HELP with anixety please, filled out questionaire

Sex: Male Age: 23


Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering?

Social Anxiety, Body dysmorphia, Depression, some slight OCD maybe also


2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

Physical symptoms? Tensions all over the body, headaches, eye pains, tension in chest, and eye staring from anxiety, also feeling tired and weak

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?

Mental symptoms? No confidence around people, shame, feel unwanted, unloved, get embarrassed quickly, fear making a fool of myself in public, smile excessively at people in public, feel dazed, difficulty looking people in the eye (its impossible, I start staring if I look at someone out of fear of getting hurt, rejected or ridiculed), difficulty just getting out of the house if my neighbour is outside, I will wait till he is gone away, fear of rejection, fear not being liked, fear of speaking, that my voice will sound strange, that my mind will go blank, feel like I have nothing important or fun to say, that I am not fun to be around, boring, self conscious, I feel I am ugly looking even though I have been told many times I am really attractive, also a bit of a hypochondriac, in the past feared I catched a contagious disease, fear that I might have worms in my stomach, wash my hands a lot everytime I am making food, eat healthy, no salt or pepper. Despite saying all of the above I can be the complete opposite at other times, around my family or on the internet… I can be pretty argumenatative/dramatic, attention seeking and feel I am right in everything I say or do, with lots of confidence.


4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words.

Well my social anxiety is the biggest problem at the moment so I will describe this, I don’t work or study because of it, I am just at home and not doing much except go daily out for walks, to try to get better… When I walk on the street and see for example a group of girls in front of me that I have to pass I will feel horrible, such fear, I tense up, I start staring, I fear I must look really weird, strange, so I start worrying I might get strange looks from the girls, as if something is wrong with me, I fear they might talk about me in a bad way, laugh at me. Later I feel depressed and maybe worthless because I was so tense and looked so ugly when I stared at them. I also worry of appearing shy to them, because shyness is just unacceptable,
I hate going to shopping malls, or be in closed spaces with people, I have a strong fear of panic almost, my physical symptoms get so bad, and I must look like I am insane, I cannot live like this anymore, it hurts so much when I walk around inside a shopping mall so tense and stare at people with my ugly look that I feel so hurt and unwanted, like nobody wants me, everyone is thinking something negative of me. I want to be normal and liked by people.
I have lots of problems when I have this strong anxiety and have to talk to someone, I feel talk in a very low tone, unclear and be really afraid of something bad happening, like getting embarassed


5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?

My life started getting worse and worse after I started smoking marijuana, Because I would smoke with people who were a bit older than me, and I smoked with lots of different people and I am not good at making friends, I was always a bit shy initially when first meeting people, so those people started ridiculing me and making fun of how I speek, how I behave, and this hurt me grealty, I have never been ok again since this events happened. My reaction to this was depression and sadness, and also anxiety whenever I was around those people who ridiculed me again
I stopped smoking marijuana when I was 17. Because I would get panic attacks from it, I would smoke a little and then I would fear I will not be able to control this high feeling, like it will get to strong and I might die or something, had some horrible panic attacks before I decided to stop smoking

6. Which time of the day you are worst?

I think all day is bad, I feel those headaches/tensions and eye pains or are those eye tensions, I am not sure, it feels like my eyes are being pulled together or something like that, very uncomfortable feeling, If I had my eye problem under control, I think I would not have such strong anxiety around people, but I fear walking around people with such strange eyes, like that I will get rejected or hurt
The eye problem gets worse towards the evening when I am outside, when its twilight, when the sun is going down, its really difficult and I feel more anxiety being around people than

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same? Example- time, temperature, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing etc.

If the day is cloudy and grey, I feel worse when outside and also inside
I feel better in winter when its cold
I feel better when I am anxious outside and have to walk past people, if I rub my face, my eyes, or touch my head
I feel better when I have sunglasses on so I hide my eyes but still tension all over my body remains, and I feel than like a drug addict, that this is what people think of me, that I am just hiding my eyes with sunglasses.
I manytimes compulsively look at my phone just so I don’t have to look at them when I walk past them, I feel afraid, because I feel so unnatural, so tense that it must be really noticeable and fear the reaction of people, that is why I think I have this eye problem, because I am so afraid of looking at people, of seeing if they made a negative reaction towards me, like give me the what is wrong with you look, I hate this, it hurts, it makes me feel so horrible.
I am better in winter, because I can have more clothes on me, like jackets and hats, so I am more hidden, and don’t feel so tense while walking.
My symptoms are better if I have a big meal, I feel less anxious than,




8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?

Yes they do, the weather has an effect on my anxiety levels, I like nice sunny days, than I am the least anxious, but still pretty anxious. on cloudy grey days, my anxiety is pretty bad, and on twilight, when the sun goes down its bad too. I feel best at night, at night I like going out, but still fear socializing and avoid it of course, don’t have friends… I stay awake till 3 am every night, I go late to bed.


9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?

Hot weather I don’t like, but it doesn’t affect my anxiety, its more important if its cloudy or sunny, cloudy worse, sunny better, I like cold weather, but I get cold really quickly and don’t like this, but still I feel better in cold weather mentally, I like it also when it rains, just hate it when its cloudy and no rain

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.

Oh that’s hard, I feel like I can be anything, I am quite changeable and dramatic, I can be moody, dramatic, timid, confident, arrogant, the mr. right who is always right, arguing, quiet, nervous, suspicious, easily offended, forgiving, irriating, patient,…
Its hard to say since I am so changeable, it all depends on how I feel, on the weather and my life circumstances, if I having something to feel good or happy about, but mostly I am a bit low of spirit, easily irritated, depressed or sad, quiet, easy to anger, nervous

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?

