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Been to appointment
Ok it wasnt to bad. A bit of nerves before I got into the building but than it was fine. My right eye lids twitched quite frequently though, pretty much all the time while talkingMy feelings are that I expected more of the homeopath. I dont get the sense of 'good enough' from her. But it could be just me and my wrong feelings.
She also did not get to see the me. The great things about me.
Overall I am underwhelmed. I thought seeing a homeopath in person will be a great thing and heighten my chances dramatically. Not so sure right now. But I am open to be wrong and wonder with what remedy she will come up for me. I will get it send to in a few days.
All I got from her is that she thinks I am sensitive. I think based on how I talked about, how I got into panic mode after I took the 10m and was told that my mind is detoriating. And when I talked about how taking high potency makes me feel it is to powerfull etc.
An hour and half past and I still kept talking while the woman started looking at her clock frequently so I stopped. An hour and a half flew by so quick.
All was kind of depressing except when we have gotten to my dreams. There I could share some things about myself that made me feel good. And I asked her about whether the dreams are spoiled by remedies and she replied with that the dreams are still 'you'.
Anyway I expected more. But I could never tell her that though. to hurt her
[message edited by starface on Mon, 12 Mar 2012 04:58:49 GMT]
starface on 2012-03-12
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Well, that is fantastic that you
did that. You have to remember that if you felt
the great things about you all the time, you
would not need her help- she is looking for
the 'not great' things in order to have the
remedy get rid of those. Maybe it was not
all you thought it would be, but you don't know
about things till you do them-just like being
uptight about a new job etc and then after a
couple days think, what was I so worried about.
The more you actually go do things, the more
you understand and can be much less nervous about them.
And you ought to write down somewhere or
put something somewhere that is a sign to
you to VALIDATE yourself. You are used to
no one doing that and everyone has to validate
themselves every day for something, instead
of body /mind always in some state of negative
or it could have been better-hard habit to
break.
so after months of this Not happening it finally
happened. Good job!!
did that. You have to remember that if you felt
the great things about you all the time, you
would not need her help- she is looking for
the 'not great' things in order to have the
remedy get rid of those. Maybe it was not
all you thought it would be, but you don't know
about things till you do them-just like being
uptight about a new job etc and then after a
couple days think, what was I so worried about.
The more you actually go do things, the more
you understand and can be much less nervous about them.
And you ought to write down somewhere or
put something somewhere that is a sign to
you to VALIDATE yourself. You are used to
no one doing that and everyone has to validate
themselves every day for something, instead
of body /mind always in some state of negative
or it could have been better-hard habit to
break.
so after months of this Not happening it finally
happened. Good job!!
♡ simone717 last decade
thanks. I still put this down to the platina. I dont think I would ever go if I did not take that remedy.
I was feeling a bit uneasy on some days and felt like cancelling the appointment. But I could not do it, after I said I am going on here. I would not be able to show my face here anymore if I did not go.
But overall it was rather easy. from the moment on that I shook her hand.
I wonder now what I will get prescribed and how this will evolve
I was feeling a bit uneasy on some days and felt like cancelling the appointment. But I could not do it, after I said I am going on here. I would not be able to show my face here anymore if I did not go.
But overall it was rather easy. from the moment on that I shook her hand.
I wonder now what I will get prescribed and how this will evolve
starface last decade
I am sure you do wonder how it is
going to evolve- nothing just
goes upwards in a straight line-and
you will handle whatever comes up
as it comes up- so try not to worry
ahead of time-concentrate on all
the goals you want to happen for you,
and don't think small when you do it.
I really feel that soon you will
be on a more even keel, and not
have to deal with big ups and downs.
Very happy for you.
going to evolve- nothing just
goes upwards in a straight line-and
you will handle whatever comes up
as it comes up- so try not to worry
ahead of time-concentrate on all
the goals you want to happen for you,
and don't think small when you do it.
I really feel that soon you will
be on a more even keel, and not
have to deal with big ups and downs.
Very happy for you.
♡ simone717 last decade
tonight I had another night were I could not sleep well with stress. And just to much anxiety. But difference is that when I turned the light on I was quite ok and not that paranoid. Also the 'pictures' came much less frequently than they would usually. So an improvement again but still stressfull.
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those were my dreams of tonight, and I cant help but wonder if this sounds like platina or maybe something similar to it?
dreams I had tonight:
1.) I came from a walk outside and noticed some family friends came to visit us, so they all greeted me including my father which I thought was strange since we two never talk. But that is how he is. He wold feel uncomfortable if his friends found out that we 2 dont talk. THose family friends were from my old country coming for a visit
2.) Formula 1 and schumacher again. New season got started. In the dream I just saw schumacher overtaking another driver. The commentators were like look at the mercedes car he was driving, how quick and good it is. And schumacher overtook a ferrari driver very nicely. But when he overtook the next driver in front of him they made slight contact with the tyres just when he passed him and it kind of ruined his race. He was becoming slower and his team boss once got on the race track to give him some earphones ( a radio) so they can communicate. In an attempt to help him. Again I am not sure why I dream about schumacher since I am not a fan of him.
3. There is a strategic video game I play sometimes and I dream about it quite often too. So today I had this strategic tank battles as if in real life played out the video game
4. This last one is difficult to describe. SOme details are missing. I can just briefly say that I was around arabs. I had to stand in line for something with other people. And it happened that in front of me was a woman and I believe it was a woman from a king. who complained that I must not be looking at his woman. Not stand so close to her her. He wanted me away from the line I guess. Then also part of this dream was... the dream changed a bit... There was a king from persia who talked about his great country. All the good things persia did. And how many countries derive knowledge or still use things persia did or inovated. Something like that. And than the dream changed slightly again and it seemed i was in a history class. And the big country Russia was mentioned and talked about. The connection of old persia and russia. Not sure what it was about.
2 of those dreams arent specifically about me which leaves me a bit confused, but why do I dream such things. Obviously it must be something about me, no?
