Example of the Leprosy Miasm

Presenting Symptoms:

Something that is getting worse
Feel really disconnected from people
Lack of wanting to connect
Don’t feel the urge to connect

Injured spine – L5/S1

Connection between heaven and earth

Can’t connect
Feel distant even from people I am close to
(Gesture: palms facing one another)

With people I am close to I am disconnected
Struggle in me to be closer to them before I felt this way
Don’t know how else to put it into words
May just be a reaction
Desire to be closer even though I feel distant
Don’t feel an emotional connection to people I am close to

Feeling?

Not felt this before
Feel like I am a stranger

Talk about Stranger:

To myself
Don’t know myself
Sit and observe and see everything but
Normally I have an emotional reaction, that I am quite connected to a person; there is a feeling associated with those people – I can’t feel it
Feels like I am observing the world very dispassionately

With it comes a sense of boredom, not excited by things, not inspired to do things
When I am inspired to do something there is usually a connection, but now that isn’t there
Usually I read a lot, now not reading, usually a strong emotional connection
Usually paint, but now no emotional connection to that either


Are you feeling anything?

Frustration
Underlying resentment that I feel like I have lost this connection

How are you dealing with it?

Not dealing with it, don’t know how to
People – have become quite superficial
Feel it has been getting progressively worse
Relationships have become quite superficial

I mean what are you doing in your life because if this?

Seeing people less
No real joy in what I am doing
Only just started working again after 9 ½ months
No emphasis to see people, don’t get up and make the effort
Sit and do nothing

Tell me about the injury?

Take time off to do a non-emotional job
Carrying furniture, other person dropped it, felt something happened
Saw a doctor, prescribed anti-inflammatories and pain killers, when I stopped taking them and 2 days later pain was so bad, I nearly blacked out and was hospitalized
Prescribed more painkillers which I didn’t take
Spine had bent to the side from swelling
Knew it was serious from the pain

Very frustrated and very angry
Worst injury I had ever gone through; had been doing daily yoga practice for 7 years; couldn’t practice it anymore; just slowly getting into it again; very limited; lost heaps of flexibility
Was planning to start yoga teacher training, to do Rolfing training –this is just gone
Knew this injury was going to put back a long way in terms of where I wanted to be
Very angry, very frustrated
Could barely walk, stuck in the house most of the time
Cabin fever, couldn’t drive, pain was too great
Couldn’t really get out of the house (gesture: hands clawed, palms facing each other)
Everything increased the pain except laying down
Stuck at home

I was caught up in this pain, the pain was very bad, couldn’t focus on anything
Couldn’t focus on reading
Tried to avoid watching TV because I didn’t want to get caught up in it
Left with being able to read something light
Couldn’t paint, couldn’t stand long enough; painting is such a huge thing; just hurt not being able to paint
Painting is a very emotional process; brings a lot of things to the surface; need to do it
- spend 12-14 hours a day doing it
- then I get it out of the house want to be away from it

That just hurt (tears in eyes)

Describe the pain?

Like having a really black bruise and then pushing hard down on it
Varies in intensity
Unique pain
- not sharp, not localized, not an ache or throb
- intense pain
- (observation: patient having trouble describing pain)
- tight
- feels like it is being squeezed (clenches one fist , then both fists)
- but no pressure, not like a vise
- picture in my head: compression, not from the outside, from the inside
:

Body is a sack of water, in one point it is more solid, and with that solidity there comes pain; one section has been crystalized and then comes pain; not fluid, doesn’t have any give or take (clenches fists, as if pulling something in two directions)
Difficult to move freely
Pain is coming from the edges of the solidified section; not inside (gesture: fists pushed together); originates where the fluid and solid sections meet – (gesture: pushes fingers together, thumbs together); pain is caused because the solidified section cannot move; feels like 2 positive ends of a magnet, which repel each other, but also feels quite sticky quality like melted toffee, string between them when you pull them apart

They are pushing away from each other but there is still a connection

Just allow the pain to be, didn’t want to take pain killers for fear of doing more damage
Just to observe it
Occasionally got too much and I had to cry
Pain becoming too painful
Frustration at not being able to do anything about

What has this done to your life?

Put everything on hold, my future; can’t paint, practice yoga
Feel useless
Realize the injury will improve with time; have spoken to people who say that
Feel everything else is on hold
Depressing
Feel like I have to stop and I am not in control
Feel weak, like the motivation to do much has gone
Large portion of my life that I cannot do
Not that I am left with nothing, motivation is not there
Not that I am poorer
Don’t feel like I have lost the will to live, life is still worth living
Lost the motivation to do anything about it, to move forward
Because I can’t move forward, not enjoying where I am at
(gesture: hands open, facing one another as if holding a large ball)

Because I cant move forward – because I don’t understand how
Don’t feel that I move much in expressing emotions
Almost like there is a weight I have to carry, until I am moving again
Like having my feet in concrete and I have to chip away at the concrete to free myself

Opposite:

Light – sunlight
Solid at the moment, no light getting through
Fluid, light goes through

ANALYSIS:

The case shows not a lack or break in structure associated with the Mineral Kingdom, nor an Aggressor/Victim problem as with the Animal Kingdom, but a specific sensitivity to something and an opposite sensation/reaction to that.

