I have Anxiety attacks from Diseases

I am 29 male 177cm 83kg married and have 10 month boy. I work as paractical engeneer at mobile network company,
every one says that I have high Ptanciel and hi-q ,
but I am lazy and get bored very fast and losing interest in isues very fast.
I have Anxiety attacks from Diseases and I am not sure with my futere
when I was 19 I had Inhibitions with girls but after everything was good.

Three month after I married We found out that my wife became ill cancer - nasopharynx she was then 22 ,
she was treated and now she is healthy and everything good ,
but i was in total shock
I become very nervous and anxious , I am very lazy and I do not sport and do not love to study , I sometimes have tantrums and I eat compulsively until I feel I explode , I am always hungry but i am not fat yet ,I have big Sexual appetite sometimes I'm talking dirty,I do not love very cold weather or drink, feel every little thing in myself and even in my close people,
I have a tendency to forget where I put things like keys or cell phone
My job bores me but is very convenient
Two yaers ago I was treated Agaricus
I felt it helped a little at first but then the anxieties returned the same,
Sometimes I act on impulse
thanks
Sometimes when I go outside and there was very hot weather, leaving a rash on the forearms and the abdominal area,
I suffer from a kind of costohondrotis at back under the shoulder blades area(backache) especially when cold air entered the area
I am not nice when I wake up in the morning
I love my family more than everything in the world
I heve desire to be rich
thank you a lot