afraid of evil/afraid of evil spirits

Well, this is slightly long.
Sorry in advance.
I was under the care of a homeopath who prescribed Thuja for this fear, a well as many other complex sicknesses. The Thuja 1M was prescribed in water dose whenever I felt a sensation of being attacked by evil spirits. I noticed that it happens MOSTLY WHEN I AM HAVING HORMONAL SHIFTS, like ovulation and period because THIS is one main problem that is wrong with me..I haev hypothyroid/low progesterone and adrenal fatigue, also called Addisons....but it does occur at other times as well. The Thuja 1M worked nicely then stopped. I went up to Thuja 10M. This was taken once a month for 2 months. Then I switched hoemopaths. I have taken the Thuja 10M that has been diluted in water, down by putting a small amount in a cup and dumping out several times. I noticed that even when I take a full teaspoon dose, it is NOT working anymore to dissipate the fear of evil/ evil spirits.
This fear is happening quite a bit this month of my period. Something I am feeling now is that I am having also a big fear of failure, since I have started a new project.

I have also been taking LOTS of other homeopathic medicines...because I have constant symptoms coming and going...I have been bedridden for about 8 years...so I am taking more than 1 remedy at a time. I have over 50 remedies here that I was told to buy, most of which I have not taken. I am taking hydrocortisone and thyroid medication.

I saw that there was some kind of 10 Miasm diagnosing and I seem to fit exactly under the Malaria Miasm...coming and going...fear of getting attacked...if that helps.


I have been prescribed the following..and taken several doses of each..

Arsenicum, Carcinosin LM, Merc Viv 30C (which seems to work very well in balancing my hormones), Sepia, Nux Vomica, Lachesis 200C, and really, I cannot think of them all now..but this was most of them. I was abused as a child and have spent a great deal of my life in a post traumatic stress state. PTSD

I have attached here my ? airre. Please help...I really feel that the people I have consulted are NOT getting the exact thing of what is missing...Or maybe the Thuja dose is wrong...please help.

1. Describe your main suffering?

Severe hormonal imbalance..adrenals, thyroid, ovaries.
Twitching/spasms all over body. Was unilateral began on left leg, then it spread to the right leg. Low Sodium,/potassium

Fibromaylgia/exhaustion/chronic fatigue..pain in legs and feet
feeling trapped by my bad health, cuz I cant do what I want

Stomach problems...I get twitchings...but this is ALL over..but also inside the colon. sometimes IBS..gas and really bad farts lately.

SWEATING...I believe my hormones are making me excessively sweat...or it may be a heart problem. I have had abnormnal heart beats..and I am getting my heart checked at the doctor now.

But I get VERY sweaty TWO WEEKS AFTER OVULATION up to my period..a shower will make me very hot...even an easy walk will make me sweat a lot..AND I HAVE NIGHT SWEATS THIS TIME TOO....My neck and back and abdomen...my sternum itches in the night when I wake. I must change my clothes.


2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

After ovulation, cramps in uterus...SEVERE breast pain for 2 weks prior to period. sometimes cramps also BEFORE period...every other month it seems. Sometimes I get pituitary headaches and sensations.

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?
I am in major fear right now of failure. I am mostly unmotivated, due to fear of physical pain. I am in fear of evil and spirits..I have No desire to work and do the things that I know will make me feel happy and fulfilled. mostly because I am paralyzed by fear. I cannot stand people to be near to me...I went to the movies last night and the whole theater was crowded and I felt claustrophobic and got slightly anxious...I am sensitive to other peoples energies and thoughts...I am psychic. I prefer to stay alone. I do not like STRANGERS to touch me or to shake my hand even..I do not like sitting close to people. I have issues with feeling rejection. I like only those who I know well to touch me...but mostly perfer not due to their energies. I have been through HUGE traumas for many years and I have been sick for most of my life...I feel that since I have failed in the past, I am going to fail in the future. I am trying to motivate myself to do things that I know will make me happy and I am doing them but feel overwhelmed
with fear..maybe it is panic.
That what I am doing is not enough. In a way it is a lack of faith in God.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst?
Fibromyalgia pain all over in my cells for no reason...I feel that evil is attacking me..spirits...I get rageful and angry and will take it out on my friend..I will mostly get very angry when things do not go my way often because I feel I do not have the energy due to my heealth to repeat things more than once..I also get angry cuz it goes against my ideas and plans of time....lately I have been VERY angry. ONce I get angry, I will get very depressed and cry because the anger turns on myself and I feel the bad effects of it. Then I will ask to him to forgive me.

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?
When I was a child...chronic bronchitis and respiratory/tonsilitis since I was a child...fevers CONSTANT for every 3 weeks or so.. until 2005..then I got much sicker.


6. Which time of the day you are worst?
At night...after standing and walking a lot...my legs get so tired. Sometimes my whole body hurts and it is so bad, words cannot describe. Pain in every cell.. It happens a lot if I go out walking or doing things in the world...or if I overextend myself one day.

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same?
If I eat wheat or sugar...makes my body pain worse.
Exercise makes everything feel better.

8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?

When I moved to Sweden I got very sick..there is no sun here..I grew up in a very sunny place. I am totally different when the sun is out..I get motivated and happier when I see the sun. I am also in a co-dependent relationship with someone who is helping to take care of me since I have nearly died several times the last 5 years.

