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Mom in need of some help..
I am 26, mother of 3 children here, one in heaven and am due in July with our 5th. I have been studying homeopathy for over 2 years now and though I can find the right remedy for others I am having trouble with myself. Based on different cases, symptoms, etc. that I've read and the fact that Sepia worked during my period to relieve the intense painful cramps during two cycles that I've had since I was 12, it seemed plausible that Sepia was a remedy to try. The first period I used Sepia 30c with relief in minutes, the second period I had purchased 200c and used that with the same success, the third period I took a half dose dry of 200c (same as before), but gotten little relief, so I took another half dose after 10minutes and it was just as painful as before with no relief, took another half dose and the pain was intensified as though it had been made worse, I then gave in and took allopathic pain drugs, ibprofen. I purchased Sepia 1m and took first wet dose yesterday, took a nap immediately after and had a very vivid dream of trying to nap in my room, there were two doors in my room and the children kept coming on the one door waking me up, I awoke in anger and sent them out and closed the door just before closing my mother was in the doorway as though she wanted something but I closed it anyways, moments later she came to the second door which did not have a fixed door and I was unable to actually close it so I attempted to Prop it up to prevent her from entering, moments later my sister, her kids and my kids were at the window and the kids began climbing through an opening in the screen to get inside and my sister was standing there asking me questions to which I pushed the kids out the window and began yelling at everyone to go away. Then my husband came into the room, I wanted sex and told him so, then the phone rang, he left the room talking on the phone and I was frustrated but thought he'd come back, after minutes passed and I heard he was no longer on the phone I looked out and sawing him playing video games... Then I woke up from the dream. Besides this dream, I noticed no other changes and was still easily irritated with the kids so I succussed it 10 times and took a second wet dose this morning.So here is my complaints, I have felt very overwhelmed with the kids, house, family, animals, etc. over the past months and it's gotten increasingly worse to the point of resentment and anger. I am frustrated by the littlest thing, I can't handle the kids being too loud for too long, I absolutely loathe being touched, my daughter wants to pet my hair or tummy or give lots of kisses, my guess because I haven't been affectionate in the least the past few months and I HATE this about myself, I want to be the loving cuddling momma I was before but I find myself pulling away from them on touching and even yelling at them for it. My youngest is the most acceptible for this kind of affection, for her most times I will be affectionate and talk lovingly but if she climbs on my back and pulls my hair at the slightest I find myself losing my temper. Before I would control myself in my temper more but the past couple weeks I've been more aggressive allowing myself ashamedly to be rough with them.
Prior to being pregnant I go back and forth on my sexual desire though I am fine to go long periods of time without, my husband however wants it everyday or every other day and many times we will have sex for him, I used to resent this but don't anymore, sometimes though I just don't want to anyways.
We've been married for the past 6 years, 5 years of that has been spent living with my mother to help her out, at first because she and I were raising my nephew together and she couldn't afford the rent alone. Then my sister took him and moved across the country to Kentucky, my mother had such a close relationship with him as did my son (they were like brothers and my son suffered great depression when my sister kept them apart for 3 months) so my mom wanted to move too and due to finances and for the sake of my son we decided we would also move. So we moved to an apt in Ohio, and my mom lived with us there, then a month or so later my sister was ready to go back to CA because they hadnt found a job for her husband so we offered them to stay in my sons room, they stayed for a month, got a job and got their own place. This was greatly frustrating as my sister did not tend her kids, I was the one cleaning and cooking for everyone, we paid for everything and they did not feel obligated to help or give back in any way. I have always had an issue in my sister and my relationship, I am older but can't bring myself to tell her when she's wronging me, I get angry and resent her but always give in to what she wants even to my own detriment, this tends to be the case a lot, I always give too freely of things to please others.
I feel as though I'm totally burnt out, I am pretty unresponsive when the kids get hurt, I will wait for them to come to me, then hold them and shhh, but there is little feeling, I was never this way before and it's disturbing to me. I also enjoy things to be clean and orderly but have serious trouble doing anything now, I don't want to clean, when I do the two youngest just make another mess behind me and it's disappointing. I tend to procrastinate and will put off any cleaning for a week till things have piled up so much that it's ridiculous. I will clean if someone is going to come over cause I don't want them to see the horrid mess we live in.
I do best when I awake with the sun shining in the room, it puts me in a good mood, I am highly influenced by music and tend to listen to fast upbeat encouraging music as it lifts me up and gives me motivation to move about and then I will clean and can get a good amount done.