.. the schumacher dream just showed how he was much better than his opponents in front of him, and how brilliantly he overtook them. It is fun to watch someone being miles better than the opponent.
the dream about the king where he talked about persia was a feeling of an angry ego. It felt as if the king tried to talk about persia, because people do not acknowledge or appreciate enough how great it was. Like the king felt angry and had to tell people. He felt angry by people not maybe praising more or acknowledging more, as if the good great thing went by unnoticed. It was something along those lines. If you do something good or great but noone even pays attention to it or notices it, shrugs it off as something insignificant it can make you angry, just angry but at other times also feel like you are dieing
[message edited by starface on Tue, 13 Mar 2012 03:20:07 GMT]
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those were my dreams of tonight, and I cant help but wonder if this sounds like platina or maybe something similar to it?
dreams I had tonight:
1.) I came from a walk outside and noticed some family friends came to visit us, so they all greeted me including my father which I thought was strange since we two never talk. But that is how he is. He wold feel uncomfortable if his friends found out that we 2 dont talk. THose family friends were from my old country coming for a visit
2.) Formula 1 and schumacher again. New season got started. In the dream I just saw schumacher overtaking another driver. The commentators were like look at the mercedes car he was driving, how quick and good it is. And schumacher overtook a ferrari driver very nicely. But when he overtook the next driver in front of him they made slight contact with the tyres just when he passed him and it kind of ruined his race. He was becoming slower and his team boss once got on the race track to give him some earphones ( a radio) so they can communicate. In an attempt to help him. Again I am not sure why I dream about schumacher since I am not a fan of him.
3. There is a strategic video game I play sometimes and I dream about it quite often too. So today I had this strategic tank battles as if in real life played out the video game
4. This last one is difficult to describe. SOme details are missing. I can just briefly say that I was around arabs. I had to stand in line for something with other people. And it happened that in front of me was a woman and I believe it was a woman from a king. who complained that I must not be looking at his woman. Not stand so close to her her. He wanted me away from the line I guess. Then also part of this dream was... the dream changed a bit... There was a king from persia who talked about his great country. All the good things persia did. And how many countries derive knowledge or still use things persia did or inovated. Something like that. And than the dream changed slightly again and it seemed i was in a history class. And the big country Russia was mentioned and talked about. The connection of old persia and russia. Not sure what it was about.
2 of those dreams arent specifically about me which leaves me a bit confused, but why do I dream such things. Obviously it must be something about me, no?
.. the schumacher dream just showed how he was much better than his opponents in front of him, and how brilliantly he overtook them. It is fun to watch someone being miles better than the opponent.
the dream about the king where he talked about persia was a feeling of an angry ego. It felt as if the king tried to talk about persia, because people do not acknowledge or appreciate enough how great it was. Like the king felt angry and had to tell people. He felt angry by people not maybe praising more or acknowledging more, as if the good great thing went by unnoticed. It was something along those lines. If you do something good or great but noone even pays attention to it or notices it, shrugs it off as something insignificant it can make you angry, just angry but at other times also feel like you are dieing
[message edited by starface on Tue, 13 Mar 2012 03:20:07 GMT]
starface last decade
I send the dreams to my new homeopath aswell. But this homeopath does not reply to my emails at all. Only once a week maybe.
As everybody might know on here... this is a big problem for me. It makes me restless. I cannot take it when I dont get replies. It just makes me so angry. I kind of always expect that people are very interested in me.
This is a problem I have to learn to deal with when I am not shown interest
As everybody might know on here... this is a big problem for me. It makes me restless. I cannot take it when I dont get replies. It just makes me so angry. I kind of always expect that people are very interested in me.
This is a problem I have to learn to deal with when I am not shown interest
starface last decade
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
I don't think you are understanding
the relationship with the homeopath-
just as if you went to a therapist.
the therapist would pay attention to
you when you had the session. and
then close off herself till the next session.
You would not be talking to the therapist unless
there was an emergency. Healers have to do this or
otherwise these connections from people would
overwhelm them.
You homeopath has seen you and is picking your
remedy and probably already picked it. Now she will
be interested to hear what happens after you take it.
So your job will be to notice changes and notice
if you are having things come up and pass and if
you are feeling mentally better and then like tell
her once a week what is going on unless it is
an emergency. You are trying to turn things into
a every other day or something communication
and they can't do that- there has to be some
separation.
On the dreams, you know your sub works out
things in dreams. You could keep a dream journal.
But dreams are the astral world and unless you
are getting some urgent message about something
coming up or something trying to tell you to
take care of something- they are to be separate
from the waking world. You are paying too much
attention to them- the daily world is not the dream
world and you end thinking about the dream world
when you wake up-put it away and focus on this world.
the relationship with the homeopath-
just as if you went to a therapist.
the therapist would pay attention to
you when you had the session. and
then close off herself till the next session.
You would not be talking to the therapist unless
there was an emergency. Healers have to do this or
otherwise these connections from people would
overwhelm them.
You homeopath has seen you and is picking your
remedy and probably already picked it. Now she will
be interested to hear what happens after you take it.
So your job will be to notice changes and notice
if you are having things come up and pass and if
you are feeling mentally better and then like tell
her once a week what is going on unless it is
an emergency. You are trying to turn things into
a every other day or something communication
and they can't do that- there has to be some
separation.
On the dreams, you know your sub works out
things in dreams. You could keep a dream journal.
But dreams are the astral world and unless you
are getting some urgent message about something
coming up or something trying to tell you to
take care of something- they are to be separate
from the waking world. You are paying too much
attention to them- the daily world is not the dream
world and you end thinking about the dream world
when you wake up-put it away and focus on this world.
♡ simone717 last decade
You are both right of course. I know this is my pattern, my problem.
I am aware I payed her money for ONLY the appointment. But here is the thing. Since I am nice, since everyone always interested in me. Since people dont care if I payed them just for one appointment since I am so nice they just love talking to me and so on.... this is my mindset. So her not replying to my emails. Even if it is normal to do so... is very difficult to take. It means to her I am not this person who she would want to help, talk with, without a problem because she likes me so much, which i get the feeling from other people often. So to her I am not this person. And it feels like an unjust I just cannot take.
The word 'nice' maybe not the right word.
Ok this is very difficult to accept, that I am treated just like a normal client of hers. Very difficult. Wonder how come I dont have a BDD attack. The feeling that I am not good looking enough or something.
