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More symptoms from day at work
- I got a ton more symptoms I could tell.Bdd is bothering me at work. In that I get fixed on reflections, every mirror I see. And have to hide and worry that noone even sees me.
I can get overwhelmed, I am slow. can get lost in the details. feel ugly.
get embarassed quick when someone does not understand a word I said or whatever.
I have to constantly control my anxiety, and eyes. (to not stare which I fear)
2nd day was worse today. THis always happens that with the days I dont get better but I get worse in fact. More alienated. Because first day everyone is interested in you. First day you just do the usuall small talk and say hi. But the next day and so on more is expected from me. Or I dont get that much interest and this quickly makes me feel that noone likes me, that something wrong with me. That I am being seen as the strange guy, or quiet one. Than I feel this pain from loneliness also. Which is very unpleasant.
Please help me. suggest something. So tough to control everything ie hiding things
starface on 2012-02-16
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when people are not really interested in me, it quickly makes me think that it is because of me, something must be wrong with me.
I am to quiet or to uncomfortable to deal with etc.
the bdd is a problem at work. When I will work on my own. After about a week. It will be a problem. I might get nothing done. Than when I notice I am kind of behind/ late... that just usually slows me down even more to a standstill. That I get even less done.
This is what sounds to me totally counter tarantula and is why I think I should not take a repeat dose of it.
I am to quiet or to uncomfortable to deal with etc.
the bdd is a problem at work. When I will work on my own. After about a week. It will be a problem. I might get nothing done. Than when I notice I am kind of behind/ late... that just usually slows me down even more to a standstill. That I get even less done.
This is what sounds to me totally counter tarantula and is why I think I should not take a repeat dose of it.
starface last decade
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
No no no. let me explain.
There are things which are not better. On the outside.
But something is better. Clearly. It is for example when I get embarassed it is not the end of the world.
It is when I watch tv at workplace with people around I can do it.
It is when I am on a break with my mother and brother and a coworker comes that I dont feel this anxiety that I have to leave quick from fear that I might be talked to. I stay without a problem.
I once saw myself in a mirror which had another mirror behind me which meant that I saw myself from behind and when I turned my head a bit... I saw my face from the side in bright light. So it looked really ugly and unabalanced. I felt devasted but at the same time no difficult reaction and could let it go. Strangely no glue effect. My reaction at first was how can I live now, knowing I look like this and all the flaws I saw. And I was suprised that I didnt feel really devastated and gutted for the rest of the day like I expected too - so the reaction was much less from the days when BDD was a big problem. I could actually let it go. 5 minutes later and watch tv.
There is change. no doubt. But there is still room for improvement.
I would say 40% improvement. Since platina,
I also talked to a coworker when I was on a break and she came to have a smoke. Usually I would dissapear if that happened in the past. But I stayed despite feeling uncomfortable a bit. But talking was fine no problem with her. And I even told her I have no friends when she asked me and laughed. Didnt feel much to it.
Less reaction definately. Not the end of the world.
In the past I would never have an introduction at work with my brother. The thought that my brother might listen to me speaking in english to someone was not an option. I would get panic attack the moment someone would ask me something in front of my brother. But I answer now. Sometimes I feel embarassed. But embarassment not the end of the world I would say. It does not have the same effect on me as in the past I think??
[message edited by starface on Thu, 16 Feb 2012 04:20:59 GMT]
There are things which are not better. On the outside.
But something is better. Clearly. It is for example when I get embarassed it is not the end of the world.
It is when I watch tv at workplace with people around I can do it.
It is when I am on a break with my mother and brother and a coworker comes that I dont feel this anxiety that I have to leave quick from fear that I might be talked to. I stay without a problem.
I once saw myself in a mirror which had another mirror behind me which meant that I saw myself from behind and when I turned my head a bit... I saw my face from the side in bright light. So it looked really ugly and unabalanced. I felt devasted but at the same time no difficult reaction and could let it go. Strangely no glue effect. My reaction at first was how can I live now, knowing I look like this and all the flaws I saw. And I was suprised that I didnt feel really devastated and gutted for the rest of the day like I expected too - so the reaction was much less from the days when BDD was a big problem. I could actually let it go. 5 minutes later and watch tv.
There is change. no doubt. But there is still room for improvement.
I would say 40% improvement. Since platina,
I also talked to a coworker when I was on a break and she came to have a smoke. Usually I would dissapear if that happened in the past. But I stayed despite feeling uncomfortable a bit. But talking was fine no problem with her. And I even told her I have no friends when she asked me and laughed. Didnt feel much to it.
Less reaction definately. Not the end of the world.
In the past I would never have an introduction at work with my brother. The thought that my brother might listen to me speaking in english to someone was not an option. I would get panic attack the moment someone would ask me something in front of my brother. But I answer now. Sometimes I feel embarassed. But embarassment not the end of the world I would say. It does not have the same effect on me as in the past I think??
[message edited by starface on Thu, 16 Feb 2012 04:20:59 GMT]
starface last decade
What is improvement is also. THat I had conversation with a coworker and she never aksed me to repeat what I said (from my unclear speech) which happened so often in the past. It was so embarassing and panic provoking. Forgot to mention this. I was happy about my tone and speaking. It held.
starface last decade
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