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Systemic worms
Hi. I have systemic worms, not just in my gut but definitely in my body. They are concentrated in my back and my left side, but I can feel them all over. They are more active at night and full moon. I have had quite a bit 'hatch-out this past full moon. I feel the larva going up my neck and around my face and scalp every night. Although I have not seen any, I can feel them writhing, wriggling, slithering and biting and have seen evidence of them - worm tracks in my stools and occasional thin weals and welts in my skin.I am under a Chinese TCM doctor who is trying to build up my body strength to deal with them, but I wondered if there might be any homeopathic remedies that could help?
Killing them outright may not be appropriate as the toxic fall-out could overwhelm my body, but paralysing them or gradually reducing them may be helpful.
Alijaybee on 2014-08-12
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
They have not been identified because they have not been seen. The couple of stool tests have come back negative, but that is very common as it is only specialist labs that are equipped to look for the more unusual parasites. I didn't want to keep submitting stool tests that could come back negative for fear of being branded a nutcase!
I believe them to be Ascaris. The adult worms feel quite large as they move. The large ones are around my back and left side - waist and lower end of my left shoulder-blade.
There are other smaller ones in other places, my right back, shoulders, buttocks, groin, etc., but I feel them all over.
Last year I broke my leg and had to have pins and a rod inserted. I could feel them moving in and out of the wound until it healed, and sure enough, when the cast was removed there were worm tracks all in the dry skin on my leg!
The eggs seem to be laid in sacs or cysts, and now and again, often around full moon there will be a mass hatch. I feel lots of vibration, quivering, etc in certain areas, then as they hatch I feel a prickling sensation spreading out from the site. Had loads hatch out this full moon.
I think the TCM doctor's treatment is working but it is very slow, and if get no peace from these things. They are moving all day, but the nights are horrendous. I hate the nights. It's like trying to sleep whilst several people are constantly prodding, poking and scratching you.....
I believe them to be Ascaris. The adult worms feel quite large as they move. The large ones are around my back and left side - waist and lower end of my left shoulder-blade.
There are other smaller ones in other places, my right back, shoulders, buttocks, groin, etc., but I feel them all over.
Last year I broke my leg and had to have pins and a rod inserted. I could feel them moving in and out of the wound until it healed, and sure enough, when the cast was removed there were worm tracks all in the dry skin on my leg!
The eggs seem to be laid in sacs or cysts, and now and again, often around full moon there will be a mass hatch. I feel lots of vibration, quivering, etc in certain areas, then as they hatch I feel a prickling sensation spreading out from the site. Had loads hatch out this full moon.
I think the TCM doctor's treatment is working but it is very slow, and if get no peace from these things. They are moving all day, but the nights are horrendous. I hate the nights. It's like trying to sleep whilst several people are constantly prodding, poking and scratching you.....
Alijaybee 9 years ago
The homoeopathic approach would not be to kill the worms directly, but to find a single medicine that stimulates the vital energy (life force, chi etc) to fight the worms.
I am happy to attempt to do this for you. I am a classical homoeopath so I require a fair amount of information to determine which remedy might be best.
I can post a lengthy questionnaire if you are willing to answer it.
I am happy to attempt to do this for you. I am a classical homoeopath so I require a fair amount of information to determine which remedy might be best.
I can post a lengthy questionnaire if you are willing to answer it.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
I think this is what the Chinese doctor is attempting to do, but I am pretty desperate.
I think I have had these 'companions' since I was a child. I certainly lost much of my vitality and energy as a young teenager, and looking back, many of my long-term symptoms I can now tie in to the worms.
I am now 57. Whilst they were silently and insidiously undermining my health for all those years, I became aware of them about 7 years ago after my poor beleaguered digestion finally collapsed and I radically changed my diet.
They quietened down for a while but really came out of the woodwork about a year ago, just a few weeks before I broke my leg. They were suddenly all over the place, up my neck, round my face and scalp, down my legs, and the feelings in my back and side were like sandpaper scraping inside my flesh.
Wriggling, writhing, slithering, scratching, biting. Sometimes, when they feel threatened they 'ball' up. That feels like rocks in my upper back and side.
I can't sleep or rest properly. They give me no peace. Anything I can do to support my current protocol will be very welcome.
Thank you.
I think I have had these 'companions' since I was a child. I certainly lost much of my vitality and energy as a young teenager, and looking back, many of my long-term symptoms I can now tie in to the worms.
I am now 57. Whilst they were silently and insidiously undermining my health for all those years, I became aware of them about 7 years ago after my poor beleaguered digestion finally collapsed and I radically changed my diet.
They quietened down for a while but really came out of the woodwork about a year ago, just a few weeks before I broke my leg. They were suddenly all over the place, up my neck, round my face and scalp, down my legs, and the feelings in my back and side were like sandpaper scraping inside my flesh.
Wriggling, writhing, slithering, scratching, biting. Sometimes, when they feel threatened they 'ball' up. That feels like rocks in my upper back and side.
I can't sleep or rest properly. They give me no peace. Anything I can do to support my current protocol will be very welcome.
Thank you.
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Homoeopathy works very differently to TCM. In fact it has several significant advantages over TCM.
HOW TO DESCRIBE YOUR COMPLAINTS (Physical Components)
In homoeopathy, prescription is based on precise details of various symptoms from which you suffer. To tell or write to a homoeopathic physician 'I have a headache ', ' an eruption ' or a cough would not be enough. If you inform him 'I have headache with sharp shooting pains in the left side of the head and temple, these pains always come on when the slightest cold air strikes the head. I feel better by pressing the head very hard. Then only you have given all the information required for making a good homoeopathic prescription. The success of the prescription depends; largely on how detailed your description of the symptoms is.
We require the following details about your symptoms.
LOCATION: Please give the exact location of sensation, pain or eruption. Also describe where the pain or sensation spreads.
SENSATION: Express the type of sensation or the pain that you get in your own words however simple or funny it may seem. You may have a sensation that a mouse is crawling or the heart was grasped by an iron hand or you may have a pain that is cutting, burning jerking, pressing. Express the sensation or pain as it feels to you. Try to explain the whole sensation in the exact way it is happening and not just the word. We need to understand the whole process of the sensation as it is happening to you.
WHAT MAKES YOU WORSE OR BETTER:
Many factors are likely to influence your complaint. Some factors may intensify it and some factors may relieve the trouble. A detailed list of the factors is given at the end. Please refer it while describing each of your troubles and indicate which factors make the complaint better or worse.
DISCHARGES: You may have a discharge from nose, ears, mouth, eyes, ulcers, fistula, eruptions on skin, private parts, etc. Please describe your discharge in detail including colour, consistency, appearance, odour etc.
1] Your Complaint:
(Use your own words as far as possible, but if you have recognized or diagnosed the condition, give this information also.) By answering as many of these questions as fully as possible, you are helping me to understand what your body and unconscious mind is conveying. This can help me find a remedy for you.)
What is your complaint?
When did the complaint begin?
Where is it located?
What sort of sensations (and emotions) do you associate with it?
When does it tend to occur (time/day)
Does anything make it better or worse?
How does it bother you? How is it coming in way of your day-to-day life?
How does it feel like to have this/these problem/s?
What is the effect of this/these problem/s on you?
Did any event happen which caused the complaint? Describe the emotion associated with it.
What are the other symptoms started with it, esp. mental and physical symptoms, which are not directly related to the main complaint.
What are your reactions with it?
PLEASE ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS FOR EACH SYMPTOM/COMPLAINT SEPARATELY. DO NOT INCLUDE ALL OF YOUR COMPLAINTS TOGETHER IN EACH QUESTION eg. all questions answered for Leg Pain, then same questions answered for Migraines, then same questions answered for Panic attacks etc.
HOW TO DESCRIBE YOUR COMPLAINTS (Physical Components)
In homoeopathy, prescription is based on precise details of various symptoms from which you suffer. To tell or write to a homoeopathic physician 'I have a headache ', ' an eruption ' or a cough would not be enough. If you inform him 'I have headache with sharp shooting pains in the left side of the head and temple, these pains always come on when the slightest cold air strikes the head. I feel better by pressing the head very hard. Then only you have given all the information required for making a good homoeopathic prescription. The success of the prescription depends; largely on how detailed your description of the symptoms is.
