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Can I ask for some advice, regarding my current state? Which is about the problem of maybe being inferior and the depression it brings.If I may I will exand on it.
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 02:05:57 BST]
Silicea on 2011-08-01
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Tell you what - after watching what you are going through, I am willing to discuss what I can do for you. We can negotiate it by email. I think it is important not to do that publically anymore - better for you I think as a patient.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
ok thank you. Its not to bad though. Hope I didnt dramatise it. But when I think of the possibility of being inferior I do get really depressed.
Silicea last decade
I sent an email, just thought I would mention it in case I am blocked and you did not get it. My previous homeopath said she blocked me so I dont know it could be a possiblity I got blocked again.
I am at the moment thinking about whether I should go to the beach I always go to or one that is a bit more far away, one which I rarely go to. And I would rather go to the one which is closer. And this makes me fear lycopodium again. I feel like wanting to go the beach further away just to prove I am not lycopodium but the act to do such thing, would mean I am lycopodium I am guessing
Sooo depressing. I wonder if people who need lycopodium react in such way as I do to the remedy lycopodium or not.
I tried lycopodium, self prescribed in 30c potency a few months ago: I was arguing with my previous homeopath about the fact that I am lycopdium so when I suceeded in convincing her I tried it in 30c potency. After 5 days I stopped taking it and told her I am not lycopodium. And she could not believe it and kept telling me that I am lycopodium. I find this strange, that now I fear lycopodium though. Probably because I live in the clouds now and the remedy lycopodium would dispute this. Reveal to me that I am not high up there as I think I am? Well this causes great great depression... I watched a movie yesterday. THere was a woman in it who was alone fighting off zombies... And when I think of lycpodium this image comes up to, that I am not like this 'special' movie character in the movie. I can kiss all of this goodbye, if I am lycopodium. If that makes sense.
I cannot accept that I am lycopodium, and never will. But I fear it. Not saying that I would never dare trying it out. If requested I would. And look forward to get this behind me. It would be the one remedy I hope would not give any improvements. I would let out a big breath of relief if that happened
lycopodium is like cancer to me
Ah a bit off topic sorry
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 04:12:24 BST]
I am at the moment thinking about whether I should go to the beach I always go to or one that is a bit more far away, one which I rarely go to. And I would rather go to the one which is closer. And this makes me fear lycopodium again. I feel like wanting to go the beach further away just to prove I am not lycopodium but the act to do such thing, would mean I am lycopodium I am guessing
Sooo depressing. I wonder if people who need lycopodium react in such way as I do to the remedy lycopodium or not.
I tried lycopodium, self prescribed in 30c potency a few months ago: I was arguing with my previous homeopath about the fact that I am lycopdium so when I suceeded in convincing her I tried it in 30c potency. After 5 days I stopped taking it and told her I am not lycopodium. And she could not believe it and kept telling me that I am lycopodium. I find this strange, that now I fear lycopodium though. Probably because I live in the clouds now and the remedy lycopodium would dispute this. Reveal to me that I am not high up there as I think I am? Well this causes great great depression... I watched a movie yesterday. THere was a woman in it who was alone fighting off zombies... And when I think of lycpodium this image comes up to, that I am not like this 'special' movie character in the movie. I can kiss all of this goodbye, if I am lycopodium. If that makes sense.
I cannot accept that I am lycopodium, and never will. But I fear it. Not saying that I would never dare trying it out. If requested I would. And look forward to get this behind me. It would be the one remedy I hope would not give any improvements. I would let out a big breath of relief if that happened
lycopodium is like cancer to me
Ah a bit off topic sorry
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 04:12:24 BST]
Silicea last decade
I fear I am lycopodium again by how bad I treat my mother and how nice I am towards my father. And it causes depression and an opressive feeling. It feels intense,forceful. Its not the boring, dull depression.
Well my father treats me nice and with respect too. If he is displeased about something with me, he will tell it to my mother most of the time and not to me directly.
But I can never say no to him or say something I am displeased about with him.
I am always careful, worried and afraid around him to not attract criticism, but than when I get a sort of criticism from him I can get pretty angry in a destructive way and dont back down, (there is no need to be nice anymore, since I got critizised). I will remember it for many days, not talk to him after I calmed down etc.So I am nice and respectful as long as I dont hear anything negative to avoid such conflict and situation as it can get pretty intense. But I hate it, I hate being like that. So just to avoid conflict and those intense situations I act nice and respectful. I dont want to be like this.
So I fear this might sound like lycopodium again and is depressing me.
Well often when we talk about something he tries to get smart on me and make me think he is right and I am wrong. He probably thinks how clever he is and I might end up looking like I am not so smart in his eyes but I never fight back or make the effort to show him that he is the one who is wrong and far away from being as clever as he thinks he is. I just feel anxiety, and feel like I dont want to go through all this just to prove to him that he is wrong. I dont feel the urge to tell him that, or correct a misunderstanding. I rather not go through it feeling all anxious and embarass myself on the way by arguing anxiously with someone about who is right or wrong. How low would that be? I will only do such thing when I wont feel anxious. But I dont feel the urge to argue with my father. I see him below me. Dont think much of him.