I had hypothryoidism, anemia and other issues which I reversed by taking high dose vitamins and minerals for 1.5 years, upon getting pregnant with my 3rd I had difficulty swallowing due to nausea and stopped taking them, I have a hard time starting new habits and thus never did get back in a routine of taking them and now I relapsed 2 years later and have had hair falling out again, my hair is pretty thin at this point. I put on 15 pounds in the first month of this pregnancy and gained another 10 since then. I have hirsutism and have suffered from that since I had my son 8 years ago, it's gotten progressively worse and worse. I am large breasted and they tend to hang low when not in a bra. I have a cystocele and rectocele that I first noticed after the birth of my first daughter 3.5 years ago.
I have dandruff and have suffered from that since I was a child, though I have more control now and do not scratch as I did when I was younger.
I have a toenail fungus that hasn't gone away since I first got it, only my big toes have it. When I was younger I suffered from very nasty smelling feet and suffered from athletes foot frequently. I stopped wearing shoes and began wearing sandals as an adult and haven't suffered from those since.
As a child I would have horrible outburts of anger and go into these terrible rages and tantrums, this was due to my sister and I fighting in some way, my sister would tell my mom 'her side' and I would always get in trouble. I was diagnosed ADD and ODD and frequently day dreamed. School was difficult for me as I could never pay attention, I did great with math and english, I loved both those subjects but could care less about the others, I rarely did homework and had low grades because of it despite my teachers telling my mom I was very smart I just didn't apply myself. I had the same issues in jr high and high school except in both I fell in with bad crowds for a time. Eventually I went to a continuation school and there I finally did my best, there was no strict requirements, I could earn my credits at my own pace and then I just soared, I earned over a hundred and fifty credits in one year and would've graduated but the school refused to let me for fear that they would get in trouble for letting a student graduate so quickly. I was moved to a different school for reasons that are probably not relevant and then I just halted, with only 18 credits left I decided to go work instead, I always enjoyed working and began when I was 14. I finished getting my credits just in the nick of time to graduate with the rest of my class.
I'm not sure what else may be relevant and I sorry if I went overboard and shared lots of irrelevant things : ) I would really appreciate some help as my biggest concern right now is my attitude towards my kids and my rising aggressiveness is concerning to me. Thanks for any help.
Nichole1808 on 2012-02-19
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Oh I think I should add that I spend most of my time during the day on the computer, I research a lot in health, have people that I help by answering questions for and generally am trying to just expand more and more on my knowledge for health. I greatly enjoy this but feel it's also another form of escape from the kids, mess, etc.
Nichole1808 last decade
Another thing, since I rarely get a chance to leave the house since hubby has the truck I tend to wear the same thing over and over again till it's dirty, I don't fix up my hair I generally leave it down and barely brush it. I used to love dressing up, getting prettied up but I have no one to impress in my home so I don't care, I also don't want even more laundry to deal with so I just wear the same thing as long as I can.
Nichole1808 last decade
Sepia is the first remedy which comes to mind when indifference develops towards family members .
In your case however as you have mentioned that you had outbursts of anger in childhood. Can you shed more light on your childhood .
(Generally Chamomilla is a remedy that firsts come to mind for snappish and peevish children )
In your case however as you have mentioned that you had outbursts of anger in childhood. Can you shed more light on your childhood .
(Generally Chamomilla is a remedy that firsts come to mind for snappish and peevish children )
vikas_grower last decade
My childhood was difficult. My mother was single raising three kids after leaving her husband who was sexually abusing my brother (not his son). My brother had many psychological issues because of this and my mom was struggling between working, keeping an eye on him and my younger sister who had severe asthma and was hospitalized frequently. During the times my mom was tending to my sister I was left with friends that she knew, probably from church but I didn't know who they were any of the times as they always changed.
My sister would lie to me all the time and tell me that mom liked it better when I wasn't there, this caused a lot of problems for me as I was already feeling unloved and neglected. To top that off I was also sexually abused and had even more issues because of it, like being interested in sex at a very young age constantly masturbating and having nightmares of being raped all the time. I also remember feeling like I was on some kind of drug or something at different points in my childhood, it's too difficult to describe the feeling and I've never done drugs so I have nothing to compare that feeling to but it was sorta 'out of this world' very very strange and happened on a handful or more of occasions.
I generally had my tantrums because of conflicts with my sister and my mother never hearing me, I was very angry because of this and had no control over my emotions, I would stomp my feet (we lived upstairs so it felt mighty effective as I could make the most noise this way) and would grab and sling or throw whatever was near me. There were occasions my mother would sit on me and hold me down to keep me from throwing things or doing things, I would claw her, scream and try to fight her off of me even spitting at her.