We require the following details about your symptoms.
LOCATION: Please give the exact location of sensation, pain or eruption. Also describe where the pain or sensation spreads.
SENSATION: Express the type of sensation or the pain that you get in your own words however simple or funny it may seem. You may have a sensation that a mouse is crawling or the heart was grasped by an iron hand or you may have a pain that is cutting, burning jerking, pressing. Express the sensation or pain as it feels to you. Try to explain the whole sensation in the exact way it is happening and not just the word. We need to understand the whole process of the sensation as it is happening to you.
WHAT MAKES YOU WORSE OR BETTER:
Many factors are likely to influence your complaint. Some factors may intensify it and some factors may relieve the trouble. A detailed list of the factors is given at the end. Please refer it while describing each of your troubles and indicate which factors make the complaint better or worse.
DISCHARGES: You may have a discharge from nose, ears, mouth, eyes, ulcers, fistula, eruptions on skin, private parts, etc. Please describe your discharge in detail including colour, consistency, appearance, odour etc.
1] Your Complaint:
(Use your own words as far as possible, but if you have recognized or diagnosed the condition, give this information also.) By answering as many of these questions as fully as possible, you are helping me to understand what your body and unconscious mind is conveying. This can help me find a remedy for you.)
What is your complaint?
When did the complaint begin?
Where is it located?
What sort of sensations (and emotions) do you associate with it?
When does it tend to occur (time/day)
Does anything make it better or worse?
How does it bother you? How is it coming in way of your day-to-day life?
How does it feel like to have this/these problem/s?
What is the effect of this/these problem/s on you?
Did any event happen which caused the complaint? Describe the emotion associated with it.
What are the other symptoms started with it, esp. mental and physical symptoms, which are not directly related to the main complaint.
What are your reactions with it?
PLEASE ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS FOR EACH SYMPTOM/COMPLAINT SEPARATELY. DO NOT INCLUDE ALL OF YOUR COMPLAINTS TOGETHER IN EACH QUESTION eg. all questions answered for Leg Pain, then same questions answered for Migraines, then same questions answered for Panic attacks etc.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL DESCRIPTION
(Please spend the most time on this section and give detailed answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern?
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
(Please spend the most time on this section and give detailed answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)
1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?
4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.
5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?
6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?
7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?
8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?
9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?
10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern?
11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.
12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?
17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
GENERAL SYMPTOMS
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
- what position can you not sleep in?
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep?
- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up?
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly?
- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)?
- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms?
- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way?
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you?
3. Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly?
- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)?
- When are you most thirsty?
- When are you least thirsty?
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine?
- What is the color, odor of the urine?
- Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine?
6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have?
- Where do you have the most sweat?
- What is the odor?
- What color does it stain clothing?
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally?
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire?
- Any problems with your sexual ability or function?
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases?
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle?
- How many days does the flow go for?
- What is the appearance of the flow?
- What is the odor of the flow?
- What kind of stain does the flow leave?
- Any discharge before, during or after?
- Any pain before, during or after the flow?
- What symptoms come before the flow?
- What symptoms come after the flow?
9. Environment How does the weather affect you?
- How does the temperature affect you?
- How does the season affect you?
- What physical activities affect you?
- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
(Symptoms that dont fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)
1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in?
- what position can you not sleep in?
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep?
- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up?
2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly?
- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)?
- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms?
- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way?
- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you?
3. Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly?
- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)?
- When are you most thirsty?
- When are you least thirsty?
4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool?
- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool?
5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine?
- What is the color, odor of the urine?
- Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine?
6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have?
- Where do you have the most sweat?
- What is the odor?
- What color does it stain clothing?
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally?
7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire?
- Any problems with your sexual ability or function?
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases?
8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle?
- How many days does the flow go for?
- What is the appearance of the flow?
- What is the odor of the flow?
- What kind of stain does the flow leave?
- Any discharge before, during or after?
- Any pain before, during or after the flow?
- What symptoms come before the flow?
- What symptoms come after the flow?
9. Environment How does the weather affect you?
- How does the temperature affect you?
- How does the season affect you?
- What physical activities affect you?
- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to?
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Hi. I am still formulating all the answers. Do I need to post it on the open board, or should I PM it if that is possible?
Thanks.
Thanks.
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Forum police is to keep everything public as much as possible. If there is something very private you want to tell me you can email those details to me, but all communication apart from that is done here.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Alijaybee-
he means forum 'policy'-
which is set up that way to protect people from being told
to go offline and get asked for money or told to take
things that are a scam or unsafe.
he means forum 'policy'-
which is set up that way to protect people from being told
to go offline and get asked for money or told to take
things that are a scam or unsafe.
♡ simone717 9 years ago
Whoops - sorry that was definitely not what I meant to say at all. Serves me right for typing answers while doing something else lol. Thanks Simone
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Hahaha. That's ok. I don't think there is anything that I wouldn't want known. My only concern is with things like Spybots picking up my references to my crafts or other things and sending me even more spam!!!
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Symptoms
Ok, here goes.
LOCATION AND SENSATION
The pain and discomfort moves. Whilst it is mainly focused in my left side and upper back, it moves wherever the worms go. The larva appear to run up my neck and around my face and scalp at night creating prickly, itchy, and tickly feelings. The sensations in my left side and upper back from my waist up to my neck are writhing, wriggling, balling, slithering, biting (sometimes), and occasional feelings of lots of little feet pattering around inside my muscles and flesh.
The lower end of my left shoulder blade seems to hold a great fascination for some reason. For years I would get a very itchy, but weirdly also numb area just inside my left shoulder blade, that is obviously somehow connected. Sometimes it feels as though I have rocks in my back!
The area the larger worms seem to be confined to is in my left side from my waist up to my armpit. I often get feelings as though they or the larva are in my upper arm. Ascaris was apparently called the 'Wandering worm' by the Romans for its propensity to leave the gut and go around the body.
I feel movements just about everywhere at times. Not all at the same time or place, but they go everywhere. I will feel a bit of wriggling, or biting, even in my feet. They were very active in and out of my operation wound after I broke my leg. The squiggly shapes in the powdery skin on my leg was a good indication, but I could feel them sliding through the wound. Their presence made it a lot more sore as it was healing than it probably would have been.
EXACERBATION
Nights. Are. Horrendous. They are far more active at night. They keep me awake. Full moon is also a bad time as that tends to be their breeding time. Trying to sleep is like having several people poking, prodding and scratching you all the time. I sleep rarely before 2am, often later (gone 4am this morning). Not because I don't want to or couldn't sleep, but simply because I am just kept awake all the time.
No discharges apart from foul tasting mucous in my throat each morning. I have appallingly bad breath (a very common worm infestation symptom) and have done for many years. I am embarrassed to talk to people. I think my body does a lot of detoxing through my mouth and throat for some reason. The bad breath never went away even in the three years on the healing diet, although it helped a lot of other issues. I probably should have stayed on it.
Complaint 1
1. Worms
2. When I was a child I believe.
3. Everywhere
4. Wriggling, slithering, writhing, biting. I feel despondent. They make me stressy at times, although I am not a naturally stressy or anxious person.
5. All day, but especially at night.
6. They move more at night and are quieter during the day. I have not found anything to make them quieter at night.
7. Yes they bother me immensely. It's like constant torture. No rest, no peace, they are constantly undermining my health and (non-existent) vitality. I have very little energy or motivation to go anywhere or do anything. If I do go out I don't have the energy to go far or do much. They have built up a very nice little ecosystem in my body, disrupting my digestion and sugar metabolism for their own ends. I feel controlled by them and powerless. Mentally I will not accede defeat, but it is very hard when my body is having to work so hard to cope with their constant incessant toxic fall-out and damage.
