Natrum Mur for deep depression

I have deep abandonment issues with both my mother and father. They were unable to be there for me emotionally and it has completely ruined my relationship with my baby's father (because I overly attach) My homeopath suggested I take Ignatia 1M but I take Ignatia 200c as needed... every 3-4 weeks for the past few months.

I am pregnant again with our second child (13 weeks) and we are separated because I am not able to detach with love though outside sources are helping me with this. I have taken Nat Mur 200c and told my homeopath that, she did not say much... but I also did not tell her any of this... This past weekend my baby's father and I planned on spending time together, me, him, and the baby, and he said he was going to go do stuff first but I was exhausted (I work, go to school, and take care of my baby full time, I live away from my family and his family helps out most of the time) No one was able to help me with the baby, I was ill, unable to go out, or even make food, barely take care of the child and I began to feel suicidal and just dropped off the baby to him at his mom's house.. where he was helping with something... and

Contemplated suicide but decided against it for the gratitude I reminded myself with.

I have taken Nat Mur 200c for the past three days and wonder if this long time depression (since I was 14 years old) will go away because I do not want to feel depressed and it is now causing things to complicate as I have worked so hard to simplify everything I had ruined...... helpp!!!
[Edited by Goldielocs27 on 2018-05-01 14:46:29]