Yes, my hormone changes are out of control.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?
I prefer dry and hot...I HATE the cold and wet winter...but I think it is because I do not have a car. But I do not like it TOO hot...I have to sleep with big covers on me, or I cannot sleep. And when it is hot, I cannot do it, and I cannot sleep as well.
The temperature has to be perfect...I have a small window of temperature with which I am comfortable..I am either hot or cold.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.
I feel rejection easily and react with anger. I cuss all the time even though I pray that I want to stop. I am irritated...and
I am very sensitive to any kind of abuse, since I was abused as a child. I am very moody...and sensitive to criticism. I am also sensitive to other people's energeies and spirits. I am agreeable though. I feel that I am represed though in a way..like I cannot say what I really think and feel..because I am sure it will be rejected. I used to be very outgoing and happy...but I have had too much trauma, and now I only have 1 friend...and I prefer to be alone.
I put a lot of faith in other people and I feel constantly let down by them. It makes me not want to bother to have relationships.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?
It sorta scares me..the big loud noise...I know when I was a kid it scared me..but every little thing makes me jump. If someone walks in behind me I can jump.

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?
I used to long for someone to console me...but now, I am too afraid to get hurt from others, so I tell people to leave me alone because other people cannot take my crying..I get hysterical sometimes.

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc? YES...I am sensitive to smells ODORS..all that.....and big trucks..the sound of a motorbike that is loud makes me want to scream and cuss.

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
weeping, talking to one self etc?

I pick my hair and my pubic hair...I pick the skin around my nails..I used to bite my nails, until the skin bled..YEARS ago..

- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?
I want the best for them..I do not like to see them in pain. I find it difficult to get along with people.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?
I dream of being in a car a lot...and I have constantly for years dreamed of acting on stage..I was an actress and singer when I was young. I also dream of houses..over the last 6 months i have dreamt of winning and finding or getting money and parasites and worms coming out of me.

12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions?
the site of raw meat makes me sick..but I MUST eat it or I get hypoglycemic. I haev an on again off agin thing with eggs.. I do not like sweets, but I eat them because since I got sick, I crave them...but very sweet cakes do not appeal to me. I like salty crunchy popcorn and chips. I have to eat chocolate at my period.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive? I used to be excessive..but now it is normal ..not so thirsty

14. How if your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive? Always hungry, can eat every 2 hours!..my hormones make me need to eat very often..due to blood sugar being off. Since I started eating meat 2 months ago, this is MUCH better now. I am not hungry as often.

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand? Milk..and wheat..but I do eat wheat/gluten sometimes

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?
I sweat more after ovulation....I have been sweating during sleep too..I wake up wet all over..on my sternum it itches and sweats..very annoying!

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?
I used to be VERy constipated..I go better now. But still not as full as I would like. It is hard...and I feel that it is sometimes too big for my rectum..sometimes, when I wipe there is red blood there.
I sometimes get a pain in the rectum...it is a shooting pain and I cannot say if it goes UP or DOWN. Sorry.

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?
Sleep is not so good..I always wake at around 3 AM...I always go pee sometimes 2 times in the night. I must fall asleep on my back initially...but once asleep, I can choose to other positions. I must sleep 10 hours or more to feel good.

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?
No..I have great sex desire, I constantly DREAM of mastrurbating...I assume because I am not allowing it to consciously come out..I was abused as a child..I like sex but it has brought me too much emotional pain..I avoid it..I do not have a husband and will not sleep with anyone until he marries me.

20. How do you think you are different from others, if at all?
I am extrememly spiritual and sensiitve to spiritual energies...clairvoyant...etc. I feel afraid of evil and demons and I know this is not normal. I am extrememly strong..most people would be dead after what I have lived through. In a way I feel I am much more spiritually conscious than other people, but I know also this is just my ego. I am very spiritual and I think all the time on God.


21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?
I am taking lots of homeopathic and allopathic meds...
thyroid meds, hydrocortisone...
I am under the care of a homeop dr. now.
lots of Vitamin C

22. What major diseases are running in your family?
heart Disease, chrons diesase, many rare diseases. Heart disease...too many ..


23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance
I am white...yelowish skin tone...tans easily...brown hair, green eyes...I have had eyelids that have been getting reddish colored..I am very curvy...now I am 40 pounds overweight and I hate myself. I have lots of varicose veins and stretch marks all over my hips and breasts. I am very pretty...I had lots of acne when I was a kid...I have red marks from acnes and some scarring from that as well on my face.

24. (ONLY FOR FEMALES)

If you are not having normal menstrual cycles, please answer the following questions:

- Are the periods early, regular or late in general? How long do they last?

with the progesterone cream I have been taking, on time. about 4 1/2 days.


- Do you suffer from any kind of physical or mental discomfort before, during or after the periods?
YES..I usually cry the day before....I will get depressed, and sometimes I cannot stop crying. But the last two months I am not so sad anymore but more ANGRY. Until the day before, then I cried this month. I get PMS and breast pain at least a wek before. So bad breast pain. Cramps

- Is the flow scanty, normal or excessive?
One or two days it is heavy, then it is scanty... but it varies...my body is changing.

- Is the blood thick bright red or pale watery?
Maybe two days it is red, but mostly clotted and dark almost blackish colored.

Thank you.
Please help...