I had a huge fear of police officers as my mother would call them every time we had an issue, I remember one cop telling her that if I was his daughter he'd have thrown me down the stairs. On another occasion she was concerned and upset about us walking home from school rather than going to boys and girls club and took us to the police station where she talked with an officer then left us there. The officer told us we weren't going home, we were going somewhere else and attempted to scare the crap out of us, I was always the tough girl and my sister the crybaby but I loved her and looked out for her so I tried to make it out like it was no big deal and played with her most of the time. eventually, hours later my mom did come back to get us.
My aunt never liked me, especially since I was diagnosed with the ADD and ODD, I was the 'bad' child and no matter what I did I never have been able to change her perception of me. Finally at age 18 I'd had enough and started throwing it back in her face, like when she told me 'see it's hard to lose weight after having a baby' I told her 'yeah I can see that ____, it's been how long since ____ was born now?'
I used to write lots and lots of poems when I was younger and felt very close to God, most of my poems were actually very in depth for a child and my mom wanted me to write more to publish a book of them. I stopped writing when I was 16 and have only written once more since then.
I loved playing with younger kids, I always felt like I was playing mommy I guess and that was the number one thing I wanted to be when I grew up. I also enjoyed all aspects of babysitting and had no problems at all with changing diapers unlike other kids my age. When I was 13 I asked my mom what she would do if I got pregnant, I was desiring at that age to be pregnant despite being a total emotional wreck and still very immature.
I have ears that do not fold back like everyone elses and thus was tormented on numerous occasions by kids at school being called dumbo, anytime one of the boys said something I'd grab them by the shirt, spin in circles and send them flying. I enjoyed overpowering boys and that continued as I grew as well taking every opportunity to arm wrestle my guy friends. I also enjoyed physically wrestling boyfriends in an attempt to overpower them as well. One did overpower me and then told me he was going to rape me and instantly I began bawling, but I didn't know why, it just freaked me out.
I loved climbing trees, running around barefoot (in fact I still love to be barefoot as often as possible) and playing with bugs, I certainly wasn't a dainty girl. Though I must add that I do enjoy being prettied up, my favorite is working on cars while dressed up pretty, though I haven't done that in quite a while as I'm home with the kids all the time now.
I used to be much more open with my emotions but one occasion pretty much taught me to bottle up instead. As a child I would cry when my feelings were hurt even if it was something very small, I remember being in the fifth grade playing softball during PE time and one of the boys said something that hurt my feelings, I began crying and when my teacher came over and I told her what he'd said she scolded me for crying and told me that I can't just go crying over every little thing, she made a huge impression on me and I began to keep a lot inside at that point, I would bottle up till I could take no more and just explode.
As I got older I enjoyed hanging out with the guys more than girls and when I got my second jeep I began doing the repairs on it by myself, after that I went full fledged into working on all things car related, I enjoyed the shock on guys faces and the respect I got from them being a girl and knowing my stuff about cars. I loved helping people, always pulling over when I saw someone stranded and trying to help them with their car issues. I also helped people at church and fixed their cars, I used a manual on a few occasions but most of the time I was just winging it and figured it out.
I frequently said that I hate men growing up, due to what happened to my brother by my 'father' and things that happened to me I have loathed men and had lots of anger inside towards them and yet I want to be liked by them, go figure. It has only been now that I've been married for a while and have a good and decent man that I no longer find myself talking so negatively of men in general though I still do on occasion when I read or learn of yet another rape, molestation, etc. it brings back all the feelings of rage towards the horrible men in my life.
I must also add that I am very uncomfortable with sharing all the info, I would love nothing more than to delete this and not share but am doing so because right now I need help. I know enough of homeopathy to know that these things can and are being passed down in varying degrees to my kids and I want to stop it before it starts for this baby as well as getting back into balance for the children I'm tending to now.
[message edited by Nichole1808 on Mon, 20 Feb 2012 04:52:06 GMT]
My sister would lie to me all the time and tell me that mom liked it better when I wasn't there, this caused a lot of problems for me as I was already feeling unloved and neglected. To top that off I was also sexually abused and had even more issues because of it, like being interested in sex at a very young age constantly masturbating and having nightmares of being raped all the time. I also remember feeling like I was on some kind of drug or something at different points in my childhood, it's too difficult to describe the feeling and I've never done drugs so I have nothing to compare that feeling to but it was sorta 'out of this world' very very strange and happened on a handful or more of occasions.
I generally had my tantrums because of conflicts with my sister and my mother never hearing me, I was very angry because of this and had no control over my emotions, I would stomp my feet (we lived upstairs so it felt mighty effective as I could make the most noise this way) and would grab and sling or throw whatever was near me. There were occasions my mother would sit on me and hold me down to keep me from throwing things or doing things, I would claw her, scream and try to fight her off of me even spitting at her.