I am not joking but this is difficult and if I had no inhibitions, no worries about my image and so on. If I were free of everything I think I could abuse her for an hour for replying to my emails so infrequently. Based on how bad she made me feel by that.
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anyway, I have this problem with contact with her, I know if I get a remedy in my post which wont be the ones I expect there will be dissapointment again. And than I am going to be in a state where I will be unable to see her ever again. I wont be even able to tell her that I quit her, because I cannot dissapoint or cause someone to feel that they werent good enough.
I know exactly what the right thing to do would be. But this means I would have to take this treatment from her which feels like it is to big for me. I go into nothingness if I am treated as if I dont exist.
This just brings the worst out of me. I am sorry this all sounds stupid in a way. Thing is I am not a boaster, I am not someone who puts other people down openly and all those things. All is always well for as long as people are nice to me and do not treat me like 'air'
I dont think I am asking for to much. Or unreasonable in my demands
[message edited by starface on Tue, 13 Mar 2012 03:57:11 GMT]
I am aware I payed her money for ONLY the appointment. But here is the thing. Since I am nice, since everyone always interested in me. Since people dont care if I payed them just for one appointment since I am so nice they just love talking to me and so on.... this is my mindset. So her not replying to my emails. Even if it is normal to do so... is very difficult to take. It means to her I am not this person who she would want to help, talk with, without a problem because she likes me so much, which i get the feeling from other people often. So to her I am not this person. And it feels like an unjust I just cannot take.
The word 'nice' maybe not the right word.
Ok this is very difficult to accept, that I am treated just like a normal client of hers. Very difficult. Wonder how come I dont have a BDD attack. The feeling that I am not good looking enough or something.
I am not joking but this is difficult and if I had no inhibitions, no worries about my image and so on. If I were free of everything I think I could abuse her for an hour for replying to my emails so infrequently. Based on how bad she made me feel by that.
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anyway, I have this problem with contact with her, I know if I get a remedy in my post which wont be the ones I expect there will be dissapointment again. And than I am going to be in a state where I will be unable to see her ever again. I wont be even able to tell her that I quit her, because I cannot dissapoint or cause someone to feel that they werent good enough.
I know exactly what the right thing to do would be. But this means I would have to take this treatment from her which feels like it is to big for me. I go into nothingness if I am treated as if I dont exist.
This just brings the worst out of me. I am sorry this all sounds stupid in a way. Thing is I am not a boaster, I am not someone who puts other people down openly and all those things. All is always well for as long as people are nice to me and do not treat me like 'air'
I dont think I am asking for to much. Or unreasonable in my demands
[message edited by starface on Tue, 13 Mar 2012 03:57:11 GMT]
starface last decade
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
you are just testing out 'rejection' all the time-
to see how other people are going to react-
it is all distorted.
You don't go into the grocery store and keep
hanging around the check out clerk- you realize
that is a 5 minute interaction, same thing
with the bank, same thing with the dentist- those
people are not there to reject you , they are there
to do a job. If someone treats you like air, maybe
you should imagine that you don't know what is
going on with THEM that day- maybe they had bad
news, maybe they don't feel well etc etc.
Same thing with the homeopath!! These are not
friendships they are specific interactions.
If you want to charm people and see how much
they 'like' you - go into a sales job- that will
work well there.
If the remedy is not right etc, go get another one,
stick with it for awhile- I got a lot of useful remedies
that really helped me by sticking with it.
Your job is to make real friends and do activities
that interest you and engage in normal social
things for your age group - you are not going
to get along with everyone but you want a core
group of friends you can really feel at home with.
that is your base support and then you won't care
about all this other stuff. If someone came to
paint your house you would want someone
that was friendly, knew how to do their job right-
but that is it- it is a work relationship-
If the painter was a jerk and would not answer you
etc I would fire him. Not acceptable.
to see how other people are going to react-
it is all distorted.
You don't go into the grocery store and keep
hanging around the check out clerk- you realize
that is a 5 minute interaction, same thing
with the bank, same thing with the dentist- those
people are not there to reject you , they are there
to do a job. If someone treats you like air, maybe
you should imagine that you don't know what is
going on with THEM that day- maybe they had bad
news, maybe they don't feel well etc etc.
Same thing with the homeopath!! These are not
friendships they are specific interactions.
If you want to charm people and see how much
they 'like' you - go into a sales job- that will
work well there.
If the remedy is not right etc, go get another one,
stick with it for awhile- I got a lot of useful remedies
that really helped me by sticking with it.
Your job is to make real friends and do activities
that interest you and engage in normal social
things for your age group - you are not going
to get along with everyone but you want a core
group of friends you can really feel at home with.
that is your base support and then you won't care
about all this other stuff. If someone came to
paint your house you would want someone
that was friendly, knew how to do their job right-
but that is it- it is a work relationship-
If the painter was a jerk and would not answer you
etc I would fire him. Not acceptable.
♡ simone717 last decade
I know i know. But if everyone is treating you well. Or at least give you that feeling and than some people do not... then there is a problem. Would it not make you feel Bad? Would you not expect everyone to treat you that way?
for example: If you go into a new school for an interview to start going to that school and the first teacher that walks by the office and sees you and says to you 'you will be in my class ' because he instantly liked you for some reason, it makes you feel good. Than a homeopath treating me 'normally'... not good.
I will stop talking about this. Because its pointless, noone will be able to get through to me. I will see what I can do to calm myself. But thing is since I see this woman in person, there is much less of a chance that I let my displeasure out. But I might act uninterested on next appointment as a result. I dont know. There will be a bit of hurt feeling so I wont be able to act all happy again
...I will try to relax now and stay reasonable. Ok no matter what remedy I get I will take it. She has lots of info about me, she saw me in person, she must at least give me a remedy that is close.