8. The effect of having them is that my whole body is constantly moving. Although I sit quite a lot due to the lack of energy, I cannot sit still for very long, my mind is constantly flitting from one thing to another. I can't even keep my tongue still in my mouth sometimes! As much as I wish to I cannot just sit quiet and in peace or quiet contemplation without needing to do something. I always have to have something in my hands to try and focus on, like my craft work. I often wonder how different my life - and my personality would be without my unwanted squatters. They may only be relatively small creatures, but as a colony they are a monster with hundreds, if not thousands of tentacles....
9. I have had these things inside me so long I haven't a clue how or when they were acquired, or whether there was any 'event' at the time. We went to Spain when I was about 12 and I swam in a manky pool every morning. Ascaris' life cycle starts in a water snail, so it's possible I contracted the worms then, but could just have easily picked them up here in the UK when I was a child. I know my energy vanished when I was about 14, but I also had the BCG vaccine at that age, so even that could be a factor, who knows?
Time was our ancestors regularly de-wormed themselves and their families - senna, castor oil, Epsom salts etc., but within 2 or 3 generations that fell out off the radar and parasites has become the topic no one wants to talk or even think about. They weren't stupid. But we are. So much for progress....
10. Again, because I have had them so long, it's difficult to know how much of my personality is me, and how much is worm.....
Complaint 2
1. Diabetes (diagnosed type 2, but more likely type 1.5/LADA)
2. Developed slowly at around age 40 after several years of hypos and unstable blood sugar.
3. Pancreas and digestive tract (obviously)
4. I have to inject insulin which isn't pleasant, but the diabetes seems insignificant compared to the worms (whom I believe to be responsible for the diabetes).
5. Eating carbohydrate makes it worse, low carb means better control.
6. It does impact on my life a bit due to having to be careful about my diet and remember to take my insulin/check blood sugar etc., but it pales into insignificance against the worm issue.
Complaint 3
1. Celiac disease/gluten intolerance
2. Discovered 2007. My digestion virtually collapsed and everything I ate was running straight through. When the Medical Profession could find 'nothing wrong', left to my own devices I started researching. Finding the gluten link was a light bulb moment as my mother had been diagnosed with Celiac disease just a few weeks before she died in 2000 (when it was way too late to help her). I dumped the gluten and within hours the stomach pain and diarrhoea had stopped. Gradually, with the help of a low-carb diet I also reversed other 'diabetic complications' like restless legs and neuropathy (burning feet).
3. Digestive
4. I am used to being gluten free but it's occasionally annoying that eating out can be difficult.
5. I also believe the gluten sensitivity issue can be linked to the worms' activity in my gut, liver and pancreas......
Complaint 4.
1. Weight.
2. Skinny child, plump teenager, fat adult. Currently 6 - 7 stone over my optimum weight.
3. Located mainly stomach and abdomen. Typical barrel shape of a diabetic.
4. Hate it. It's all tied in with the worms, diabetes, lack of energy, celiac, etc., etc.
5. Because of the worms undermining my nutrition all the time, my poor body thinks it's starving and hangs on tightly to every spare calorie it can get. I don't overeat, I don't allow myself to, but it's no fun being on a restricted diet ALL the time so I cheat, a bit.
ISSUES
1. Me. I frustrate myself beyond belief. Hate what is going on in my body.
2. My lack of focus and constantly wandering mind. Drives me mad.
3. My ADD personality. With added OCD tendencies. (All very common with worms apparently)
4. My lack of energy and motivation. So many things needing to be done and all I can do is sit and look at them....or try and ignore them....
5. Feeling (and looking) like the big fat slug in the Domestos advert. Overweight, toxic, unmotivated, lifeless and listless instead of being light, clean, fresh and vital....
6. Although knowing that a restricted diet is the healthier option for my issues, the constant feelings of deprivation and 'why me' can be overwhelming at times. I find solace in too much ginger chocolate or home-made flapjack and it annoys me I don't have the emotional strength to resist. But then again, the worms can make me crave the food they like and I have a constant battle with that too.
EMOTIONS
I am quite strong in some emotional ways. I don't cry easily. I go out of my way to avoid stress or stressful situations, probably because my adrenals are already taxed to the hilt. A quiet but emotional drama may evoke a tear or two, but I avoid fearful situations or films etc., like thrillers.
Whilst I am a fairly confident driver, I am a neurotic passenger, especially when my husband is driving. All the years he was on gluten you could cut his brain-fog with a knife. Never knew where he was going, or could recognise the landscape. I was fearful of giving him directions in case he already knew, and fearful of not giving them in case he didn't! I was in agony every time he was driving. But even though he is far better now off the gluten, I still find it hard to shake off all those years of trepidation.
INCIDENTS
I think the ones that had the most impact were the deaths of my grandmother when I was 15 and my mother when I was 43. I was very close to my grandma and felt her loss very keenly. But as a teenager I was more detached from (or protected from ) that than when my mother died. My main feeling then was anger. Anger that she had so badly been let down by the Medical Profession. I felt, and still feel, that they effectively had killed her through their negligence. I also feel frustrated now that I didn't know then what I know now about parasites, as I am convinced both she and my father had them. I have a faith and that helps me to rationalise that it will all be sorted out in the end, but still doesn't remove the intermediate feelings that she was lost far too prematurely. She was only 64.
FEARS
I fear the worms and the damage they are doing. I am terrified they will do irreversible damage before my body - if my body - ever gets strong enough to annihilate them. The larva are travelling up and down my neck into my face and scalp. I can feel the bigger worms trying to force their way ever higher up my neck. If they ever manage to break through into my spinal canal.....or maybe they already have....
I have a fear of fear. Not of fearful situations as I am not generally a worrier. I don't fret about what might happen, just preferring to deal with it if, or when, it does. But I won't deliberately put myself in situations that could invoke fear. Not because of the emotion but because of what it does to my body. The adrenaline dump drains my body of so much nutritional elements, it takes a long time to make up the shortfall. I am generally quite laid back. My Mum used to laugh about when I was a child being punished. I'd be sent to my room. Whilst she was downstairs crying her eyes out over an issue, I'd be up there singing my head off, oblivious.....
HOBBIES
I am very creative. I like to be making things when I have a little energy, but they usually are crafts that require little energy like crochet, sewing, jewellery making, etc. I like the satisfaction of creating things. I do frustrate myself with that though. Lots of different hobbies means lots of different stuff, and it's everywhere. I don't have a dedicated craft room sadly, and that is annoying. I cannot confine it. I also spend more time looking than doing. I love to look for ideas and amass lots of them and information, but then rarely have the energy to put them into practice. I have lots of great ideas, even to run a business, but no energy to do it.
PERSISTENT THOUGHTS
I tend to get a bit OCD about some things. Not things that really matter like housework (!), but trivial things. Maybe I might want some certain beads, but then not just a few, but start collecting lots. Or maybe certain craft magazines. Not all crafts, maybe just one type, but will gather and look for as many as I can find. I am not content with just one of anything. I have 10 wooden spatulas, a whole cupboard full of plastic storage containers, 30 mugs, 15 trays, etc., etc. the current obsession is balls of yarn. And I flit from one obsession to another. It's very odd.
If I am doing research on something, I am not content to look at just one article, but have to look at lots and lots. Whilst it can be very time-consuming that's no bad thing in some ways as it gives me a more rounded view of the subject and more ability to filter out dross.
UNUSUAL GESTURES/PAIN ETC.
None I am aware of. The only pains are as previously outlined under the worm activity. I got rid of the restless legs/burning feet/fungal stuff through diet.
FEELING THE BEST IN LIFE
Hmm. That would probably have been about 1969. I was full of beans as a child. Proper tomboy. Climbing trees, playing footie, doing the things active kids do. I barely remember a time when I could leap out of bed after a good sleep and enjoy the day. If I could imagine the opposite of that it wouldn't be far off now. Now my leg is healing and I can get about, it's easier. Whilst these darn creatures make my life a misery, I have much to be thankful for. It could be a lot worse. I could be bedridden, or dead.....
