Help with Anxiety, weird feeling at night..

Hi there..

I was hoping for some suggestions on what to take for the following symptoms...

I have had anxiety/panic disorder since I was 19 (now 23) and it all started when I took the drug dexadrine (the drug that people are given for adhd)we used it once recreationally and I didnt sleep for days and then developed panic attacks which turned into anxiety/panic disoder. I was put on celexa then effexor and stay on effexor for about a year then weaned off. About 6 months later I was getting married and the panic started setting in again so the doctors put me on effexor again but it reacted really bad and made things worse. I toughed it out but then a few months later I developed OCD. they call it purely obsessional OCD. It is where you obsess over things but dont have compulsions. I obsessed about things that scare me such as murder, going crazy, blurting out the wrong things, pushing people, just the stupidest things you could imagine or just about anything that gets into my head I obsess to the point of panicking. The doctors first thought it was schizophrinia then put me first on zyprexa(an antiphsycotic) but then I went to another phsyciatrist and they diagnosed it as the OCD and put me on cipralex, clonazapam, clonidine (for the akathisia that the drugs gave me) and sleeping pills. I got addicted to sleeping pills and started abusing them and just not acting like myself so I quit cold turkey (wow talk about withdrawal) It took me about 2-3 months to finally get over the withdrawal and was feeling pretty good. I then got pregnant a few months later and was great during my pregnancy then gave birth and was fine until my milk came in and it all came back, the panic, the ocd, and now add depression into the mix. they put me on PAXIL which got me through and I was on that for about 10 months and then weaned off. I took my last dose in June. I have since been doing ok. But on the paxil I always felt this weird feeling as if I was in a movie and things werent real and I always felt really fuzzy headed. Now since coming off of it, I still experiance it. I am fine all day until about 3pm and the feeling hits. I feel like Im in a movie, I cant concentrate on anything, I cant see straight (its almost like I need to wipe my eyes because I cant see), Its almost as if my brain stops functioning and goes into survival mode. I dont feel like myself which makes me nervous and panicky which just adds to the movie like feel. I am also afraid to be left alone with my son when I have this feeeling because I dont feel in control and it makes me panic. My sleep is also horrible, I toss and turn and have dreams but its like Im still awake. I hear people call it a racing mind and my mind just doesnt shut down for sleep. I never feel rested. When I wake up I always feel sad and tired. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night thinking that my son is in the bed and I search for him, or I will JOLT out of bed thinking he is falling off the bed and I try and save him.
I have been to the doctor and tested my sugars/thyroid/iron pretty much everything under the sun and they say everything is fine. It always sets in at about 2-3pm, and the night makes it worse. I feel like when it is winter everything seems worse too, the weird movie like feel, the panic and ocd. I am also on an inhalor for my asthma, and sugary foods make everything worse. About a week before my period I have a strong agitated feeling and get very angry. I feel a little better when I am in the bath tub or laying in bed.

I have tried coffea cruda for the sleep issues, the lady told me to take 3 half hour before bed, then 3 again, then I could take 3 every 15 minutes until the racing subsides and I have found that to be beneficial.

I have also just tried calacea cruda 30ch. I took (with the help of one of the forum-goers) 5 pellets on wednesday and yesterday. Today I felt like I was in a state of anxiety (racing heart, nervous) but not to the point of panicking just a little on edge also very agitated this morning. Other then that havent felt much different. I was told to wait 5 days. Do you think I chose the right remedy?? ANy suggestions would be greatly appreciated!! :)