I even told her that the ghost dreams of getting stabbed in the back where the only bad dreams that left me feeling a bit unsafe when I woke up. Otherwise no dreams have an effect on me. And when I talked about work I told her that I often fear since I work in a resthome with some mentally unstable people living there, that I worry that someone might attack me with a knife when I am turned away and dont see what is going on behind me (when I am inside the residents rooms and using some loud tools.). Also there is a female resident who likes me a lot I think. She always gives me sweets and I have to put them in my mouth but the moment I get away from her moments later I spit them out. I know myself this is unreasonable but I have this worry that she is trying to poison me or that she put something in those sweets. How could I trust her and not think she has some hidden motive? She is from a different country. Africa. And since I know this resident is a bit mentally unstable aswell
Ah I wrote to much.
Lets stop talking about this. It makes me uncomfortable because I know I am behaving a bit to arrogant or something similar with this how I am being treated thing. It is uncomfortable.
thanks for the advice
for example: If you go into a new school for an interview to start going to that school and the first teacher that walks by the office and sees you and says to you 'you will be in my class ' because he instantly liked you for some reason, it makes you feel good. Than a homeopath treating me 'normally'... not good.
I will stop talking about this. Because its pointless, noone will be able to get through to me. I will see what I can do to calm myself. But thing is since I see this woman in person, there is much less of a chance that I let my displeasure out. But I might act uninterested on next appointment as a result. I dont know. There will be a bit of hurt feeling so I wont be able to act all happy again
...I will try to relax now and stay reasonable. Ok no matter what remedy I get I will take it. She has lots of info about me, she saw me in person, she must at least give me a remedy that is close.
I even told her that the ghost dreams of getting stabbed in the back where the only bad dreams that left me feeling a bit unsafe when I woke up. Otherwise no dreams have an effect on me. And when I talked about work I told her that I often fear since I work in a resthome with some mentally unstable people living there, that I worry that someone might attack me with a knife when I am turned away and dont see what is going on behind me (when I am inside the residents rooms and using some loud tools.). Also there is a female resident who likes me a lot I think. She always gives me sweets and I have to put them in my mouth but the moment I get away from her moments later I spit them out. I know myself this is unreasonable but I have this worry that she is trying to poison me or that she put something in those sweets. How could I trust her and not think she has some hidden motive? She is from a different country. Africa. And since I know this resident is a bit mentally unstable aswell
Ah I wrote to much.
Lets stop talking about this. It makes me uncomfortable because I know I am behaving a bit to arrogant or something similar with this how I am being treated thing. It is uncomfortable.
thanks for the advice
starface last decade
Just going to say one more thing-
this is all about outside validation
to give you a sense of yourself.
It is unreliable information bc
everyone has problems. You want
to get your own solid sense of your
value and then you can look at everyone
neutrally and be objective. You still
seem like you are in the storm of
high school and that goes on for some
people forever.
Ever see the movie Gandhi-if not
you should watch it. He had his
value and then went beyond it.
It would also be great if you ever
took tai chi or one of those martial
arts bc it makes you get in your
body and have a whole different sense
of what it means to just be here in
a body.
Enough said , have a good night.
this is all about outside validation
to give you a sense of yourself.
It is unreliable information bc
everyone has problems. You want
to get your own solid sense of your
value and then you can look at everyone
neutrally and be objective. You still
seem like you are in the storm of
high school and that goes on for some
people forever.
Ever see the movie Gandhi-if not
you should watch it. He had his
value and then went beyond it.
It would also be great if you ever
took tai chi or one of those martial
arts bc it makes you get in your
body and have a whole different sense
of what it means to just be here in
a body.
Enough said , have a good night.
♡ simone717 last decade
I wanted the debate to end just so that I would not get comments like this one 'enough said' because this implies to me that people are unhappy with me or not happy with me anymore at least. I mean with me there is this thin line. Either you are very happy with me, or all else feels like people are unhappy with me, this black & white thing, no middle.. thats how I felt before I had a short sleep in the afternoon. But now I am ok and not bothered by the the comment 'enough said' & homeopath not being more in contact with me. Thing is I want to do the right things and be a good patient. Like the perfect patient. So that people are happy with me. I often, like now in this situation, know exactly what the right thing to do is and do it, but it is just to get approval. Here I was behaving unreasonable earlier and than I come back and let everyone know that I see how unreasonable it is, that it is my problem etc and do what the right thing would be then. THis is approval seeking?? So that people see how I do the right thing, to make them interested in me again or happy with me again. It makes me feel great because I know I couldnt do better and people must think good things of me. But all good only for as long as I am paid attention too. If despite this effort or the moment the contact is slipping away again... the same pattern repeats and I get angry for being treated like this, ignored, not shown interest etc. So because of this I know my self awareness, me mentioning and saying the right things always isnt really genuine. (some hidden motives at work). I mean it is isnt that I lie. Or fool people. I try to do all the good things I say. It is just that I notice a need behind this. I know that something isnt right. That something not really 100% genuine.
So this is just a compensation I think, this behavior which again came up at the beginning of this post - where I HAVE to let people know that I am doing the right thing or that I am reasonable, which was getting sleep & not feeling bothered by the treatment of the homeopath anymore etc. Which is the attempt to win people over again I think.
It is just funny how this is all so interconnected and how it always pans out so perfectly. How whatever I do is for this one purpose and it is quite effective unless despite this effort people still keep ignoring me. Than I just feel so terrible, angry and can become quite dramatic lol. I feel very hurt than. terrible terrible. This pattern I think is hard for people to get to see. If I dont reveal this about myself, people dont know about it.
hope this does not sound like I am a dog now (lol). Hmm no I dont think so. I know myself a bit better now. Being like a dog is a sensitive point for me because appearing low is one. So it is just that I think
So this is just a compensation I think, this behavior which again came up at the beginning of this post - where I HAVE to let people know that I am doing the right thing or that I am reasonable, which was getting sleep & not feeling bothered by the treatment of the homeopath anymore etc. Which is the attempt to win people over again I think.
It is just funny how this is all so interconnected and how it always pans out so perfectly. How whatever I do is for this one purpose and it is quite effective unless despite this effort people still keep ignoring me. Than I just feel so terrible, angry and can become quite dramatic lol. I feel very hurt than. terrible terrible. This pattern I think is hard for people to get to see. If I dont reveal this about myself, people dont know about it.
hope this does not sound like I am a dog now (lol). Hmm no I dont think so. I know myself a bit better now. Being like a dog is a sensitive point for me because appearing low is one. So it is just that I think
starface last decade
tonights dreams...