But to be honest sometimes there is a misunderstanding and I end up looking like an idiot and would wish to correct it but I cant, I feel anxiety and am not going to talk and embarass myself just to correct it. I rather stay quiet and live with the misunderstanding.
I never want to show anyone that I am anxious. Anxiety is low, I feel vulnerable and afraid of many things if someone sees that I am anxious. I never want to be anxious in front of another person. It makes me look bad. I have high expectations! Its a humiliation and a disgrace to me
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 08:42:12 BST]
Well my father treats me nice and with respect too. If he is displeased about something with me, he will tell it to my mother most of the time and not to me directly.
But I can never say no to him or say something I am displeased about with him.
I am always careful, worried and afraid around him to not attract criticism, but than when I get a sort of criticism from him I can get pretty angry in a destructive way and dont back down, (there is no need to be nice anymore, since I got critizised). I will remember it for many days, not talk to him after I calmed down etc.So I am nice and respectful as long as I dont hear anything negative to avoid such conflict and situation as it can get pretty intense. But I hate it, I hate being like that. So just to avoid conflict and those intense situations I act nice and respectful. I dont want to be like this.
So I fear this might sound like lycopodium again and is depressing me.
Well often when we talk about something he tries to get smart on me and make me think he is right and I am wrong. He probably thinks how clever he is and I might end up looking like I am not so smart in his eyes but I never fight back or make the effort to show him that he is the one who is wrong and far away from being as clever as he thinks he is. I just feel anxiety, and feel like I dont want to go through all this just to prove to him that he is wrong. I dont feel the urge to tell him that, or correct a misunderstanding. I rather not go through it feeling all anxious and embarass myself on the way by arguing anxiously with someone about who is right or wrong. How low would that be? I will only do such thing when I wont feel anxious. But I dont feel the urge to argue with my father. I see him below me. Dont think much of him.
But to be honest sometimes there is a misunderstanding and I end up looking like an idiot and would wish to correct it but I cant, I feel anxiety and am not going to talk and embarass myself just to correct it. I rather stay quiet and live with the misunderstanding.
I never want to show anyone that I am anxious. Anxiety is low, I feel vulnerable and afraid of many things if someone sees that I am anxious. I never want to be anxious in front of another person. It makes me look bad. I have high expectations! Its a humiliation and a disgrace to me
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 08:42:12 BST]
Silicea last decade
I am watching lots of movies again they make me feel good.
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 12:39:28 BST]
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 12:39:28 BST]
Silicea last decade
I go on a dating website and I get very few replies or non at all. Girls act as if I am nothing, as if I am Not even there. I cannot take this. In the real world I am not used to getting treated like this. I expect to get replies or shown interest to all the time. Its horrible. I dont know what happened to me. And I cannot accept this. It makes me furious.
Often I get to feel very small, low than. But once I feel this feeling for a short while it changes into the opposite, its like I say no to it, dont want to accept it (being small or whatever) and get egoistical.
Another thing with my masturbation, dont know if this is normal or not, probably not... if I watch porn while doing it, when I am done I feel strong repulsion to the porn movie. I have to turn it off immediately. I am disgusted by the women I see. I think bad things about them. I see them as animals who just want sex. I feel nothing for those women. Empty, just bad thoughts, but once I get horny it changes again. The pattern repeats itself than.
Maybe this is normal. I dont really know. Sex is a real turn off when I am not horny. But that is rare, only 5 to 10 minutes after masturbation.
And like I mentioned before, I dont like seeing women naked. I am really horny most of the time. Cant stop looking at pretty girls as long as they have some clothes on, but naked its a turn off. Dont know why. I can not imagine myself ever have sex before this problem I have with looking at naked girls goes away. If I watch a porn movie I only watch the forplay, am not interested in the part where they have sex, unless the girl has clothes on, like a pantyhose or something.
My apologies if that was all to much info and not something I should discuss. I have no idea whether I should or shouldnt. Well face to face I would never unless the homeopath would be a woman, than I maybe would, if she asked me about it that is
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 13:44:09 BST]
Often I get to feel very small, low than. But once I feel this feeling for a short while it changes into the opposite, its like I say no to it, dont want to accept it (being small or whatever) and get egoistical.
Another thing with my masturbation, dont know if this is normal or not, probably not... if I watch porn while doing it, when I am done I feel strong repulsion to the porn movie. I have to turn it off immediately. I am disgusted by the women I see. I think bad things about them. I see them as animals who just want sex. I feel nothing for those women. Empty, just bad thoughts, but once I get horny it changes again. The pattern repeats itself than.
Maybe this is normal. I dont really know. Sex is a real turn off when I am not horny. But that is rare, only 5 to 10 minutes after masturbation.
And like I mentioned before, I dont like seeing women naked. I am really horny most of the time. Cant stop looking at pretty girls as long as they have some clothes on, but naked its a turn off. Dont know why. I can not imagine myself ever have sex before this problem I have with looking at naked girls goes away. If I watch a porn movie I only watch the forplay, am not interested in the part where they have sex, unless the girl has clothes on, like a pantyhose or something.
My apologies if that was all to much info and not something I should discuss. I have no idea whether I should or shouldnt. Well face to face I would never unless the homeopath would be a woman, than I maybe would, if she asked me about it that is
[message edited by Silicea on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 13:44:09 BST]
Silicea last decade
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