I had a huge fear of police officers as my mother would call them every time we had an issue, I remember one cop telling her that if I was his daughter he'd have thrown me down the stairs. On another occasion she was concerned and upset about us walking home from school rather than going to boys and girls club and took us to the police station where she talked with an officer then left us there. The officer told us we weren't going home, we were going somewhere else and attempted to scare the crap out of us, I was always the tough girl and my sister the crybaby but I loved her and looked out for her so I tried to make it out like it was no big deal and played with her most of the time. eventually, hours later my mom did come back to get us.
My aunt never liked me, especially since I was diagnosed with the ADD and ODD, I was the 'bad' child and no matter what I did I never have been able to change her perception of me. Finally at age 18 I'd had enough and started throwing it back in her face, like when she told me 'see it's hard to lose weight after having a baby' I told her 'yeah I can see that ____, it's been how long since ____ was born now?'
I used to write lots and lots of poems when I was younger and felt very close to God, most of my poems were actually very in depth for a child and my mom wanted me to write more to publish a book of them. I stopped writing when I was 16 and have only written once more since then.
I loved playing with younger kids, I always felt like I was playing mommy I guess and that was the number one thing I wanted to be when I grew up. I also enjoyed all aspects of babysitting and had no problems at all with changing diapers unlike other kids my age. When I was 13 I asked my mom what she would do if I got pregnant, I was desiring at that age to be pregnant despite being a total emotional wreck and still very immature.
I have ears that do not fold back like everyone elses and thus was tormented on numerous occasions by kids at school being called dumbo, anytime one of the boys said something I'd grab them by the shirt, spin in circles and send them flying. I enjoyed overpowering boys and that continued as I grew as well taking every opportunity to arm wrestle my guy friends. I also enjoyed physically wrestling boyfriends in an attempt to overpower them as well. One did overpower me and then told me he was going to rape me and instantly I began bawling, but I didn't know why, it just freaked me out.
I loved climbing trees, running around barefoot (in fact I still love to be barefoot as often as possible) and playing with bugs, I certainly wasn't a dainty girl. Though I must add that I do enjoy being prettied up, my favorite is working on cars while dressed up pretty, though I haven't done that in quite a while as I'm home with the kids all the time now.
I used to be much more open with my emotions but one occasion pretty much taught me to bottle up instead. As a child I would cry when my feelings were hurt even if it was something very small, I remember being in the fifth grade playing softball during PE time and one of the boys said something that hurt my feelings, I began crying and when my teacher came over and I told her what he'd said she scolded me for crying and told me that I can't just go crying over every little thing, she made a huge impression on me and I began to keep a lot inside at that point, I would bottle up till I could take no more and just explode.
As I got older I enjoyed hanging out with the guys more than girls and when I got my second jeep I began doing the repairs on it by myself, after that I went full fledged into working on all things car related, I enjoyed the shock on guys faces and the respect I got from them being a girl and knowing my stuff about cars. I loved helping people, always pulling over when I saw someone stranded and trying to help them with their car issues. I also helped people at church and fixed their cars, I used a manual on a few occasions but most of the time I was just winging it and figured it out.
I frequently said that I hate men growing up, due to what happened to my brother by my 'father' and things that happened to me I have loathed men and had lots of anger inside towards them and yet I want to be liked by them, go figure. It has only been now that I've been married for a while and have a good and decent man that I no longer find myself talking so negatively of men in general though I still do on occasion when I read or learn of yet another rape, molestation, etc. it brings back all the feelings of rage towards the horrible men in my life.
I must also add that I am very uncomfortable with sharing all the info, I would love nothing more than to delete this and not share but am doing so because right now I need help. I know enough of homeopathy to know that these things can and are being passed down in varying degrees to my kids and I want to stop it before it starts for this baby as well as getting back into balance for the children I'm tending to now.
[message edited by Nichole1808 on Mon, 20 Feb 2012 04:52:06 GMT]
Nichole1808 last decade
What do you think of Lachesis .
vikas_grower last decade
vikas_grower last decade
About 50% maybe less fit in Lachesis and others are just a downright no... With the example of jealousy, I am not jealous about my husband at all, I have no problem if he talks with other ladies or anything... but I also feel that he's not very attractive and he has bad breath and feel secure that there wont be another lady wanting him (this is horrible to think this way I know, but I do). The only thing I could say that I am jealous of is the way my sister was treated as opposed to me and the way my mom treats my nephew as opposed to my son, though I'm not just seeing things as my mom treats my nephew as a favorite above the other grandkids and my sister has also commented and recognizes this. I guess I am jealous maybe about other things about my sister, like she expects everyone to just give things to her and her husband, everthing I have she wants some of it and I struggle to tell her no, in fact I rarely tell her no but I get irritated too when other people give them lots of things because she will tell them they have no money but will spend the money they do have on silly things and that's why they cannot afford necessities at times, I find this frustrating so maybe jealousy?