I think I have the perfect combination of high sexuality, murder, big ego, fear of getting raped I guess as in dream 3 it is.
I seriously have no doubt about platina being my remedy any longer. for a number of reasons/things that happened over the past month which I monitored, just to be certain it isnt me who wants to be platina. This whole special feelings when I started work and pain from not being able to be myself. The life story of the african woman at work who sounded just like a queen who had it all, nice appearance, millionaire husband etc.
The thing that happened when I took tarantula, which was that I talked in a humorus way about black people whenever I saw them while on the beach (while aggravating)... when this happened I just thought this is a proving because I took a 10M of platina before and nothing more.
Than there are the results with the BDD and depression and everything and even my mother commented that I seem to be much better. I am working again, went to homeopath thanks to platina. My voice sounding much better. All the phsicals and how I feel stress have it.
I have this looking down symptom. For example if I mention this next thing I am about to say I get this symptom of looking down from a height on others (my homeopath in this case)
...Now again I am in this position where I know my remedy and have to wait for some trained homeopath who I gave many clues about my remedy to prescribe the correct remedy. And there is a 90% chance that she wont. I just have this feeling.
It is easy to say that I am wrong about everything because i am not trained etc, but I am different. I understand that is what people always think when someone tries to act as if he knows it all, that he is wrong. But I doubt this is the case here.
I also think I have this symptom where I have to keep talking and talking about myself in attempt to feel good. It is like a subtle boasting.
Yesterday when I described the dream about schumacher the thought of 'trashing the opponent' came up but I did not want to write it down here because it might sound to much like platina and than I might get told I am just corrupting stuff. But there is this 'ego reaction' when I talk/think about big things, when pride is mentioned, when trashing the opponent comes up. It brings me in this high ego state, where i feel ready to fight. I get so focused. And there definately is a reaction of intensity. Those are words that trigger something in me.
anyway I will stop here.
Here are the dreams:
1. sexually inapropriate thing... I was dressed in female clothes - these type of dreams are appearing again for past few weeks
2. I was on holiday at the adriatic sea in europe again. There was a bit of fear of heights, having to cross a large bridge when we go home again. hate heights
3. I can only remember there was a man coming to the toilet while I was just finished and ready to go out. I think I felt a bit afraid of him doing something to me. Then he was dead because I killed him apparently and I felt like either cleaning up the evidence or running quickly out of fear that I dont have time before someone will come into the room and see. So then I ran on some hill I had a bag of evidence with me that I tried to burn, but soldiers were around. Not sure but I think someone was shooting at me. I didnt feel safe I think anymore
I think I have the perfect combination of high sexuality, murder, big ego, fear of getting raped I guess as in dream 3 it is.
I seriously have no doubt about platina being my remedy any longer. for a number of reasons/things that happened over the past month which I monitored, just to be certain it isnt me who wants to be platina. This whole special feelings when I started work and pain from not being able to be myself. The life story of the african woman at work who sounded just like a queen who had it all, nice appearance, millionaire husband etc.
The thing that happened when I took tarantula, which was that I talked in a humorus way about black people whenever I saw them while on the beach (while aggravating)... when this happened I just thought this is a proving because I took a 10M of platina before and nothing more.
Than there are the results with the BDD and depression and everything and even my mother commented that I seem to be much better. I am working again, went to homeopath thanks to platina. My voice sounding much better. All the phsicals and how I feel stress have it.
I have this looking down symptom. For example if I mention this next thing I am about to say I get this symptom of looking down from a height on others (my homeopath in this case)
...Now again I am in this position where I know my remedy and have to wait for some trained homeopath who I gave many clues about my remedy to prescribe the correct remedy. And there is a 90% chance that she wont. I just have this feeling.
It is easy to say that I am wrong about everything because i am not trained etc, but I am different. I understand that is what people always think when someone tries to act as if he knows it all, that he is wrong. But I doubt this is the case here.
I also think I have this symptom where I have to keep talking and talking about myself in attempt to feel good. It is like a subtle boasting.
Yesterday when I described the dream about schumacher the thought of 'trashing the opponent' came up but I did not want to write it down here because it might sound to much like platina and than I might get told I am just corrupting stuff. But there is this 'ego reaction' when I talk/think about big things, when pride is mentioned, when trashing the opponent comes up. It brings me in this high ego state, where i feel ready to fight. I get so focused. And there definately is a reaction of intensity. Those are words that trigger something in me.
anyway I will stop here.
Here are the dreams:
1. sexually inapropriate thing... I was dressed in female clothes - these type of dreams are appearing again for past few weeks
2. I was on holiday at the adriatic sea in europe again. There was a bit of fear of heights, having to cross a large bridge when we go home again. hate heights
3. I can only remember there was a man coming to the toilet while I was just finished and ready to go out. I think I felt a bit afraid of him doing something to me. Then he was dead because I killed him apparently and I felt like either cleaning up the evidence or running quickly out of fear that I dont have time before someone will come into the room and see. So then I ran on some hill I had a bag of evidence with me that I tried to burn, but soldiers were around. Not sure but I think someone was shooting at me. I didnt feel safe I think anymore
starface last decade
^^^
I could not proof read it for mistakes because I am late to work by an hour again as is the case everyday. I dont know why this happens. Funny thing is when my brother was still here... i was angry at him for taking so long in the mornings so that we are always late by about 10 minutes. Now that he is gone and I am alone... I am late by about an hour or so everyday. Lol. But i knew back than already why I am angry at my brother. THat there must be something in me
I could not proof read it for mistakes because I am late to work by an hour again as is the case everyday. I dont know why this happens. Funny thing is when my brother was still here... i was angry at him for taking so long in the mornings so that we are always late by about 10 minutes. Now that he is gone and I am alone... I am late by about an hour or so everyday. Lol. But i knew back than already why I am angry at my brother. THat there must be something in me
starface last decade
I said, 'enough said' bc you said
you wanted to end the conversation
and I did not want to go on and on
past your wishes, ignoring the
'boundary you set up'. I did ignore
it a bit- sorry for that.