BEHAVIOURAL PATTERN
Yes, but stuck not of my own volition. Having energy and vitality would undoubtedly make me a different person.
Hoarding all this stuff - just in case. Wanting it, but not wanting it. Not able to stop myself. The manic gathering usually trickles out eventually, but by then I've managed to add even more stuff to the heap. I have been trying to use some of it, turn it into jewellery or blankets or whatever, but I've only scratched the surface. I have an avid fear if running out of something I need so always have much more than I need of everything.
I'm so weird.
RELATIONSHIPS
I am blessed to have a lovely (very patient) family. They don't always understand what I am dealing with despite my efforts to explain, but I wouldn't change them for the World. I think both I and my Hub feel frustrated that our health issues have prevented us doing things we would like to have done. They do get annoyed with me at times which is understandable, but I have good qualities that help to offset the bad ones....
No other issues with other people. Or frustrations. I'm not in the habit of making enemies....
POSITIVES
I am generally easy going, but not a pushover. I am quite generous and hospitable. I like to use knowledge and skills I have to benefit others. I say it as I see it - although am not always as tactful as I should be.
NEGATIVES
I am only negative where it comes to the worms. I want to KILL them! I do get despondent at times, and my obsessions often drives my family mad. When you finally understand something and want to tell people, they don't always want to hear, especially if they have bought into the 'Medical model'. I do complain about things sometimes, but doesn't everyone? Without constructive criticism nothing would ever change. I don't like criticism and will sometimes bristle, but I do go away and think about it after and try to make changes if I can, or at least accept I need to, even if I can't. I am an analyst by nature, and am always trying to analyse myself.....
DREAMS
No recurring ones these days. I did as a child have dreams where I was in an old house and I or someone with me fell through the floor. I knew the house intimately in my dream. In latter times my dreams have been of the 'never fear, I am here' type. At present, my body is struggling so much with the worm activity at night and I am so restless my dreams can be quite visual and disturbing. At any time, not just the early hours. I think my adrenals and other organs are probably working overtime as I sometimes wake up from a frightening dream with my heart pounding. I suspect the dream is a product of the stress my body is dealing with at the time, rather than being a driver if the stress. These parasites are circulating through my flesh and organs all the time. My body is trying to cleanse and heal at night and battle with the worms at the same time.
CHILDHOOD
I am an only child. My mother had a stillborn son when I was about 2.5. Followed by 10 miscarriages/spontaneous abortions. Her body wasn't nutritionally strong enough to nurture a baby to term.
I loved my parents dearly. My dad used to suffer with depression and lost his job occasionally over it - or over his reluctance to cut corners (he was often foreman or project manager on building sites). I have often pondered over my obsessive need to collect things. Dad and Mum had to sell my bike once when I was a kid due to money issues, and I felt deprived despite the fact I didn't use it very often, but I can't believe that would be a trigger. We weren't wealthy, but not poor either.
I spent quite a bit of time with my grandparents too. Cutting wood with granddad, making dinner with my Nan. My dad had quite a big family and I had several cousins I would see regularly. I felt loved and secure.
I had a happy childhood, nothing spectacular. My memories are hazy but I don't recall anything I may have blotted out or shelved. I have a great memory for information but a lousy one when it comes to relationships and events. Can't remember my children's childhood very clearly either.
I didn't like school, well not senior school anyway. I was frustrated. I was a bright kid - excelled at English, but because I was lousy at Maths I was dumped in the third stream as per the education system at the time. I wasn't given the right support to fulfil my creative and language abilities or gain higher qualifications, so I escaped as soon as I could and went out into the big wide world.
GENERAL SYMPTOMS
SLEEP
I can only sleep on my sides or side front. There are times when sleeping on my back would be preferable but I just can't sleep like that.
What kind of night I have had is usually apparent by the state of the duvet in the mornings. I occasionally get hot in bed and stick my feet out of the covers or throw them off for a bit, but that doesn't happen so much now. I apparently snore a bit.
I often can't get to sleep due to worm WW3 going on inside me, and I am often very restless when I do. Most nights I have to get up for the loo once or twice, especially if I have had a shivering lymph episode (I get those a lot as the worms move around. I think it is linked to enzyme activity as I get similar feelings when I take digestive or proteolytic enzymes).
I can't sleep until I yawn and moisten my eyes. I can't sleep with dry eyes. But sometimes I can't yawn, or have to try and force myself to.
APPETITE
I do crave a bit of ginger chocolate. I used to have 85% bitter chocolate and could confine myself to a square or two but do tend to eat more of the ginger dark chocolate. I can go without it but it's hard. I don't know why that has also become a bit of an obsession.
I Like dairy, but I don't think it likes me very much. Neither does sugar. But I don't avoid either as much as I should. I have in the past. I was on a restricted healing diet for three years with few 'cheats' other than my squares of bitter chocolate and some pistachios.
I don't like very spicy food/hot curries etc. Or maybe the worms don't, not sure on that. Other than that my tastes are quite broad, but gluten free, of course.
The tip of my tongue keeps getting sensitive and a bit sore. It may be the chocolate but I'm not sure. I'm trying to limit or avoid it for a bit. It's not so bad when I wake but gets worse during the day. It may not be food related, but the fact it gets worse after I eat sugar may be an indication. I read somewhere that issues with the tip of the tongue can be related to worm activity (Gu Syndrome). My mouth also gets very 'furry' during the day. Seems to be enough saliva, but just feels dry, oddly. My eyes get a bit dry by the evenings too.
I am better when I radically restrict the carbs and sugars, and even dairy. The lower the carb the better, but with lots of vegetables.
As long as I stay relatively low carb I don't get hypos, or hunger issues. I haven't ever fasted, although I have considered a juice fast as a cleansing and healing medium.
THIRST
I think my body has often mistaken hunger for thirst over the years (or the worms have made me want to eat rather than drink). I didn't drink water at one time because drinking it always made me more thirsty. Doh! That was my body telling me it needed more. I now drink water mainly, but usually have a cup or two of vegetable bouillon and maybe one milky coffee during the day sometimes. I rarely drink anything else. Not even alcohol as I only have to sniff it and I'm under the table... It makes me cough and goes to my liver and my head very fast. I can't drink fruit juices or squashes due to the sugar content. I have always found what to drink to be a real problem.
Although I used to be more thirsty in the evenings before being diagnosed with diabetes, these days I wouldn't say there is any particular times I am more or less thirsty.
STOOL
Hmm. Before dumping gluten I had IBS-D for about 12 years. That stopped within hours of dumping the gluten. As I continued on the low carb higher fat diet I tended to veer more towards constipation. Now my stool is a bit looser and having plenty of vegetables helps. But even though I drink quite a lot of water I do feel there are some dehydration issues here and there. No dry skin though, but that may be down to plenty of fats like coconut oil and butter in my diet.
The stool is pretty much as it should be colour and shape-wise. A bit on the small side sometimes, and a bit hard to pass, other times. I usually go once a day.
URINE
No real issues urinating. I usually have to get up at least once during the night at present. Probably due to detoxing processes from the TCM treatment. The colour is fine, not dark or excessively pale. No sediment or debris I am aware of.
SWEAT
My perspiration can be quite nasty. Almost the odour of Tomcat sometimes. I tend to use sodium bicarbonate as a deodorant and that helps to keep the smell at bay. I try to use more natural products if I can. I wouldn't say my sweat is excessive. It tends to be mainly under my armpits.
SEX
No issues there. I used to have problems when I was riddled with Candida, but that went after changing my diet and is no longer an issue. No STD, ever.
MENSES
I'm past all that fortunately. I used to get very heavy periods when I was young. Heavy feeling as though I had rocks in my womb. I used to just want to lay down on those days. School was even harder on those days. I was put on the pill when I was 16 to try and regulate my periods. Knowing what I know now, that was absolutely the wrong thing to do, and coming off gluten back then would probably have done more good! As a teenager my diet was pretty abysmal despite my Mum's good cooking. My dinner money was more likely spent on crisps and sweets....