Nichole1808 last decade
Do you still have bottled up resentment about what has happened to you in the past .
Do you brood over your past .
Can you tolerate tight clothing .
What are your greatest fears .
Which weather do you prefer .
Do you brood over your past .
Can you tolerate tight clothing .
What are your greatest fears .
Which weather do you prefer .
vikas_grower last decade
I can't help but be stuck on Sepia, every case of it I read I clearly see myself in it and know that it should be working but feel that it is not or at least not fast enough... even this case here about the young girl, I identify so closely with her http://www.njhonline.com/2004/sep_oct_vol6_no5/mm/sepia_the_....
Nichole1808 last decade
I read the case , well Sepia does come strongly another remedy that also comes is Natrum Mur which also has ailments from being neglected , abused , get easily hurt emotionally , nurse grudges , brood over them and Natrums are however affected by heat unlike Sepia who like heat.
vikas_grower last decade
Do you still have bottled up resentment about what has happened to you in the past .
Not sure, I know that the feelings about the abuse and my anger over what happened to myself as well as my brother comes back when I learn of other abuse stories, my anger is so strong, I want to go and kill these people for harming children the way they've done to me and my brother.
Do you brood over your past .
Not anymore, I used to feel that I had no childhood, I always preferred hanging out with the adults and would rather listen to their conversations than play with my friends.
Can you tolerate tight clothing .
When I'm pregnant, no, not at all particularly around the waist, I'm constantly cutting the elastic on my pants and have even hand stretched my panties to the point of tearing them in order to loosen their grip.
What are your greatest fears .
Hmm, my greatest fears are for my childrens health, I refuse allopathic treatment as I see it as being innefectual and dangerous so I learn more and more about homeopathy and other ways to be their 'doctor' at home. Because of this and that I birth at home and Child protective services was called because of my first homebirth, I fear that CPS will try to take my children away because of these things, despite these being the best for my children as they rarely get sick and are very happy successful children.
I also fear them playing out in the front where I can't see them, I fear them being kidnapped and I would never see them again and would not be able to function if that happened, I would go crazy trying to find them and would probably kill the person who took them if I found them.
Which weather do you prefer ?
I prefer warm sunny weather, it is most pleasing to me, I get an emotional high from the beautiful sun shining on me, it feels good to feel the warmth. I love warmth, I used to keep my home 86 degrees in california and was cold if it was less, now I'm different, I still prefer warmth and heat but feel suffocated in warm rooms or cars and must throw off the covers or open the window for relief. I enjoy the rain because I love the way the sidewalk smells when it gets wet, I love being able to cuddle up on the couch, watch a movie and drink hot cocoa on those days, but it gets depressing if it lasts for more than a couple days. I loathe winter, in california it wasn't a big deal though it was cold it was rarely gloomy. In Ohio it snows and it gloomy often, this makes me very depressed and I also am depressed when the sun does come out because it looks like it should be warm outside and yet it is not, that bothers me.
Not sure, I know that the feelings about the abuse and my anger over what happened to myself as well as my brother comes back when I learn of other abuse stories, my anger is so strong, I want to go and kill these people for harming children the way they've done to me and my brother.
Do you brood over your past .
Not anymore, I used to feel that I had no childhood, I always preferred hanging out with the adults and would rather listen to their conversations than play with my friends.
Can you tolerate tight clothing .
When I'm pregnant, no, not at all particularly around the waist, I'm constantly cutting the elastic on my pants and have even hand stretched my panties to the point of tearing them in order to loosen their grip.
What are your greatest fears .
Hmm, my greatest fears are for my childrens health, I refuse allopathic treatment as I see it as being innefectual and dangerous so I learn more and more about homeopathy and other ways to be their 'doctor' at home. Because of this and that I birth at home and Child protective services was called because of my first homebirth, I fear that CPS will try to take my children away because of these things, despite these being the best for my children as they rarely get sick and are very happy successful children.
I also fear them playing out in the front where I can't see them, I fear them being kidnapped and I would never see them again and would not be able to function if that happened, I would go crazy trying to find them and would probably kill the person who took them if I found them.
Which weather do you prefer ?
