plus staphysagria.
Sir im not in the mental state to tell you about the effects of those medicines.
Im feeling very indignant right now.
Somebody said something minor to me and im fuming with anger inside.
Im feeling very angry and getting angry over slightest things at home. Please suggest a remedy sir.
I have an eruption on my right testicle since yesterday. Thats all i can think of right now.

Please gelp sir .

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One more thing i am dwelling on sexual matters since two days but this time i have not masturbated at all. Staring at women sometimes but not masturbating. Please help with the anger right now sir. Please

Im full of indignation right now.

Im sorry i i wro that wrong. I took lyco plus arg nitr.

You are right .
Im asking for help because this a big problem for me.
I am not thinking that im angry.
Im scolding everyone at my home for minor mistakes since then.

Two incidences like these happened to me this week but i controlled my anger and didnt disturb you for that.
Now again it happened for the third time.
Once it happened in that temple a few weeks back and till date i ve not gone there.
Now this happened and i wont go to that place again.
If i react like this again n again i would be all alone in this world.
I cant cake simplest of jokes.
I can tell you about a thousand times these things have happened.
I have gotten angry today and i will be angry for a week because of this. Then my anger will go away. Then again something like this will happen and i will again be angry.
I get vexed very easily.
For minor statements. Small jokes and things.
I have reacted to that guy who said something but the anger will just not go. If i try to control my anger my whole body trembles.
Im having thoughts like who is he to joke to me. What is his status. He is a beggar compared to me.
How dare he say that. Sometimes im
having thoughts like maine hi muh lagaya hai usse jyada. I should not talk to anyone freely because everybody does that to me.
This makes me closed off to everyone.
Im not sitting in a corner brooding over it. Im keeping myself busy but the mind is repeating all that.
I have deleted that guys contact from my phone and i will not talk to him for the rest of my life.

If this happens to me everyday i would end up all alone.
I have ended up more than 25 relationships like this. Even the bestest of friends.

That is why i am asking.
Rest as u say.