I had a fairly early menopause, starting around age 42/43. Right up till I went low carb I suffered with the classic flushes and sweats, but the diet sorted all that out. I have had no menopausal issues since. Can't say what my Mum's menopause would have been like as she had a hysterectomy at 36. They said it would cure her lifelong anaemia, but if course, it didn't.
ENVIRONMENT
I get a bit low in the Winter, but lack of sunlight and vitamin D seems to be an issue for many these days. I can't say that any particular weather, season or time affects me, although I would probably class myself as a Spring or autumn person rather than Summer or Winter.
Other than everyday walking I am unable to do much in the way of physical activity, due to the lack of energy and leg issues. The foot and leg is healing, but I will probably have to have the pins and plate removed because it feels as though a muscle is either adhered to or is stuck around the plate. It pulls when I try to move it. But it is working better and I am getting more confident. I don't need any support to walk any more. I am limited more because what little energy I have runs out so fast.
Nothing else I am sensitive to in the environment I can think of other than bad drivers......
I hope this is enough and not TMI....
Ok, here goes.
LOCATION AND SENSATION
The pain and discomfort moves. Whilst it is mainly focused in my left side and upper back, it moves wherever the worms go. The larva appear to run up my neck and around my face and scalp at night creating prickly, itchy, and tickly feelings. The sensations in my left side and upper back from my waist up to my neck are writhing, wriggling, balling, slithering, biting (sometimes), and occasional feelings of lots of little feet pattering around inside my muscles and flesh.
The lower end of my left shoulder blade seems to hold a great fascination for some reason. For years I would get a very itchy, but weirdly also numb area just inside my left shoulder blade, that is obviously somehow connected. Sometimes it feels as though I have rocks in my back!
The area the larger worms seem to be confined to is in my left side from my waist up to my armpit. I often get feelings as though they or the larva are in my upper arm. Ascaris was apparently called the 'Wandering worm' by the Romans for its propensity to leave the gut and go around the body.
I feel movements just about everywhere at times. Not all at the same time or place, but they go everywhere. I will feel a bit of wriggling, or biting, even in my feet. They were very active in and out of my operation wound after I broke my leg. The squiggly shapes in the powdery skin on my leg was a good indication, but I could feel them sliding through the wound. Their presence made it a lot more sore as it was healing than it probably would have been.
EXACERBATION
Nights. Are. Horrendous. They are far more active at night. They keep me awake. Full moon is also a bad time as that tends to be their breeding time. Trying to sleep is like having several people poking, prodding and scratching you all the time. I sleep rarely before 2am, often later (gone 4am this morning). Not because I don't want to or couldn't sleep, but simply because I am just kept awake all the time.
No discharges apart from foul tasting mucous in my throat each morning. I have appallingly bad breath (a very common worm infestation symptom) and have done for many years. I am embarrassed to talk to people. I think my body does a lot of detoxing through my mouth and throat for some reason. The bad breath never went away even in the three years on the healing diet, although it helped a lot of other issues. I probably should have stayed on it.
Complaint 1
1. Worms
2. When I was a child I believe.
3. Everywhere
4. Wriggling, slithering, writhing, biting. I feel despondent. They make me stressy at times, although I am not a naturally stressy or anxious person.
5. All day, but especially at night.
6. They move more at night and are quieter during the day. I have not found anything to make them quieter at night.
7. Yes they bother me immensely. It's like constant torture. No rest, no peace, they are constantly undermining my health and (non-existent) vitality. I have very little energy or motivation to go anywhere or do anything. If I do go out I don't have the energy to go far or do much. They have built up a very nice little ecosystem in my body, disrupting my digestion and sugar metabolism for their own ends. I feel controlled by them and powerless. Mentally I will not accede defeat, but it is very hard when my body is having to work so hard to cope with their constant incessant toxic fall-out and damage.
8. The effect of having them is that my whole body is constantly moving. Although I sit quite a lot due to the lack of energy, I cannot sit still for very long, my mind is constantly flitting from one thing to another. I can't even keep my tongue still in my mouth sometimes! As much as I wish to I cannot just sit quiet and in peace or quiet contemplation without needing to do something. I always have to have something in my hands to try and focus on, like my craft work. I often wonder how different my life - and my personality would be without my unwanted squatters. They may only be relatively small creatures, but as a colony they are a monster with hundreds, if not thousands of tentacles....
9. I have had these things inside me so long I haven't a clue how or when they were acquired, or whether there was any 'event' at the time. We went to Spain when I was about 12 and I swam in a manky pool every morning. Ascaris' life cycle starts in a water snail, so it's possible I contracted the worms then, but could just have easily picked them up here in the UK when I was a child. I know my energy vanished when I was about 14, but I also had the BCG vaccine at that age, so even that could be a factor, who knows?
Time was our ancestors regularly de-wormed themselves and their families - senna, castor oil, Epsom salts etc., but within 2 or 3 generations that fell out off the radar and parasites has become the topic no one wants to talk or even think about. They weren't stupid. But we are. So much for progress....
10. Again, because I have had them so long, it's difficult to know how much of my personality is me, and how much is worm.....
Complaint 2
1. Diabetes (diagnosed type 2, but more likely type 1.5/LADA)
2. Developed slowly at around age 40 after several years of hypos and unstable blood sugar.
3. Pancreas and digestive tract (obviously)
4. I have to inject insulin which isn't pleasant, but the diabetes seems insignificant compared to the worms (whom I believe to be responsible for the diabetes).
5. Eating carbohydrate makes it worse, low carb means better control.
6. It does impact on my life a bit due to having to be careful about my diet and remember to take my insulin/check blood sugar etc., but it pales into insignificance against the worm issue.
Complaint 3
1. Celiac disease/gluten intolerance
2. Discovered 2007. My digestion virtually collapsed and everything I ate was running straight through. When the Medical Profession could find 'nothing wrong', left to my own devices I started researching. Finding the gluten link was a light bulb moment as my mother had been diagnosed with Celiac disease just a few weeks before she died in 2000 (when it was way too late to help her). I dumped the gluten and within hours the stomach pain and diarrhoea had stopped. Gradually, with the help of a low-carb diet I also reversed other 'diabetic complications' like restless legs and neuropathy (burning feet).
3. Digestive
4. I am used to being gluten free but it's occasionally annoying that eating out can be difficult.
5. I also believe the gluten sensitivity issue can be linked to the worms' activity in my gut, liver and pancreas......
Complaint 4.
1. Weight.
2. Skinny child, plump teenager, fat adult. Currently 6 - 7 stone over my optimum weight.
3. Located mainly stomach and abdomen. Typical barrel shape of a diabetic.
4. Hate it. It's all tied in with the worms, diabetes, lack of energy, celiac, etc., etc.
5. Because of the worms undermining my nutrition all the time, my poor body thinks it's starving and hangs on tightly to every spare calorie it can get. I don't overeat, I don't allow myself to, but it's no fun being on a restricted diet ALL the time so I cheat, a bit.
ISSUES
1. Me. I frustrate myself beyond belief. Hate what is going on in my body.
2. My lack of focus and constantly wandering mind. Drives me mad.
3. My ADD personality. With added OCD tendencies. (All very common with worms apparently)
4. My lack of energy and motivation. So many things needing to be done and all I can do is sit and look at them....or try and ignore them....
5. Feeling (and looking) like the big fat slug in the Domestos advert. Overweight, toxic, unmotivated, lifeless and listless instead of being light, clean, fresh and vital....
6. Although knowing that a restricted diet is the healthier option for my issues, the constant feelings of deprivation and 'why me' can be overwhelming at times. I find solace in too much ginger chocolate or home-made flapjack and it annoys me I don't have the emotional strength to resist. But then again, the worms can make me crave the food they like and I have a constant battle with that too.
EMOTIONS
I am quite strong in some emotional ways. I don't cry easily. I go out of my way to avoid stress or stressful situations, probably because my adrenals are already taxed to the hilt. A quiet but emotional drama may evoke a tear or two, but I avoid fearful situations or films etc., like thrillers.