I prefer warm sunny weather, it is most pleasing to me, I get an emotional high from the beautiful sun shining on me, it feels good to feel the warmth. I love warmth, I used to keep my home 86 degrees in california and was cold if it was less, now I'm different, I still prefer warmth and heat but feel suffocated in warm rooms or cars and must throw off the covers or open the window for relief. I enjoy the rain because I love the way the sidewalk smells when it gets wet, I love being able to cuddle up on the couch, watch a movie and drink hot cocoa on those days, but it gets depressing if it lasts for more than a couple days. I loathe winter, in california it wasn't a big deal though it was cold it was rarely gloomy. In Ohio it snows and it gloomy often, this makes me very depressed and I also am depressed when the sun does come out because it looks like it should be warm outside and yet it is not, that bothers me.
Nichole1808 last decade
I also meant to add that I love hot showers, I like it hot enough that it feels like it's almost burning the skin, it feels invigorating.
Nichole1808 last decade
vikas_grower last decade
Also, I wrote something earlier but then deleted it for shame of it, it may be important though so...
My daughters are close in age being 18 months apart, my milk dried up when my 1st daughter was only 9 months and we struggled for two months while she bit me and refused to nurse, I only realized later it was due to no supply. We managed to get back in sync and she was nursing anyways for comfort til her sister was born. However, at around 4 months in the pregnancy I developed breastfeeding aversion, it got worse and worse as the months progressed and I would require sex at different intervals with my husband to relieve sexual tension that would build up from the breastfeeding. I began to hate my body and my breasts, they were causing me these sexual feelings during breastfeeding that was disgusting to me. I cried in anger and hit my breasts at different occasions, I wanted to continue breastfeeding for the bonding with my daughter as well as her needs nutritionally and just kept thinking after the baby is born this will go away but it never did. The day time was easy to distract myself but nighttime was too intense and I would pull my hair, scratch my scalp, pinch or bite myself as a distraction from the feelings, mostly I felt as though I was being molested or raped. When my 2nd daughter was born the feeling diminished for the first month or so and I breastfed both girls together, I enjoyed this in the beginning watching them grabbing at each others hand and bonding, it was so sweet. Over time with the return of the annoying 'feelings' and the constant need to sit and feed them I began to resent it and felt as though they were leaches and sucking the life out of me. When my 1st daughter was 2.5 I finally said no more, I could no longer take it or handle the feelings and stopped letting her nurse. She would still ask and this was heartbreaking to me, I cried about my inability to give her what she needed but continued to tell her no. Things improved after this, I was feeling better emotionally and physically, felt like I could get back to normal life once my 2nd daughter was walking. Things were going good again till I got pregnant again, this time the aversion started shortly after at around 8 weeks, my nipples became very sore and I had a reoccurance of the same feelings I experienced with my 1st daughter. At 12 weeks I finally began refusing to let my 2nd daughter breastfeed, she was 2 now and it was a gradual process to stop with her being more accepting of it. She still asks for it especially at night and I comfort or console her in other ways instead. I would love to allow her to nurse again but it's too physically draining as well was emotionally when those 'feelings' won't let up. Despite the relief of that I am still rather irritable with the kids, as I mentioned I hate to be touched my my 1st daughter, my son (8) wants to sleep on my legs at night and though I would allow this before so that he could have his cuddle time with mommy at night I refuse to allow him to touch me now. Only the youngest is allowed to cuddle with me but if she causes any pain from climbing on me pulling hair wrapping her hands around my neck, I am quickly angered and roughly put her down.
My daughters are close in age being 18 months apart, my milk dried up when my 1st daughter was only 9 months and we struggled for two months while she bit me and refused to nurse, I only realized later it was due to no supply. We managed to get back in sync and she was nursing anyways for comfort til her sister was born. However, at around 4 months in the pregnancy I developed breastfeeding aversion, it got worse and worse as the months progressed and I would require sex at different intervals with my husband to relieve sexual tension that would build up from the breastfeeding. I began to hate my body and my breasts, they were causing me these sexual feelings during breastfeeding that was disgusting to me. I cried in anger and hit my breasts at different occasions, I wanted to continue breastfeeding for the bonding with my daughter as well as her needs nutritionally and just kept thinking after the baby is born this will go away but it never did. The day time was easy to distract myself but nighttime was too intense and I would pull my hair, scratch my scalp, pinch or bite myself as a distraction from the feelings, mostly I felt as though I was being molested or raped. When my 2nd daughter was born the feeling diminished for the first month or so and I breastfed both girls together, I enjoyed this in the beginning watching them grabbing at each others hand and bonding, it was so sweet. Over time with the return of the annoying 'feelings' and the constant need to sit and feed them I began to resent it and felt as though they were leaches and sucking the life out of me. When my 1st daughter was 2.5 I finally said no more, I could no longer take it or handle the feelings and stopped letting her nurse. She would still ask and this was heartbreaking to me, I cried about my inability to give her what she needed but continued to tell her no. Things improved after this, I was feeling better emotionally and physically, felt like I could get back to normal life once my 2nd daughter was walking. Things were going good again till I got pregnant again, this time the aversion started shortly after at around 8 weeks, my nipples became very sore and I had a reoccurance of the same feelings I experienced with my 1st daughter. At 12 weeks I finally began refusing to let my 2nd daughter breastfeed, she was 2 now and it was a gradual process to stop with her being more accepting of it. She still asks for it especially at night and I comfort or console her in other ways instead. I would love to allow her to nurse again but it's too physically draining as well was emotionally when those 'feelings' won't let up. Despite the relief of that I am still rather irritable with the kids, as I mentioned I hate to be touched my my 1st daughter, my son (8) wants to sleep on my legs at night and though I would allow this before so that he could have his cuddle time with mommy at night I refuse to allow him to touch me now. Only the youngest is allowed to cuddle with me but if she causes any pain from climbing on me pulling hair wrapping her hands around my neck, I am quickly angered and roughly put her down.
