Obsession with a particular person

Attn: Anuj Srivastava -

Thank you very much for your reply.
Liquids are not available in my area, only pellets. Can the Nux Vom be taken in pellet form, and at what potency?

I will try your regimen but it will take a week or so to order the remedies.

Again, thank you

Attn: Abbas

Thank you very much for your reply.

To answer your questions,
- Effect of consolation? [Do you get relieved if you were hugged or consoled by some family member, friend, or someone? Or you feel irritated?]
*Mostly irritated if by a family member, but I deeply desire to be hugged by, for instance, a significant other, but its not possible currently.

- Do you feel relieved after sharing about this incident with someone close to you? Or you are very hesitant to share about personal feelings and incident? (unable to talk to someone unrelated about it?)
*Unable to share this incident with anyone.

- Do you have sudden trauma release experiences? (like heart skips a beat, trauma, body frozen and numb, mind totally goes numb suddenly whenever anything that reminds you of her or anything related to her?)
*For this particular person, the experience is something like panic. I quickly try to think of something else, but without much success. Just a very odd, negative bittersweet feeling, very unpleasant.

- Do you get nightmares about heartbreak in your dreams too? (like youd wake up depressed, sobbing, crying, , suffocating?)
*Yes. Have awoken with a depressed feeling more days than not, and start crying at times, sometimes throughout the day.

- Do you wake up with heartache too? (heart aching whenever you wake up with some attachment memory?)
*Physically, no. On an emotional level, yes... best described as a bittersweet yet unpleasant feeling that is somewhat paralyzing until I can manage to set my mind on some distraction.

Again, thank you for your reply.

Attn: anuj srivastava

I was able to locate liquid medicine by post.
It is now the 7th day since I have been taking the remedies.
I do see an improvement. The obsession is almost completely gone. Any thoughts that come to mind of the person are brief and not intense as they were, and I am able to direct my thinking to a different direction. Thoughts are not frequent as they were in the beginning.

Thank you for your assistance with this matter.

Attn: anuj srivastava

It has now been 4 days since I have stopped the remedies.
So far, there has been no recurrence of this issue other than an occasional brief thought, which is far less intense than previous, and I am able to direct my attention to other things. I think this has been very successful. Thank you.

Attn: anuj srivastava

It has been 7 days since my last report.
It seems to have had a very good result. I may have had thoughts perhaps once or twice, but they were brief, not controlling, and I was quickly able to direct my attention elsewhere. Nothing at all like it was before.
However, I am noticing that my depression seems to be increasing. I have no interest in doing anything, nothing interests me, and I just really dont want to be. There is a constant headache that lessens sometimes but never completely goes away. Also, I have been having a lot of disturbing dreams lately. They come in sequences, one after another, but are totally unrelated. I cant say that they are nightmares, but they are very upsetting, grotesque, and frightening. I am able to recall them during the day.
Thank you

Attn: anuj srivastava

It has now been 7 days since I received the remedies and have been taking them as directed.

The dreams, for the most part, have improved. They are not as frequent as before, and not as upsetting. They do not remain in my memory as before.

The depression is still present, however now, there is terrible anxiety accompanying it.
Physical health seems to be good.

Thank you for your assistance.

Well, basically it seems as though small tasks are much bigger and difficult than they really are. I am experiencing some paranoia as though people are conspiring against me, when in reality I know full well that no one notices me, but I still have this paranoia. I am feeling very alone and that things are totally out of control. No family/friends/support system.
My symptoms are not as severe as they have been in the past. I have been in a “stable” condition, however I feel like I’m becoming unstable. There are really no physical symptoms to speak of as yet. Only a high level of agitation/irritability, feeling overwhelmed by everything, as if everything is too much to bear. Wanting to be sedated so as not to have to think about anything, disgusted with life, wishing I would never awaken, afraid, wanting to hide, nervous, insecure feeling… but no palpitations, trembling or anything like that.
Thank you for your assistance.

Attn: anuj srivastava

It has been 7 days since I received the remedies and have been taking them as instructed.
There is little improvement. I’m still experiencing profound depression and anxiety. I have difficulty leaving my house. I am a chronic insomniac, and my sleep schedule is completely upside down. When I awaken, I’m struck with fear of an unknown cause, dread the day ahead, what is left of it, and desire to remain in bed “hidden” from the world. No interest in anything, even what was once pleasurable. Insecure feelings, paranoia- feeling as though people around me are plotting against me. The most perplexing thing is that I have nothing scheduled, no appointments, yet I have this constant feeling of dread. Dreading something unknown.
Feeling that I need to hide, wishing I were dead.
I’m sorry to keep reporting these results…perhaps I am beyond help.
On a positive note, my original complaint of the obsessional thoughts never reoccurred after following your prescription. I have been able to completely break the ties to that person, and haven’t had a relapse.
Thank you for your assistance.

Attn: anuj srivastava

It has been 7 days since I have received the remedy and have taken the 1 dose (aur met 1m). Have also taken the cell salts daily as instructed.
There has been some improvement. Life seems a bit more manageable, and I have been able to leave my home for errands. I seem to be able to better handle issues.
There have been two separate episodes days after taking the remedy where I began crying uncontrollably, but was able to quickly regain composure. Perhaps that was a cleansing.
Not much else to remark about. No new symptoms/upsets.
Of course, I am not yet at the point where I would like to be, but this has certainly brought improvement. Do I continue with this to maintain?

Thank you for your assistance.

Attn: anuj srivastava

7 day follow up. Have continued the regimen with the cell salts as recommended.

Not much change. However I have been able to leave my home to do errands, but find being in public places overwhelming. I rush to complete my task, and return home as soon as possible.

Strangely, there is a very intense level of paranoia. Suspicious of people in the neighbourhood. Feeling as though people are out to destroy me. Feeling hopeless, as though suicide is the only possibility to escape this torment. Not so much anxiety now, just extremely disgusted with life. Still desiring to be a hermit. Only feel safe when locked inside my house. Not even feeling safe outside in the yard.
Little spurts of confidence now and then, which is an improvement, but are extremely short lived and seem to dissolve once I come into contact with people.

Thank you.
I have been using rescue remedy along with the cell salts as recommended previously, but will continue. I am also using other flower essences.

Thank you again for your help.

Occasionally I will use mustard, aspen, or white chestnut.