Whilst I am a fairly confident driver, I am a neurotic passenger, especially when my husband is driving. All the years he was on gluten you could cut his brain-fog with a knife. Never knew where he was going, or could recognise the landscape. I was fearful of giving him directions in case he already knew, and fearful of not giving them in case he didn't! I was in agony every time he was driving. But even though he is far better now off the gluten, I still find it hard to shake off all those years of trepidation.
INCIDENTS
I think the ones that had the most impact were the deaths of my grandmother when I was 15 and my mother when I was 43. I was very close to my grandma and felt her loss very keenly. But as a teenager I was more detached from (or protected from ) that than when my mother died. My main feeling then was anger. Anger that she had so badly been let down by the Medical Profession. I felt, and still feel, that they effectively had killed her through their negligence. I also feel frustrated now that I didn't know then what I know now about parasites, as I am convinced both she and my father had them. I have a faith and that helps me to rationalise that it will all be sorted out in the end, but still doesn't remove the intermediate feelings that she was lost far too prematurely. She was only 64.
FEARS
I fear the worms and the damage they are doing. I am terrified they will do irreversible damage before my body - if my body - ever gets strong enough to annihilate them. The larva are travelling up and down my neck into my face and scalp. I can feel the bigger worms trying to force their way ever higher up my neck. If they ever manage to break through into my spinal canal.....or maybe they already have....
I have a fear of fear. Not of fearful situations as I am not generally a worrier. I don't fret about what might happen, just preferring to deal with it if, or when, it does. But I won't deliberately put myself in situations that could invoke fear. Not because of the emotion but because of what it does to my body. The adrenaline dump drains my body of so much nutritional elements, it takes a long time to make up the shortfall. I am generally quite laid back. My Mum used to laugh about when I was a child being punished. I'd be sent to my room. Whilst she was downstairs crying her eyes out over an issue, I'd be up there singing my head off, oblivious.....
HOBBIES
I am very creative. I like to be making things when I have a little energy, but they usually are crafts that require little energy like crochet, sewing, jewellery making, etc. I like the satisfaction of creating things. I do frustrate myself with that though. Lots of different hobbies means lots of different stuff, and it's everywhere. I don't have a dedicated craft room sadly, and that is annoying. I cannot confine it. I also spend more time looking than doing. I love to look for ideas and amass lots of them and information, but then rarely have the energy to put them into practice. I have lots of great ideas, even to run a business, but no energy to do it.
PERSISTENT THOUGHTS
I tend to get a bit OCD about some things. Not things that really matter like housework (!), but trivial things. Maybe I might want some certain beads, but then not just a few, but start collecting lots. Or maybe certain craft magazines. Not all crafts, maybe just one type, but will gather and look for as many as I can find. I am not content with just one of anything. I have 10 wooden spatulas, a whole cupboard full of plastic storage containers, 30 mugs, 15 trays, etc., etc. the current obsession is balls of yarn. And I flit from one obsession to another. It's very odd.
If I am doing research on something, I am not content to look at just one article, but have to look at lots and lots. Whilst it can be very time-consuming that's no bad thing in some ways as it gives me a more rounded view of the subject and more ability to filter out dross.
UNUSUAL GESTURES/PAIN ETC.
None I am aware of. The only pains are as previously outlined under the worm activity. I got rid of the restless legs/burning feet/fungal stuff through diet.
FEELING THE BEST IN LIFE
Hmm. That would probably have been about 1969. I was full of beans as a child. Proper tomboy. Climbing trees, playing footie, doing the things active kids do. I barely remember a time when I could leap out of bed after a good sleep and enjoy the day. If I could imagine the opposite of that it wouldn't be far off now. Now my leg is healing and I can get about, it's easier. Whilst these darn creatures make my life a misery, I have much to be thankful for. It could be a lot worse. I could be bedridden, or dead.....
BEHAVIOURAL PATTERN
Yes, but stuck not of my own volition. Having energy and vitality would undoubtedly make me a different person.
Hoarding all this stuff - just in case. Wanting it, but not wanting it. Not able to stop myself. The manic gathering usually trickles out eventually, but by then I've managed to add even more stuff to the heap. I have been trying to use some of it, turn it into jewellery or blankets or whatever, but I've only scratched the surface. I have an avid fear if running out of something I need so always have much more than I need of everything.
I'm so weird.
RELATIONSHIPS
I am blessed to have a lovely (very patient) family. They don't always understand what I am dealing with despite my efforts to explain, but I wouldn't change them for the World. I think both I and my Hub feel frustrated that our health issues have prevented us doing things we would like to have done. They do get annoyed with me at times which is understandable, but I have good qualities that help to offset the bad ones....
No other issues with other people. Or frustrations. I'm not in the habit of making enemies....
POSITIVES
I am generally easy going, but not a pushover. I am quite generous and hospitable. I like to use knowledge and skills I have to benefit others. I say it as I see it - although am not always as tactful as I should be.
NEGATIVES
I am only negative where it comes to the worms. I want to KILL them! I do get despondent at times, and my obsessions often drives my family mad. When you finally understand something and want to tell people, they don't always want to hear, especially if they have bought into the 'Medical model'. I do complain about things sometimes, but doesn't everyone? Without constructive criticism nothing would ever change. I don't like criticism and will sometimes bristle, but I do go away and think about it after and try to make changes if I can, or at least accept I need to, even if I can't. I am an analyst by nature, and am always trying to analyse myself.....
DREAMS
No recurring ones these days. I did as a child have dreams where I was in an old house and I or someone with me fell through the floor. I knew the house intimately in my dream. In latter times my dreams have been of the 'never fear, I am here' type. At present, my body is struggling so much with the worm activity at night and I am so restless my dreams can be quite visual and disturbing. At any time, not just the early hours. I think my adrenals and other organs are probably working overtime as I sometimes wake up from a frightening dream with my heart pounding. I suspect the dream is a product of the stress my body is dealing with at the time, rather than being a driver if the stress. These parasites are circulating through my flesh and organs all the time. My body is trying to cleanse and heal at night and battle with the worms at the same time.
CHILDHOOD
I am an only child. My mother had a stillborn son when I was about 2.5. Followed by 10 miscarriages/spontaneous abortions. Her body wasn't nutritionally strong enough to nurture a baby to term.
I loved my parents dearly. My dad used to suffer with depression and lost his job occasionally over it - or over his reluctance to cut corners (he was often foreman or project manager on building sites). I have often pondered over my obsessive need to collect things. Dad and Mum had to sell my bike once when I was a kid due to money issues, and I felt deprived despite the fact I didn't use it very often, but I can't believe that would be a trigger. We weren't wealthy, but not poor either.
I spent quite a bit of time with my grandparents too. Cutting wood with granddad, making dinner with my Nan. My dad had quite a big family and I had several cousins I would see regularly. I felt loved and secure.
I had a happy childhood, nothing spectacular. My memories are hazy but I don't recall anything I may have blotted out or shelved. I have a great memory for information but a lousy one when it comes to relationships and events. Can't remember my children's childhood very clearly either.
I didn't like school, well not senior school anyway. I was frustrated. I was a bright kid - excelled at English, but because I was lousy at Maths I was dumped in the third stream as per the education system at the time. I wasn't given the right support to fulfil my creative and language abilities or gain higher qualifications, so I escaped as soon as I could and went out into the big wide world.
GENERAL SYMPTOMS
SLEEP
I can only sleep on my sides or side front. There are times when sleeping on my back would be preferable but I just can't sleep like that.
What kind of night I have had is usually apparent by the state of the duvet in the mornings. I occasionally get hot in bed and stick my feet out of the covers or throw them off for a bit, but that doesn't happen so much now. I apparently snore a bit.
I often can't get to sleep due to worm WW3 going on inside me, and I am often very restless when I do. Most nights I have to get up for the loo once or twice, especially if I have had a shivering lymph episode (I get those a lot as the worms move around. I think it is linked to enzyme activity as I get similar feelings when I take digestive or proteolytic enzymes).
I can't sleep until I yawn and moisten my eyes. I can't sleep with dry eyes. But sometimes I can't yawn, or have to try and force myself to.
