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Dear Sameer,
I am very ashamed of my last posting. I am sure you understand my condition. I was really exhausted. sorry about that.
One quick question: I couldn't find staph 200c and instead I got 200ck. It should be a different type of dilution. anyhow can I use 200ck? if yes please tell me how.
Thanks a lot,
Beth

Dear Sameer,
It has been a week since I gave phos 30c to my son. He sleeps better, although he doesn't sleep much. I guess that is part of his nature. recently I gave him some meat and he took it better tha before, so that is an improvment too. as for his bowel movement he is not constipated but the bowel habit is not regular anymore and he still has to strain a lot.
one more problem is with his skin. he has those tiny acne like stuff oh his torso again. I am not sure if it is rash. because I realized that whenver he wears somthing with nylon his skin reacts like this. they are like really small acne with white head and red around.
what do you recommend for him?

as for myself it has been 4 days since I took staph 200. I feel calm again but I should say not as happy as previous time. When I took staph 30 first time I had a complete change in my mood. calmer and happier. but now I am calm but I am very sensitive and ready to cry, very emotional.

I appreciate your time.
Best regards,
Beth

Ok. I will report after 5 days.
just wnated to add one more thing about myself. for the past week I had horrible nightmare. all regarding my son and in all cases dreaming about him died. like one night I had this dream and I hit him with my car. last night I dreamed he cannot breath.
I will report again.
beth

Dear Sameer,
I intentionally didn’t report sooner because I wanted to make sure about my symptoms. So I realized that I had all those nightmares happened around my son’s 1st birthday. I had a rush of memories belong to his birth time. and I guess that’s because we had a medical condition back then (his heart beat dropped twice). After his birth I had all sort of nightmares and thoughts about him becomes dead (God forbid). And again during his first birthday I had these nightmares. Now they are all gone. The night after birthday I slept very well and didn’t have any bad dreams since then. But in general I always have a kind of dieing thought deep inside my thoughts (like before my baby was born I had these thoughts about my other family members like my dad). I sometimes even picture death scenes when I am awake. You know for example we are in the car and I close my eyes (of course I am not driving) and all I see is an accident condition in which my baby is either hurt or dead. This is just an example. It happens in other situations as well. Not very often but not very rare either.
I am calm and peaceful again. Not very happy though. Any scene on tv or emotional news makes me cry. When I get tired I get angry. I crave for sweet stuff again. Still get acnes only on the right cheek!! and they are full of pus and won’t come to surface quickly. I don’t have a strong body in general. Please let me know what should I do.

Baby’s report:
He definitely sleeps better at night. He gets constipated most of the time. sometimes (maybe once a week) his bowel movement is fine and easy. He has to push a lot to do the bowel movement. And it is irregular. Although I believe the irregularity could be because of his diet. There are days that he goes on strike. You know eating minimum amount he needs. His skin still has those tiny dots (I don’t know what to call them). After careful observation I realized that they get worse when his shirt has some sort of nylon in it (I use 100% cotton clothes for him, but some of them have decoration and a layer of protection inside the shirt. That layer is not 100% cotton). And they get worse by his sweat. I mean if he sweats and I don’t give him a bath the next day his skin would be worse. I realized his sweat smells like metal, like iron. I use calendula shampoo and lotion for him so it can’t be those. Please let me know what I should give him for his skin and if possible for his bowel movement condition.

As always thank you for your time.
Best regards,
Beth

Hi Sameer,
I forgot to mention that next week my son will receive vaccine shots.
I will give him thuja 30c after vaccination.
I thougth I should let you know in case of remedies confliction.
Thanks,
Beth

Thank you, thank you, thank you. seeing your response always makes me feel secure.

Dear Sameer,
regarding my son:
today There was a little bit of blood in his stool. I mean clearly it was fresh blood so I guess it was because of too much strain. I had to hold him to do the bowel movement cause he was so uncomfortable doing it in any other position. That is how I realized the blood. the other thing is that his anus is kind of swollen and red. I put calendula cream. so do you still recommend silicea? if so should I give it to him like tomorrow or should I wait until after vaccination?
Thank you,
I will answer questions regarding myself later tonight.

is your behaviour these days mild/yileding ?
not very much. In fact I had a few discussions with my husband in the past few weeks. But I feel calm despite those discussions. Calm to the extend that it made him very angry.

Do you like being consoled ?
Nowadays yes. I didn’t like it before but recently I prefer to get some sympathy from close family and friends. specially when I am tired. I don’t like it when it comes from somebody not very close to me.