Nichole1808 last decade
I will look at nat mur some more, it's hard for me to see a connection unless I read other cases, but then it can be hard to find cases of similarity.
Nichole1808 last decade
http://www.njhonline.com/1995/nov_dec_95_vol_1V_no_6/cases/h....
I feel some connection with the second case, I've had irregular periods since they began usually coming every 35 days when 'regular' but as a teen and young adult they were frequently coming every other month and sometimes every 3 months.
I also suffer from hirsutism which has gotten worse and worse and I first noticed when my son was just a year old. I had a few hairs growing on my chin and have always had darker hair above my lip and darker hair on my legs and arms. This has gotten worse and now I have many hairs on my chin, sides of face as well as several on my neck under my jaw line. I also have an occasional hair on my chest in my cleavage. I have lots of hair on my upper thighs which I never realized were associated with hirsutism until a couple years ago but it has always been that way.
I feel some connection with the second case, I've had irregular periods since they began usually coming every 35 days when 'regular' but as a teen and young adult they were frequently coming every other month and sometimes every 3 months.
I also suffer from hirsutism which has gotten worse and worse and I first noticed when my son was just a year old. I had a few hairs growing on my chin and have always had darker hair above my lip and darker hair on my legs and arms. This has gotten worse and now I have many hairs on my chin, sides of face as well as several on my neck under my jaw line. I also have an occasional hair on my chest in my cleavage. I have lots of hair on my upper thighs which I never realized were associated with hirsutism until a couple years ago but it has always been that way.
Nichole1808 last decade
In your accounts sexual abuse and neglect by mother are coming often . Natrum Mur and Sepia cover both . Natrum Mur covers Ailments from neglect by mother more strongly than Sepia .
Both also appear in aversion to being touched though Sepia only appears in aversion to being carresed.
Both also appear in aversion to being touched though Sepia only appears in aversion to being carresed.
vikas_grower last decade
My daughter attempts to lovingly pet me, my hair, my tummy (cause of baby), etc. she is gentle with her touching and it irritates me though I wish it didn't. At the moment I have no issues with my husband touching me.
Since I have taken Sepia 1m the yesterday and the day before, should I go ahead and give it the full chance to work before moving on to Nat. Mur? I have Sepia 10m already as well and can order the Nat. Mur but will not receive it for at least a week. And if I do order this what potencies should I order?
[message edited by Nichole1808 on Mon, 20 Feb 2012 16:45:15 GMT]
Since I have taken Sepia 1m the yesterday and the day before, should I go ahead and give it the full chance to work before moving on to Nat. Mur? I have Sepia 10m already as well and can order the Nat. Mur but will not receive it for at least a week. And if I do order this what potencies should I order?
[message edited by Nichole1808 on Mon, 20 Feb 2012 16:45:15 GMT]
Nichole1808 last decade
The cardinal rule in homeopathy is not too repeat the remedies too frequently and also not to change remedies too frequently .
You should not have repeated Sepia so quickly more so as it is high potency .
Please wait and watch for at least 15 days to a month and then review the progress of the 1M dosage that you have taken .
You should not have repeated Sepia so quickly more so as it is high potency .
Please wait and watch for at least 15 days to a month and then review the progress of the 1M dosage that you have taken .
vikas_grower last decade
I used to caress my sons cheek as a baby to help him drift off to sleep, as a toddler he would caress my arm or cheek while he fell asleep and I found this disagreeable as well, constantly putting his hand down and telling him to stop.
Nichole1808 last decade
The cardinal rule in homeopathy is not too repeat the remedies too frequently and also not to change remedies too frequently .
You should not have repeated Sepia so quickly more so as it is high potency .