Again this is about you trying to find
out how you should be from outside
validation.
There are two problems going on here.
One is: Even with people who feel
Ok about themselves you will
notice that some people are very
good socially and others not so good.
These are things anyone can learn
and practice to get better socially.
Such as: 1. People who really LIKE
other people have tons of people
liking them ( you cannot fake this)
2. In communicating with others
they have found that if you talk
more than (I think) 2 minutes then
others will start to feel irritated or
not want to pay attention to you.
Good conversation is like you talk
for 2 minutes and then the other
person responds for 2 minutes and
so forth. There is a great flow there.
You can observe this with different people( I have one friend who talks
like a radio announcer and can keep
going for like 10 minutes and after
a bit I start feeling like literally putting
my hands up in a time out signal so
I can say-excuse me I have to check
on something etc just to get a break!!-
These things are why I sent my sales
people to a Dale Carnegie course to
improve their people skills ( read
one of those books) then there are
books about people who are Empaths
and pick up everything about everyone
and just get confused and have to leave the area. There are tips in those
books about how to keep learning
how to re focus back on yourself.
So the above is Section one on learning
social skills, improving them and
also going to therapy where they
send you out with little jobs of being
social then you discuss after you do
them.
Section2 is your being raised in a home
where you were not validated-I don't know how long this went on for, or
if you ever felt Ok and were not
self conscious about everything. This
is how a child learns thru being seen
and being validated. If this never
happens you get stuck in a stage-
like one of the mineral stages and think about it- if you
are always NON validated the world is going to be
a scary place and naturally you would wonder- am
I going to be attacked, or this person was Nice and now
are they going to change that and be nasty?
this is what happened to you in your house so this
is an outpicturing of how you were treated.
Anytime you are waiting to be validated you put
yourself in a victim position and who KNOWS??
how messed up perhaps the person you want to give
you attention is???? That is why you have to know
your value and your ethics and just live according to
your own standards-if you work on the section 1
and have mastered basic social skills,if people don't
like you or pay attention then it is THEIR problem
and you are wanting things from someone who
cannot do it. Especially narcissist people ( basically
my entire family was like that and they had no
clue about giving attention, they just wanted all
the attention bc they are narcissists. It makes you feel
empty. so you must make sure that you have
your own standards and ethics and the people who
are your 'friends' not talking about homeopath,
and drs. etc- but your friends are healthy enough
to give and take, keep their word and are not
takers!! You look for these people on purpose-
the healthy friends. In high school etc there is a lot
of one upsmanship, and just general crap that eases
off as people get older- however you LOOK for
the right friend qualities and do not get frustrated
by expecting everyone out there to treat you right-
or like you-bc the world does not work like that-
if you know your own ethics etc they will respect you
and then you go find your REAL friends- you shop
around for them.
you wanted to end the conversation
and I did not want to go on and on
past your wishes, ignoring the
'boundary you set up'. I did ignore
it a bit- sorry for that.
Again this is about you trying to find
out how you should be from outside
validation.
There are two problems going on here.
One is: Even with people who feel
Ok about themselves you will
notice that some people are very
good socially and others not so good.
These are things anyone can learn
and practice to get better socially.
Such as: 1. People who really LIKE
other people have tons of people
liking them ( you cannot fake this)
2. In communicating with others
they have found that if you talk
more than (I think) 2 minutes then
others will start to feel irritated or
not want to pay attention to you.
Good conversation is like you talk
for 2 minutes and then the other
person responds for 2 minutes and
so forth. There is a great flow there.
You can observe this with different people( I have one friend who talks
like a radio announcer and can keep
going for like 10 minutes and after
a bit I start feeling like literally putting
my hands up in a time out signal so
I can say-excuse me I have to check
on something etc just to get a break!!-
These things are why I sent my sales
people to a Dale Carnegie course to
improve their people skills ( read
one of those books) then there are
books about people who are Empaths
and pick up everything about everyone
and just get confused and have to leave the area. There are tips in those
books about how to keep learning
how to re focus back on yourself.
So the above is Section one on learning
social skills, improving them and
also going to therapy where they
send you out with little jobs of being
social then you discuss after you do
them.
Section2 is your being raised in a home
where you were not validated-I don't know how long this went on for, or
if you ever felt Ok and were not
self conscious about everything. This
is how a child learns thru being seen
and being validated. If this never
happens you get stuck in a stage-
like one of the mineral stages and think about it- if you
are always NON validated the world is going to be
a scary place and naturally you would wonder- am
I going to be attacked, or this person was Nice and now
are they going to change that and be nasty?
this is what happened to you in your house so this
is an outpicturing of how you were treated.
Anytime you are waiting to be validated you put
yourself in a victim position and who KNOWS??
how messed up perhaps the person you want to give
you attention is???? That is why you have to know
your value and your ethics and just live according to
your own standards-if you work on the section 1
and have mastered basic social skills,if people don't
like you or pay attention then it is THEIR problem
and you are wanting things from someone who
cannot do it. Especially narcissist people ( basically
my entire family was like that and they had no
clue about giving attention, they just wanted all
the attention bc they are narcissists. It makes you feel
empty. so you must make sure that you have
your own standards and ethics and the people who
are your 'friends' not talking about homeopath,
and drs. etc- but your friends are healthy enough
to give and take, keep their word and are not
takers!! You look for these people on purpose-
the healthy friends. In high school etc there is a lot
of one upsmanship, and just general crap that eases
off as people get older- however you LOOK for
the right friend qualities and do not get frustrated
by expecting everyone out there to treat you right-
or like you-bc the world does not work like that-
if you know your own ethics etc they will respect you
and then you go find your REAL friends- you shop
around for them.
♡ simone717 last decade
He chose someone experienced
enough and smart enough to pick
the remedy so these validation
mental issues are calmed down.
The homeopath is not a therapist-
he has not even received the remedy
yet! all the mental issues are looked
over by the homeopath and I would
trust that she knows how to do her
job and wait and see how the
remedy acts.-I had several homeopaths
who were very 'understanding' but
I never got a good prescription out
of them. My best prescriptions were
from someone very smart, had
strong boundaries and did
not empathize with me but was
kind and I would say 'observed'
me in a very neutral manner. This
ship has not even sailed yet, so
lets not have it sink at the dock.
enough and smart enough to pick
the remedy so these validation
mental issues are calmed down.