APPETITE
I do crave a bit of ginger chocolate. I used to have 85% bitter chocolate and could confine myself to a square or two but do tend to eat more of the ginger dark chocolate. I can go without it but it's hard. I don't know why that has also become a bit of an obsession.
I Like dairy, but I don't think it likes me very much. Neither does sugar. But I don't avoid either as much as I should. I have in the past. I was on a restricted healing diet for three years with few 'cheats' other than my squares of bitter chocolate and some pistachios.
I don't like very spicy food/hot curries etc. Or maybe the worms don't, not sure on that. Other than that my tastes are quite broad, but gluten free, of course.
The tip of my tongue keeps getting sensitive and a bit sore. It may be the chocolate but I'm not sure. I'm trying to limit or avoid it for a bit. It's not so bad when I wake but gets worse during the day. It may not be food related, but the fact it gets worse after I eat sugar may be an indication. I read somewhere that issues with the tip of the tongue can be related to worm activity (Gu Syndrome). My mouth also gets very 'furry' during the day. Seems to be enough saliva, but just feels dry, oddly. My eyes get a bit dry by the evenings too.
I am better when I radically restrict the carbs and sugars, and even dairy. The lower the carb the better, but with lots of vegetables.
As long as I stay relatively low carb I don't get hypos, or hunger issues. I haven't ever fasted, although I have considered a juice fast as a cleansing and healing medium.
THIRST
I think my body has often mistaken hunger for thirst over the years (or the worms have made me want to eat rather than drink). I didn't drink water at one time because drinking it always made me more thirsty. Doh! That was my body telling me it needed more. I now drink water mainly, but usually have a cup or two of vegetable bouillon and maybe one milky coffee during the day sometimes. I rarely drink anything else. Not even alcohol as I only have to sniff it and I'm under the table... It makes me cough and goes to my liver and my head very fast. I can't drink fruit juices or squashes due to the sugar content. I have always found what to drink to be a real problem.
Although I used to be more thirsty in the evenings before being diagnosed with diabetes, these days I wouldn't say there is any particular times I am more or less thirsty.
STOOL
Hmm. Before dumping gluten I had IBS-D for about 12 years. That stopped within hours of dumping the gluten. As I continued on the low carb higher fat diet I tended to veer more towards constipation. Now my stool is a bit looser and having plenty of vegetables helps. But even though I drink quite a lot of water I do feel there are some dehydration issues here and there. No dry skin though, but that may be down to plenty of fats like coconut oil and butter in my diet.
The stool is pretty much as it should be colour and shape-wise. A bit on the small side sometimes, and a bit hard to pass, other times. I usually go once a day.
URINE
No real issues urinating. I usually have to get up at least once during the night at present. Probably due to detoxing processes from the TCM treatment. The colour is fine, not dark or excessively pale. No sediment or debris I am aware of.
SWEAT
My perspiration can be quite nasty. Almost the odour of Tomcat sometimes. I tend to use sodium bicarbonate as a deodorant and that helps to keep the smell at bay. I try to use more natural products if I can. I wouldn't say my sweat is excessive. It tends to be mainly under my armpits.
SEX
No issues there. I used to have problems when I was riddled with Candida, but that went after changing my diet and is no longer an issue. No STD, ever.
MENSES
I'm past all that fortunately. I used to get very heavy periods when I was young. Heavy feeling as though I had rocks in my womb. I used to just want to lay down on those days. School was even harder on those days. I was put on the pill when I was 16 to try and regulate my periods. Knowing what I know now, that was absolutely the wrong thing to do, and coming off gluten back then would probably have done more good! As a teenager my diet was pretty abysmal despite my Mum's good cooking. My dinner money was more likely spent on crisps and sweets....
I had a fairly early menopause, starting around age 42/43. Right up till I went low carb I suffered with the classic flushes and sweats, but the diet sorted all that out. I have had no menopausal issues since. Can't say what my Mum's menopause would have been like as she had a hysterectomy at 36. They said it would cure her lifelong anaemia, but if course, it didn't.
ENVIRONMENT
I get a bit low in the Winter, but lack of sunlight and vitamin D seems to be an issue for many these days. I can't say that any particular weather, season or time affects me, although I would probably class myself as a Spring or autumn person rather than Summer or Winter.
Other than everyday walking I am unable to do much in the way of physical activity, due to the lack of energy and leg issues. The foot and leg is healing, but I will probably have to have the pins and plate removed because it feels as though a muscle is either adhered to or is stuck around the plate. It pulls when I try to move it. But it is working better and I am getting more confident. I don't need any support to walk any more. I am limited more because what little energy I have runs out so fast.
Nothing else I am sensitive to in the environment I can think of other than bad drivers......
I hope this is enough and not TMI....
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Ok this is taking longer than I expected. I may not get much of a chance to work on this over the weekend due to clinic and family commitments, but I will get back to work on it Monday.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Ok, thank you. I am grateful.
I have to say I started juicing yesterday, and made some veg soup from the 'waste'.
The worms do seem to have quietened down somewhat. I will continue with this, including lots of greens for the nutrition and see what happens.
I reckon I can't lose anything by trying.
I have to say I started juicing yesterday, and made some veg soup from the 'waste'.
The worms do seem to have quietened down somewhat. I will continue with this, including lots of greens for the nutrition and see what happens.
I reckon I can't lose anything by trying.
Alijaybee 9 years ago
This is a very interesting case, very different to most I see. I think I can help you, I need more time with it though. I have many pages of work done already - lot of different ways I could go.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Thanks.
Yes, I did have to be different to everyone else! Nothing straightforward in my life!
It has been very frustrating for me because although I had been able to heal or reverse some things through diet and nutrition, I could only get so far and my progress was always slower than other people's.
I have been eating quite a 'clean' diet for 7 years. No gluten, no commercially made food, no sweeteners, little sugar, some dairy, plenty of vegetables, fresh meat, fish and eggs, etc., yet still I struggle.
I am sure my healing progress would have been far more advanced if the worms weren't hijacking my nutrition all the time.
Yes, I did have to be different to everyone else! Nothing straightforward in my life!
It has been very frustrating for me because although I had been able to heal or reverse some things through diet and nutrition, I could only get so far and my progress was always slower than other people's.
I have been eating quite a 'clean' diet for 7 years. No gluten, no commercially made food, no sweeteners, little sugar, some dairy, plenty of vegetables, fresh meat, fish and eggs, etc., yet still I struggle.
I am sure my healing progress would have been far more advanced if the worms weren't hijacking my nutrition all the time.
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Ok I have spent a lot of time thinking about your case. The remedy I want you to take is ALUMINA 1M. Can you please obtain this in liquid form (not pillues or pellets) if possible.
Restless always on the move
Profound tiredness with desire to lie down
Wandering thoughts
Undertakes many things perseveres in nothing
Despair of recovery
Feeling of being destroyed (syphilitic miasm)
Aggravation at night in bed
Aggravation on the full moon
Feeling of being under a powerful influence
Weakness of the mind, unable to focus
Alumina has a peculiar core state - it is a confusion of identity, as if someone else speaks for them, thinks for them. I feel your interaction with these worms displays this same core feature.
If you have pillules or pellets, you will need a small bottle and a dropper. Mix water and alcohol into this small bottle to the ratio of 5:1. Dissolve 3 pillules/pellets into this bottle. All doses will be made from this bottle.
If you already have a liquid dose just start from step 1.
1. Hit the bottle 5 times firmly against the palm of the hand
2. Place 3 drops into 100mls of clean fresh water
3. Stir very thoroughly
4. Take 2 teaspoons out into the mouth and hold for 20 seconds, then swallow.
This is one dose and the same steps should be taken for any further doses, unless I ask you to change them in some way.
Take one dose only and let me know what has happened at the end of a week.
Restless always on the move
Profound tiredness with desire to lie down
Wandering thoughts
Undertakes many things perseveres in nothing
Despair of recovery
Feeling of being destroyed (syphilitic miasm)
Aggravation at night in bed
Aggravation on the full moon
Feeling of being under a powerful influence
Weakness of the mind, unable to focus
Alumina has a peculiar core state - it is a confusion of identity, as if someone else speaks for them, thinks for them. I feel your interaction with these worms displays this same core feature.