Please wait and watch for at least 15 days to a month and then review the progress of the 1M dosage that you have taken .
You should not have repeated Sepia so quickly more so as it is high potency .
Please wait and watch for at least 15 days to a month and then review the progress of the 1M dosage that you have taken .
vikas_grower last decade
I did sleep through the night last night without having to wake to use the restroom... perhaps that is a positive change. Though I am an impatient person, I will do as you say and wait, I will also update here with any improvements.
Thank you for taking the time to help me on my case, I greatly appreciate it.
Thank you for taking the time to help me on my case, I greatly appreciate it.
Nichole1808 last decade
Just wanted to pop in as I've noticed a few changes already since this morning...
It was sunny today and so that generally puts me in a good mood, so this morning I opened the curtains to enjoy the sunshine. I felt good, better from getting a lot off my chest and also feeling more confident in waiting to see improvements. I put some music on as I had a desire to get up and clean, after completing that my mom and I had a slight argument, she went on to send me a message on facebook and unfriend me and block me. I became furiously frustrated as this always happens, I start feeling better in a day, feeling normal and good and someone has to cause all this stupid drama. I went on to write her and my sister letters telling them things I've held back for a while and insisting I want them out of my life til they are ready to change. I feel they are draining the life out of me as well and when I have a conflict with them I am unable to tell them because they act out in such immature ways and it causes way too much drama for me so I tend to just shut up and then lose patience with the kids. I finally told my mom she needs to move out, she's been too dependent on me and my husband and relying on us for everything despite being able to do for herself.
Just before all this, I was feeling good and was even being affectionate with my 1st daughter, which I have not been as of late. I brushed her hair, pet her hair and both girls cuddled with me on the couch for a bit before I recieved the message and was blocked. While writing the letter my daughter was bugging me and I snapped at her telling her to go sit down and watch the movie. I recognize this happening a lot, I get frustrated because of the treatment by my mom or sister and have less patience for my kids, getting on to them or yelling at them when they don't deserve it. I feel like having my mom and sister in my life in the current situation which is their mindset to constantly take from me and not give back is bad for me and my family. I've told them this FINALLY. I just wish time would move faster, my mom would move out and my sister would go and I could remove those stressful people from my life.
I feel that my affection towards my daughter was improvement, the cleaning and feeling better could just be the sunshine and music, telling my mom and sister things I've been afraid of telling them before feels like it's a good thing. I could be wrong though.
It was sunny today and so that generally puts me in a good mood, so this morning I opened the curtains to enjoy the sunshine. I felt good, better from getting a lot off my chest and also feeling more confident in waiting to see improvements. I put some music on as I had a desire to get up and clean, after completing that my mom and I had a slight argument, she went on to send me a message on facebook and unfriend me and block me. I became furiously frustrated as this always happens, I start feeling better in a day, feeling normal and good and someone has to cause all this stupid drama. I went on to write her and my sister letters telling them things I've held back for a while and insisting I want them out of my life til they are ready to change. I feel they are draining the life out of me as well and when I have a conflict with them I am unable to tell them because they act out in such immature ways and it causes way too much drama for me so I tend to just shut up and then lose patience with the kids. I finally told my mom she needs to move out, she's been too dependent on me and my husband and relying on us for everything despite being able to do for herself.
Just before all this, I was feeling good and was even being affectionate with my 1st daughter, which I have not been as of late. I brushed her hair, pet her hair and both girls cuddled with me on the couch for a bit before I recieved the message and was blocked. While writing the letter my daughter was bugging me and I snapped at her telling her to go sit down and watch the movie. I recognize this happening a lot, I get frustrated because of the treatment by my mom or sister and have less patience for my kids, getting on to them or yelling at them when they don't deserve it. I feel like having my mom and sister in my life in the current situation which is their mindset to constantly take from me and not give back is bad for me and my family. I've told them this FINALLY. I just wish time would move faster, my mom would move out and my sister would go and I could remove those stressful people from my life.
I feel that my affection towards my daughter was improvement, the cleaning and feeling better could just be the sunshine and music, telling my mom and sister things I've been afraid of telling them before feels like it's a good thing. I could be wrong though.
Nichole1808 last decade
Tossed and turned last night constantly waking with this feeling that something bad was going to happen or someone was after us, don't remember any specific dreams, but just that general feeling, I did however fall back off to sleep just minutes after waking with those feelings. This morning I woke up feeling great despite my sleep last night! I made breakfast, cleaned up (also did a lot of this yesterday), greeted my daughter this morning in my happy sing song voice like I used to without realizing it and have just felt free and joyful! Ahhh, it feels good to be back! Now to see how long this lasts.
Nichole1808 last decade
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