The homeopath is not a therapist-
he has not even received the remedy
yet! all the mental issues are looked
over by the homeopath and I would
trust that she knows how to do her
job and wait and see how the
remedy acts.-I had several homeopaths
who were very 'understanding' but
I never got a good prescription out
of them. My best prescriptions were
from someone very smart, had
strong boundaries and did
not empathize with me but was
kind and I would say 'observed'
me in a very neutral manner. This
ship has not even sailed yet, so
lets not have it sink at the dock.
♡ simone717 last decade
Hi-that book Lycopodium mentioned
would be great for you to get-I used it at work
and had the employees take the test for types.
It helped in a huge way, in communicating with
each other. For example the last letter you are a P
or a J. P people like all options open as long as possible.
J people like to make a decision and take a route.
I am a J. All the sales people were a P. In meetings,
I would try to end the meetings with a decision and
then they would somehow sabotage the decisions
and we were right back where we started.
Once we all understood what we were doing,
we then laughed about it and they were not
so stubborn about agreeing to some decisions
rather than waiting to decide at the last minute
which was always a disaster.Very good information
to know in that book.
would be great for you to get-I used it at work
and had the employees take the test for types.
It helped in a huge way, in communicating with
each other. For example the last letter you are a P
or a J. P people like all options open as long as possible.
J people like to make a decision and take a route.
I am a J. All the sales people were a P. In meetings,
I would try to end the meetings with a decision and
then they would somehow sabotage the decisions
and we were right back where we started.
Once we all understood what we were doing,
we then laughed about it and they were not
so stubborn about agreeing to some decisions
rather than waiting to decide at the last minute
which was always a disaster.Very good information
to know in that book.
♡ simone717 last decade
I havent read your replies yet.
Thing is I feel stupid and regret what I said in my last 2 posts of today. It always creates emotionally some uncomfortabilty and I just want to pull away, avoid when I present myself the opposite from not good enough. When I try to put myself in a good light. It feels ugly, it feels uncomfortable.
Enough of me. Need a few days to get over this uncomfortable feeling caused by trying to make myself appear in a good way.
I dont care what remedy I get prescribed at the moment.
Thing is I feel stupid and regret what I said in my last 2 posts of today. It always creates emotionally some uncomfortabilty and I just want to pull away, avoid when I present myself the opposite from not good enough. When I try to put myself in a good light. It feels ugly, it feels uncomfortable.
Enough of me. Need a few days to get over this uncomfortable feeling caused by trying to make myself appear in a good way.
I dont care what remedy I get prescribed at the moment.
starface last decade
I admire you for putting it all out
there.
You probably feel weird putting
yourself in a good light bc that
probably has not 'lasted' long
at your home. You have to get
used to it. Just like people in jail
sometimes want to go back to jail
bc they are comfortable in their
routine.It is a normal reaction.
there.
You probably feel weird putting
yourself in a good light bc that
probably has not 'lasted' long
at your home. You have to get
used to it. Just like people in jail
sometimes want to go back to jail
bc they are comfortable in their
routine.It is a normal reaction.
♡ simone717 last decade
Yea it is easy to stay unhappy and depressed. This way people will ignore you and not attack. So trying to make yourself look like someone great or good, feels bad afterwards. Brings up old stuff I guess from whenever you did it someone was there to quickly put you down again.
Thats what it is I think. A vulnerability to attack.
The conflict between this 'ego' desire to put myself up at first but then comes the fear on the other hand afterwards when I do that. Or not fear but the emotional uncomfortability.
Funny thing is I was convinced I am natrum muriaticum in the past because of this emotional issues. But it never worked for me, no effect. Then I took platina a few times and this emotional hurt came up always a few days after aggravation. And even than I thought to myself whether this means my natrum muriaticum state has come up. So that I quickly need to act now and take natrum muriaticum so that this emotional hurt can get cured... but now I know platina has this too. So no natrum muriaticum required. Good that I did not spoil it by taking natrum as I thought the right thing to do would be.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 14 Mar 2012 03:46:17 GMT]
Thats what it is I think. A vulnerability to attack.
The conflict between this 'ego' desire to put myself up at first but then comes the fear on the other hand afterwards when I do that. Or not fear but the emotional uncomfortability.
Funny thing is I was convinced I am natrum muriaticum in the past because of this emotional issues. But it never worked for me, no effect. Then I took platina a few times and this emotional hurt came up always a few days after aggravation. And even than I thought to myself whether this means my natrum muriaticum state has come up. So that I quickly need to act now and take natrum muriaticum so that this emotional hurt can get cured... but now I know platina has this too. So no natrum muriaticum required. Good that I did not spoil it by taking natrum as I thought the right thing to do would be.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 14 Mar 2012 03:46:17 GMT]
starface last decade
You are totally right about your
first few paragraphs. Think if you
had a puppy that everytime it jumped into your
lap someone beat it with a stick. Is that dog
going to act normal or happy? It is reacting to conditioning
and it would take a new owner months to get it
to trust and behave like normal. so unhappy and depressed
is a good defense mechanism. Many times in family
dynamics when someone starts to change the others
try to enforce the old behaviour. Bc new behaviour means
they have to readjust all their views on you and on
themselves and they resist change and perhaps
also have low awareness, or an investment in controlling
you that makes them feel BETTER/superior. Not even
that they are stupid but they have not and do not
want to address their own stuck emotions about past things.
That is what I meant by being outnumbered and not
having other support like a therapist/friends to also
have enough healthy, good acceptance from other
people to counteract what you have been used to.But
part of this is very difficult when you have to walk
back into the toxic environment-where no one is
in agreement to you changing the dynamic.
first few paragraphs. Think if you
had a puppy that everytime it jumped into your
lap someone beat it with a stick. Is that dog
going to act normal or happy? It is reacting to conditioning
and it would take a new owner months to get it
to trust and behave like normal. so unhappy and depressed
is a good defense mechanism. Many times in family
dynamics when someone starts to change the others
try to enforce the old behaviour. Bc new behaviour means
they have to readjust all their views on you and on
themselves and they resist change and perhaps
also have low awareness, or an investment in controlling
you that makes them feel BETTER/superior. Not even
that they are stupid but they have not and do not
want to address their own stuck emotions about past things.
