Dr Anuj Srivastav please advise.

Please help me Dr Anuj,


I am a 43 years old woman.
I have a problem of anxiety and depression for a long period of time. I am tired of writing to so many doctors here in the forum about my conditions. Some they prescribed remedies and vanished away after some time leaving me and my condition in the middle of nowhere.

I want to be happy and healthy. I don’t want to give up on anything.
I am a working mom. I have a 10 years old daughter. No help from anybody, neither mentally nor physically and financially. I am still trying my best to give my daughter the best. I am still trying to keep my marriage work, eventhough I have a pathetic, childish, lazy and a procrastinator as my husband. He should at least help me financially if not on other things.
But no, eventhough I have a husband, I feel alone. I fight with him a lot which is affecting my child as well.
Most of the time I feel like leaving him, but I don’t know why, I can’t do that. I am too afraid to be lonely. I fear of anymore bad things happen to me. I fear of death. I fear of dreadful diseases. I fear of my mental illness/my health.
When we have arguments, I freak out when he says I can’t live with you or let’s separate. It’s me who is managing everything here and he has the power of emotionally hurting me or threatening me. I feel like I am so stuck in this relationship. I am so tight and helpless.

My Likes and Dislikes:

I like to travel, eat out, have fun with my daughter. I do get bored easily. I hate criticism. I can’t tolerate when people backbite. I am easily offended and humiliated. I don’t talk to those who are not a clean hearted human being. I hate selfish people. I like salt than sugar. I like chicken.
I hate it when somebody tries to take advantage of my kind behaviors.
I like to be treated good. I hate those people who don’t use their common sense on small things and ask for my help. I feel like they are exploiting me.
It sounds funny but I really hate them who don’t get the idea at once. Dumb people irritate me asking too many unnecessary questions (I have some at work).


Current problems:

Lately, I have been self prescribing remedies for my current problems. Recently one of my uncle’s died horribly. He committed suicide. I am so scared when I think of his death. His own family didn’t take care of him properly. He was a burden for them. So they kept him locked inside a room. He could not tolerate that. He had mental diseases. He was a nice human being but died in a horrible way. I couldn’t cry on his death but I am too much sad inside and scared. I can’t think about him in a healthy way. His death is making me so disturbed. I fear of my own death too. I do not want that kind of death. I am mentally disturbed too because of not having support from anybody. So far I have tried Nat Mur 200 for 3 days and waited for the result for 3-4 days. I couldn’t see any benefits from that so I tried Ignatia Amara 200 for 2days. It seems i am 30-40% okay so far. I am going to take the third dose tonight.

I am too much irritated and frustrated. I don’t talk to people because I feel they talk nonsense. I want to stay alone but I can’t do that as well, because of my uncle’s thoughts. When I am alone I think about him a lot and get disturbed. I don’t talk about his death with anybody, it makes me disturbed. I feel so pity for him. I can’t hear any bad news, it’s difficult to grasp any bad things happen to any loved ones.


Please suggest if I am doing correctly or should I change the remedy ?