The key words here are

Limited, Flexibility, Caught, Stuck, Can’t get out, Tight, Vise, Compressed, Squeezed, Crystalised, Fluid, Difficult to move, Sticky, Hold, Can’t move forward, Feet as if in Concrete – this is the Anacardiacea family

The effect on his life is to be disconnected from people, dispassionate, see people less, keep to himself, lose the will to live, no connection between heaven and earth . This is close to the depth of Syphilis, but the emphasis here is not on destruction so much as isolation from the rest of society and even from God himself – Leprosy.

Prescription = Comocladia 200, 2 pills given immediately

Next consultation (2 weeks later):

Reaction to Com 200?

First week and half was good
Not biting my nails anymore – that is an old habit that I thought I would never kick

There have been issues around ex-partner coming up

Such as?

Communication is quite brutal
In love with her at the moment, she doesn’t want anything to do with it
My own insecurities have come up
- feeling unworthy, feeling ugly
- how can I make her want me
- managed to sit and watch it
- ugly in terms of how I was feeling
- we have a strong connection
- I am not good enough
- felt quite unsafe, not pleasant

Because I feel this way, not able to be genuine with her
Can’t express what I am feeling, trying to force myself to feel good
Feel unworthiness, feel afraid to express what I am actually feeling because of the insecurity

Insecurity:

Must make yourself a different person to be liked, to be loved
Generally with women I am attracted to
This time I can sit down and watch it, observe it, usually that wouldn’t happen
Because our communication is so open, she is not afraid to tell me that these issues are mine
I am feeling pretty ugly

Ugly?

Not physical, emotional
Unpleasant feeling inside, feel emotionally ugly
(Gesture: hands close together, turned in towards body)
Dirty
Unworthy
I must be someone else to be appreciated
I know intellectually I am fine, but emotionally…..
Mostly to women I am attracted to

Do?

Try to please people
Try to make them like me
Unnatural effort
Doing nice things, being pleasant
Not saying what I feel like saying
Forced behaviour
I can watch myself doing it
Can’t just relax
Overly pleasant
Feel quite stifled (Gesture: hands come together)

Stifled?

Aspect of myself sitting on my shoulders, controlling my behaviour, so that I am unable to control my behaviour
Can’t feel relaxed, can’t feel natural

When this started coming up, got chest infection (old symptom from the past); coughing up green phlegm
- breathing is good, nasal cavities open
- coughing up green phlegm; very thick, dirty green almost a brown green
- feels heavy

Heavy?

Gesture again: hands turned inwards towards chest
Weight inside my chest that pulls everything towards it, constriction, more like weight

Core of the problem is my mother:

She took off, left us with our neighbours
Feel a need to be loved
Afraid of being abandoned

Feeling that is was my fault that mother left, that I had been bad or upset her; we were close; don’t want to upset people, want to make sure they hang about

Alright, what did you feel was the reaction to remedy?

Feeling more grounded
Pain in back gone
Was feeling calmer, a sense of calm
Feeling of being disconnected is gone
Don’t feel like a stranger now, not observing the world dispassionately anymore

But you are observing yourself now?

Yes, not reacting emotionally until just recently

People in your life?

Sister admitted to psych ward for post natal psychosis
We were close once
With people in my life have felt better, easer to talk to them, easier to communicate with them, easier to empathize with them

Back pain:

Pain occasionally comes if I have been sitting too long or walking too long
- pain is duller, not as painful, doesn’t last as long
Flexibility is still limited, but able to do things I couldn’t do before
Have been able to stand up and draw now, able to create now, express myself creatively

Prescription = repeat Com 200 in ¼ glass water, order in Com 1M

Next consultation (5 months later)

Things have been quite good
Have been shifting forward
The pain had gone completely
Had a lot more energy
Things were going well

About a month ago, it started to return – pain and feeling stuck

Back started to hurt again
Started to bite my nails again a week after that
Then started to feel stuck again
Feels the same

Same emotional stuff attached to it again, insecurities coming up

Basically around my partner
- me feeling insecure in the relationship, whether I am good enough
- not as strong as it was but getting stronger

How not good enough?

- not worthy of this person
- unworthiness

What is unworthy?

No specific trigger
I get caught up, not as strong as it used to be, last ½ to 1 hour
Sense of being unworthy

Prescription = repeat of Com 200, order in 1M

(Follow up on phone 3 months later)

1M was given to patient – it more or less resolved all issues
- things have been very good, amazing
- no back issues at all, no problems


Patient remained symptom free for several years after until I lost contact with him.