Do you have a very strong sense of duty towards your family ?
Yes yes very much. Some people say it is too much.

So, is it anxiety about health of loved ones you are feeling or are you scared of death in general ?
it is both. I wouldn’t call it anxiety though, but more like a feeling of responsibility to make sure they are fine and they don’t have any health issue. I am scared of death for my loved ones more than for myself. After my son’s birth I developed the scare of death for myself. Before him I wasn’t scared of death for myself.

Are your worries more about yourself or are you more concerned about others ?
here is the priority:
my son
my father
my brother
my mother
myself
my husband


Can you elaboprate this more ? 'But in general I always have a kind of dieing thought deep inside my thoughts '
I don’t know how to say it but you know it feels like I always ask myself what if my dad dies? What if my brother dies? Etc, etc. and they are not in bad shape or have any serious problem. My brother for example is 10 years younger than me. And shameful but true I sometimes wish others (close ones) death. And I don’t mean it but when I get very exhausted with them it seems that their death looks like the only solution to me.

Any other physical symptoms ? Any change in temperature preferences ?
My skin has visibly less elasticity, could be the age factor (38 years old). Become very emotional right before menses and don’t feel good the first 2-3 days of menses. Acne in my face as I mentioned before on the right cheek. Constipation even though I eat good amount of fiber per day. Low level of libido. I don’t mind if I don’t have any intercourse. This is very recent like since 1 month ago. Dandruff. If I remember anything else I will add.
And no change in temp preferences.

Question set A:

How sympathetic are you ?
I usually show empathy to those whom I really care about. That includes family and good friends of mine. Other than that I just verbally sympathize.

How excitable are you ?
very much.

Are you very generous ?
yes. Except for my time. I mean after my son’s birth I really need me time so I am not generous about my time.

How do you feel before thunderstorms ?
no special feeling except that if the sound is really loud then I will be scared.

Do you have <> Even the radio provides company ? no, no. actually I like silence, I hate noisy, crowded places. I like being alone from time to time. the only exception is at night. I don’t like to sleep alone at home (alone in bed is no problem).

Any fears among following ?: <> THUNDERSTORMS. SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN. Diseases. Future. For others. Ghosts. Insanity. Robbers. Insects. Water. Earthquakes. Any fear.
Here is the list:
Dark, something bad will happen, disease, poverty.

Do you become dependent on the physician ?
Yes, very much.

Are you easily reassured ?
yes, and I like it. For example I am a good cook (it is not my job though) and I know that but it makes me feel good when people praise my cooking.

Do you startle easily ?
in sleep no, when awake it depends sometimes yes. Specially when I am very tired.

Question set B:

Do you have a tendency to be come OVER-WORKED, OVER-BURDENED, OVERWHELMED ?
Yes yes. I can’t let go of everything for even a few minutes. But I am learning and trying to let go of non-important things when I don’t have energy any more.

Have a Strong sense of duty and responsibility?
Yes yes. And the consequence of that is that I expect others to be as responsible as I am to them but again I am learning to balance myself.

Do you WORK TO EXHAUSTION THEN GIVE UP ? yes, very true. But I give up when it is already very late and I am totally exhausted.

Do you have a preoccupation with metaphysical concerns, such as life after death, reincarnation, etc ? nowadays no. used to be like that beforehaving baby.

Any Fears among the following : <> MICE OR RATS. <> Insects and spiders. Dogs. Dark. Diseases. Claustrophobia. Cancer. Infections. Tuberculosis. Earthquakes. Storms. Poverty. Accidents ?
Dark, disease, poverty, accidents.

I prefer cold drinks specially sparkling ones. The only exception is coffee which I like it hot and black (no cream, no sugar). And recently I crave it very much but I don’t drink it.

I just wanted to add one more thing: most of my physical problems are on the right side of my body.

Sure, I will. Thank you so much.
a quick question regarding my son:

I gave him Calc-c today. tomorrow he will receive vaccine shots. what should I give him after shots?

today he had bleeding from his anus again. this time it was more blood than before. he was crying after pooping.

but what should i give him after vaccination? thuja or silicea? and how?
thank you

Dear Sameer,
This was a very hard decision, choosing one of the 3 remedies. The winner is Phos. Please let me know what should I do?
I should mention that I took phos 30 c many times before, not recently though. I also took puls and cal-c before but again it was more than 6 months ago.
Thank you