If you have pillules or pellets, you will need a small bottle and a dropper. Mix water and alcohol into this small bottle to the ratio of 5:1. Dissolve 3 pillules/pellets into this bottle. All doses will be made from this bottle.
If you already have a liquid dose just start from step 1.
1. Hit the bottle 5 times firmly against the palm of the hand
2. Place 3 drops into 100mls of clean fresh water
3. Stir very thoroughly
4. Take 2 teaspoons out into the mouth and hold for 20 seconds, then swallow.
This is one dose and the same steps should be taken for any further doses, unless I ask you to change them in some way.
Take one dose only and let me know what has happened at the end of a week.
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Ok. I will try that. Thank you very much. I really appreciate the time you have taken with this.
I have been giving this a LOT of thought. Being awake much of the night gives you a lot of thinking time....
I believe that nothing is on this earth for no reason. Everything has a purpose - it's been designed like that.
Bugs and microbes are part of Earth's clean-up system. They digest and break down unwanted or toxic matter, turning it into useful material. Whilst 'parasites' are given that title because no apparent purpose has been attributed to them, I suspect they also are part of the clean-up system. Different parasites probably have different roles.
In my own body, I am coming to believe the worms are there due to one or more toxic elements in my body, and, I suspect the most predominant to very possibly be mercury from my mouth full of amalgams (I hate to think what the insulin I take every day for the diabetes has in it too. Think I need to check on that).
Just around the time the worms 'erupted' I had had a full mouth dental X-Ray. I have had some problems with an upper back molar, and they used a rotating machine that went all around my head. I am wondering whether that may have been a trigger. I know the worms were already there, but they weren't anything like the issue they have been over the last year.
I really want these amalgams removed, but am still awaiting an appointment to see the dental consultant at the hospital. I don't have the money to get it done privately. It galls me that the NHS happily fills your mouth with the second most toxic metal known to man, but you have to pay to get it removed.
Interestingly Chinese medicine links meridians. The main dental issues are on the upper left. I get a lot of worm activity around my left eye at night, and the main problematic tooth is linked to the meridian that connects the pancreas. Makes me wonder. Could the exponential rise in Diabetes be linked to the rise in modern invasive dental work? The upper back molar is connected to the pancreas, the next is connected to the heart meridian. The molars often contain the largest fillings, and therefore mercury. Many with diabetes also suffer with heart, lung and other issues. Their bodies basically fall apart from a lack of nutrition. Could mercury be blocking its absorption?
Worms have always been linked to overcrowding and poor sanitation although that is not always the case. Even royalty has been known to get worms. But before the advent of dentists, there always was issues with heavy metals and other toxins - lead pipes, zinc, tin, copper and nickel utensils and cutlery. Brass and iron tools. Arsenic paint, lead whitener, black lead grate polish, etc., etc., etc.
Was humankind inadvertently setting itself up for infestation?
If my theory does hold water, then as debilitating as having the worms is, just maybe they are the lesser of two evils. Maybe in some weird way they are actually my protectors. Perhaps my body feels it is better to deal with the worms than something far more insidious.....
I have been giving this a LOT of thought. Being awake much of the night gives you a lot of thinking time....
I believe that nothing is on this earth for no reason. Everything has a purpose - it's been designed like that.
Bugs and microbes are part of Earth's clean-up system. They digest and break down unwanted or toxic matter, turning it into useful material. Whilst 'parasites' are given that title because no apparent purpose has been attributed to them, I suspect they also are part of the clean-up system. Different parasites probably have different roles.
In my own body, I am coming to believe the worms are there due to one or more toxic elements in my body, and, I suspect the most predominant to very possibly be mercury from my mouth full of amalgams (I hate to think what the insulin I take every day for the diabetes has in it too. Think I need to check on that).
Just around the time the worms 'erupted' I had had a full mouth dental X-Ray. I have had some problems with an upper back molar, and they used a rotating machine that went all around my head. I am wondering whether that may have been a trigger. I know the worms were already there, but they weren't anything like the issue they have been over the last year.
I really want these amalgams removed, but am still awaiting an appointment to see the dental consultant at the hospital. I don't have the money to get it done privately. It galls me that the NHS happily fills your mouth with the second most toxic metal known to man, but you have to pay to get it removed.
Interestingly Chinese medicine links meridians. The main dental issues are on the upper left. I get a lot of worm activity around my left eye at night, and the main problematic tooth is linked to the meridian that connects the pancreas. Makes me wonder. Could the exponential rise in Diabetes be linked to the rise in modern invasive dental work? The upper back molar is connected to the pancreas, the next is connected to the heart meridian. The molars often contain the largest fillings, and therefore mercury. Many with diabetes also suffer with heart, lung and other issues. Their bodies basically fall apart from a lack of nutrition. Could mercury be blocking its absorption?
Worms have always been linked to overcrowding and poor sanitation although that is not always the case. Even royalty has been known to get worms. But before the advent of dentists, there always was issues with heavy metals and other toxins - lead pipes, zinc, tin, copper and nickel utensils and cutlery. Brass and iron tools. Arsenic paint, lead whitener, black lead grate polish, etc., etc., etc.
Was humankind inadvertently setting itself up for infestation?
If my theory does hold water, then as debilitating as having the worms is, just maybe they are the lesser of two evils. Maybe in some weird way they are actually my protectors. Perhaps my body feels it is better to deal with the worms than something far more insidious.....
Alijaybee 9 years ago
Well human bodies were designed to hold parasites to a certain degree, to live in harmony with them in fact. However, when the vital energy goes out of balance for whatever reason, that harmony is upset and they can follow their nature which is to reproduce and spread as much as they can. In some ways one could say as long as we keep our internal ecosystems in harmony we are protected from outside threats AND internal ones.
What I am trying to do is to understand how your vital energy is out of balance, to put that right, so that your own body can sort out whatever is happening within you. I do that by understanding the interplay between yourself and the worms, the dynamic of your 'relationship' so to speak.
Alumina is used for when a person loses their identity, when it is controlled or decided by someone (or something) else. In the repertory this is defined by the rubric 'Confusion of identity, as if not his own'. The other remedies in that rubric are Cypra-eg, Falco-pe, Lach, Nat-m, Syph, Thuj. Each one has their own translation of this feeling, and I am actually considering both Cypr-eg and Thuja for you as well should we need to look further.
Alumina has this strange feeling, almost as if someone else is using their mouth to speak, using their body to act. It is a peculiar thing about Alumina, and I felt is represented your own struggle as well.
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What I am trying to do is to understand how your vital energy is out of balance, to put that right, so that your own body can sort out whatever is happening within you. I do that by understanding the interplay between yourself and the worms, the dynamic of your 'relationship' so to speak.
Alumina is used for when a person loses their identity, when it is controlled or decided by someone (or something) else. In the repertory this is defined by the rubric 'Confusion of identity, as if not his own'. The other remedies in that rubric are Cypra-eg, Falco-pe, Lach, Nat-m, Syph, Thuj. Each one has their own translation of this feeling, and I am actually considering both Cypr-eg and Thuja for you as well should we need to look further.
Alumina has this strange feeling, almost as if someone else is using their mouth to speak, using their body to act. It is a peculiar thing about Alumina, and I felt is represented your own struggle as well.
[message edited by Evocationer on Mon, 01 Sep 2014 02:30:28 BST]
♡ Evocationer 9 years ago
Hi. The alumina has arrived, 1M liquid.
I am about to place the three drops into the water and take the two teaspoonfuls but what do I do with the rest? Seems a waste to throw it away seeing as it cost me well over £6 including the postage just for a tiny 5ml bottle!
I am about to place the three drops into the water and take the two teaspoonfuls but what do I do with the rest? Seems a waste to throw it away seeing as it cost me well over £6 including the postage just for a tiny 5ml bottle!
Alijaybee 9 years ago
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