I hate thunderstorms, before them I am afraid, because I don’t know how bad it will be, I fear it might be really bad this time and the thunder will do lots of damage, I am also the same afraid during the thunderstorm.

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?

Depends, 90% of the time not, but if I open up and someone finds out my deep issues, like that I have social anxiety and just had a difficult moment, of something that I couldn’t do, like going into a shopping mall, than I will feel slightly good for being consoled, but only slightly, I still would say no though, that I don’t like being consoled


- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?

Of course

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
Weeping, talking to one self etc?

I weep sometimes when I feel a bit dramatic and think of my suffering, I play with my pockets a lot when I am outside and people walk past me, it’s a compulsive thing, like I am trying to avoid the high anxiety that I get when people walk past me, so to lessen it, I will look down and act as if I am searching for something in my pockets so people don’t see my face, and so I wont feel this horrible anxiety of having to walk past them with showing myself. I bite my lips a lot when I am outside walking and anxious. I go over past arguments a lot and play them over in my head,


- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?

Don’t have friends, well about my brothers, I hate that my younger brother is not spending much time with me, that he is rather spending more time with his friends, but its not so much of a problem, he doenst show much respect also and at times I have to teach him some, well my older brother is ok, we have some arguments at times, but I am right anyway, my mother is controlling and hate that, but she is weak so no problem, I hate it when she asks me how I feel and stuff like that, I don’t like to talk about it. My father, don’t like him to much, don’t feel good around him, I am timid and weak around him, closed off, and rarely talk to him. I hate having to do with things, or be with him alone at home, its uncomfortable




11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?

Oh many, I will not list just a few, claustrophobia, death,heights, sharks, snakes, elevators, thunderstorms, underwater animals, catching a contagious disease, c*a*n*c*e*r, flying,..

My dreams are mostly of having no control, like for example I dream about driving a car and hitting the brakes, but the brakes don’t work, or at other times my foot wont move on the brake pedal, so I hit many things than, I don’t have a fear of driving so these dreams don’t have much effect on me,
Or I dream about being in a shop and the shop is closing and the gates are coming dows so I need to get out quick, but either I walk very slowly or my feet wont move, so I don’t make it in time. Again this does not have much effect on me when I wake up, or its not an abandonment issue I think, Just the usual of not having control.
Yesterday I dreamed of aliens coming to earth and attacking us, I had the fear of death, there I could feel afraid in the dream,
The day before I dreamed of falling in the ocean after my brakes in my car wouldn’t work.
At other times I dream also about ghosts, or some stuff like that.


12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions?



13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?

Its normal I guess, or maybe excessive

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?

its less, but on some days normal

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?

I think its milk. And salt, it makes me thirsty

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?

I think its more, sweat easily when anxious, but not too excessive, feel a bit of sweat under my arm pits and on my hands, sometimes a sweat drop runs down my arm from under my arm pits

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?

I have some constipation from time to time, and stoll type is sometimes large and hard which hurts me when I have to get it out, but mostly its normal size and not to hard, its light brown color

18. How well do you sleep?

Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?

Well I wake up manytimes unrefreshed and tired after waking up, I go to bed at 3 am most nights and wake up around 11 am or 12. I want always to go to bed earlier but I cant make myself to go for some reason, I just don’t feel tired at night, but through the day time I do.
I sleep mostly on the left or on my back, but many times on the right too, I don’t sleep on my stomach because I don’t want to have my face in the pillow so I might get wrinkles

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?

No, I think I have lots of sexual energy. I haven’t had sex yet because of my anxiety problems since age 14 on when I started smoking marijuana and started to develop social anxiety as I described above. I masturbate a minimum of 2 times a day, never missed a day since 12 or 13 of age and the average is about 4 or 5 times a day, sex is on my mind a lot, I think its my passion, I dream of meeting a girl and doing it with her, with her dressed up nicely in fishnets or pantyhose, with boots or high heels, sorry for too much information, I WANT SEX lol

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? How are you different from others?

Well I feel strange, I feel like something is wrong with me, It must be, since I am alone and lonely, I don’t feel good in the company of others, even though I crave it, and want to socialize, but I hate my physical symptoms and they make it pretty difficult to socialize, most prominent physical symptoms are my head and eye, my chest is also tense a lot, and feel pain there when I feel hurt, but I could live with the chest pain, the head and eye symptoms are worse

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?

No medication, just homeopathy, I took Calcarea Carb for a few days before, than alumina for a few days, than lycopodium for a few days and now I am taking natrum muriaticum,
I only have taken it for a few days, because I always fear this might not be my constitutional remedy and fear its not helping and that I am just waisting time.
A homeopath has prescribed me this remedies above, but has since left me, because I have been to argumentative and questioning his decisions


22. What major diseases are running in your family?

My older brother has psoriasis, a non-contagious skin disease, its similar to eczema

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance.

I am around 1.70m tall, of rather thin build, I think I look attractive, that’s what I am told, but don’t feel attractive, I have brown straight hair, I think its falling out, I am loosing hair on my temples and forehead, but its not too bad yet, I think I look younger than my age,

(For Females)
24. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe the irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc.

25. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner.

When I was younger I had a mild astma, I would get it when the air would be poor in my room at mornings or evenings I would have this whistling sound when I breath, never had an asthma attack or anything like that. I would get this whistling sound also in autumn at evenings when the air was cold. I like to sleep with my window open now always, I cant sleep with no fresh air, Hate driving in cars where air supply is poor too, need open windows or I will feel nausea.
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