That is what I meant by being outnumbered and not
having other support like a therapist/friends to also
have enough healthy, good acceptance from other
people to counteract what you have been used to.But
part of this is very difficult when you have to walk
back into the toxic environment-where no one is
in agreement to you changing the dynamic.
♡ simone717 last decade
hmm thanks for that info 'lycopodium'. I had dreams of shumacher winning races after his comeback. seeing the podium celebrations, him lifting the trophies, overtaking other drivers. SOmetimes I dreamed about his car breaking down immediately and getting parked into the garage..
...I never liked schumacher. To me he is of platina constitution. A total sick ego who just wants to win. Because only that way he can feel good or live. He is also the total devil. So often he tried to cheat through something. And his arrogance. I just dont like him really, But I dont hate him. Hope he wins a race this year which seems like it will be his final year in the sport. As a person, his behaviours I just dont like. And this 'sick' will to win. He isnt happy if he is just second. Thats what I dont like. The way he handles that.
Schumacher is a sick ego to me. I just see this 'crazy' need/desire in him whenever I look at him on the TV. But this desire is devil like.
There is also another formula 1 driver. Called ayrton senna, who died in a crash a long time ago. This guy was also about winning but no devilish traits at all in him. There was a movie made about him and he seemed like something I would want to be. He was the 'healthy' version of platina to me, totally the opposite of schumacher in his behavior. I was speechless how great this guy was in his behavior, how he caried himself. He definately was something else from the rest. No devilish behavior or sick ego as in shumacher at all visible. Well no devilish sick ego. That is what puts me off.
In the movie they showed once a race where he (ayrton senna) was in first place and in second place was his teammate. In that race he attempted to 'trash the opponent'. He was like by 1 minute ahead of him with only a few laps to go until the end of the race, which is a lot. Usually everyone in the first place would be in cruise control after such lead just to get the win home. But he kept on the limit every lap trying to still drive faster and faster to make the margin to the second placed driver bigger, but than he made an error and crashed out. Seems like winning was not enough for him. He had to win by a mile. It was interesting in the interview after the race - the guy in second place (his teammate) who won that race after ayrton senna crashed out than talked about that ayrton sennas pride got in his way, because he tried to humiliate him by winning by such big margin. And this is what caused him to loose the race.
Interesting movie. To me this guy must have been the more healthy or at least not the devilish platina type. Because who else pushes like that? In the movie they showed that after some races they had to lift him out of the car because he could not get out. No strength and directly drove him to the hospital. If thats not a bit to much than I dont know what it is.
I admire him, but not schumacher. He is to devilish. He isnt focused on just himself and ignores the politics and corruption like ayrton senna did. Shumacher is the one who often won by some 'foul' play. Schumacher just cared about winning no matter how, but the other driver did it with style, in a great way like he some god.
My brother who took platina before but it caused no reaction for him watched that movie aswell and had to say about the movie that they potrayed that formula 1 driver like he was a god or something (so it isnt just me who saw it that way), and we joked about it later how they do this on purpose just to dramatise things, to sell more copies of the movie etc.
Ah that was much longer than I intended.
My brother is a big fan of schumacher though
[message edited by starface on Wed, 14 Mar 2012 04:45:14 GMT]
...I never liked schumacher. To me he is of platina constitution. A total sick ego who just wants to win. Because only that way he can feel good or live. He is also the total devil. So often he tried to cheat through something. And his arrogance. I just dont like him really, But I dont hate him. Hope he wins a race this year which seems like it will be his final year in the sport. As a person, his behaviours I just dont like. And this 'sick' will to win. He isnt happy if he is just second. Thats what I dont like. The way he handles that.
Schumacher is a sick ego to me. I just see this 'crazy' need/desire in him whenever I look at him on the TV. But this desire is devil like.
There is also another formula 1 driver. Called ayrton senna, who died in a crash a long time ago. This guy was also about winning but no devilish traits at all in him. There was a movie made about him and he seemed like something I would want to be. He was the 'healthy' version of platina to me, totally the opposite of schumacher in his behavior. I was speechless how great this guy was in his behavior, how he caried himself. He definately was something else from the rest. No devilish behavior or sick ego as in shumacher at all visible. Well no devilish sick ego. That is what puts me off.
In the movie they showed once a race where he (ayrton senna) was in first place and in second place was his teammate. In that race he attempted to 'trash the opponent'. He was like by 1 minute ahead of him with only a few laps to go until the end of the race, which is a lot. Usually everyone in the first place would be in cruise control after such lead just to get the win home. But he kept on the limit every lap trying to still drive faster and faster to make the margin to the second placed driver bigger, but than he made an error and crashed out. Seems like winning was not enough for him. He had to win by a mile. It was interesting in the interview after the race - the guy in second place (his teammate) who won that race after ayrton senna crashed out than talked about that ayrton sennas pride got in his way, because he tried to humiliate him by winning by such big margin. And this is what caused him to loose the race.
Interesting movie. To me this guy must have been the more healthy or at least not the devilish platina type. Because who else pushes like that? In the movie they showed that after some races they had to lift him out of the car because he could not get out. No strength and directly drove him to the hospital. If thats not a bit to much than I dont know what it is.
I admire him, but not schumacher. He is to devilish. He isnt focused on just himself and ignores the politics and corruption like ayrton senna did. Shumacher is the one who often won by some 'foul' play. Schumacher just cared about winning no matter how, but the other driver did it with style, in a great way like he some god.
My brother who took platina before but it caused no reaction for him watched that movie aswell and had to say about the movie that they potrayed that formula 1 driver like he was a god or something (so it isnt just me who saw it that way), and we joked about it later how they do this on purpose just to dramatise things, to sell more copies of the movie etc.
Ah that was much longer than I intended.
My brother is a big fan of schumacher though
[message edited by starface on Wed, 14 Mar 2012 04:45:14 GMT]
starface last decade
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