obssesive comp.disorder

MYSELF A RETIRED GOVT.OFFICER 76,SUFFERING FROM THE ABOVE DESEASE FOR THE LAST MANY YEARS.THERE IS ALWAYS A CONFLICT BETWEEN MY FRIENDLY WILL AND THE ENEMY WILL AND MOST OF MY MENTAL ENERGY IS DRAINED OFF IN THIS WAY OF CONFLICT.SOME OF THE FUNNIEST AND USELESS HABITS HAVE GRIPPED ME-UNDER THE ORDER OF ENEMY WILL.FEAR FROM OTHER THAN HINDUS RELIGION PEOPLE LIKE MUSLIMS SIKHS ETC.I HAVE TWO DAUGHTERS BOTH MARRIED AND WELL SETTLED.I AM VERY MUCH EMOTIONAL.DURING MY YOUTH I USED TO BE VERY HAUGHTY,GREEDY,PROUDY AND EASILY EXITED ANGRY MAN.DURIND CHILDHOOD, MOTHER EXPIRED WHEN I WAS 5 YRS. OLD, FATHER GOT REMARRIED.MY FATHER WAS ALSO A SEXY AND ANGRY MAN.I COULD NOT GET PROPER LOVE AND CARE FROM MY PARENTS.I GOT MARRIED WITH A GIRL WHO WAS LITTLE EDUCATED AND WAS UNDER THE GRIP OF EVIL SOUL USED TO GET EPILEPTIC LIKE FITS.I ARRANGED ALL TYPE OF TREATMENTS FOR HER BUT IN VAIN.ULTIMATELY SHE DIED AT AGE OF 70,LAST YEAR.IN THIS WAY I PASSED MY LIFE IN STRESS, STRAIN,PHOBIAS,STRUGGLES ETC.I AM AN ITELLECTUAL AND MY HOBBY IS HOMEOPATHY.READ KENT,BORRICK,SOME INDIAN HOMEOPATHS ETC.UNDER AN EXPERT HOMEOPATH CLLEAGUE WHILE IN SERVICE ABOUT 25 YRS.BACH.NOW A DAYS NO ANGER NO PRIDE ETC.STUDING SPRITUAL LITERATURE TOO. WITH KIND REGARGS AND BLESSINGS--SD MALHOTRA